CHAPTER 43 - Sex with Dad's Best Friend part 6

**EMMA**

Even though I don't know how to drive, I get in the car doing what he asked, but to our dismay, his method of restarting the car doesn't work.

A sense of frustration comes over me as well, the sound of the rain intensifies outside and I am startled when Ethan opens the driver's door, I move to the passenger seat while he settles into the driver's seat trying to get the excess water out of his dripping hair.

I look down at myself and tie my wet hair into a high bun, the time we spent together at the party after the pool was not able to dry our clothes completely, but now we are worse off than before and this staying wet inside this car on an unfamiliar street is stressing me out.

“What do we do now?", I ask, wide-eyed, as Ethan lays back in his seat and removes his wet T-shirt from his body.

“We wait for the rain to let up so I can try something else, we could call for a tow truck to rescue us, but we have no signal, so we just wait and see if any cars show up to call for help."

“What are you doing? Are you going to be naked in here?", I ask the first question that pops into my mind as Ethan removes the belt from his pants and unzips his jeans along with the button.

I can't help it, but my eyes are drawn to the defined bulge in his belly and the narrow path of dark hair that disappears into his pants.

No doubt he is in great shape for a man his age, not that he is very old...

“We are soaking wet and there is water even in my underwear and it is bothering me, you should do the same."

“No, you shouldn't...", he smiles wryly when he realizes that I'm wearing a dress and that it wouldn't be a good idea for me to get rid of it in here.

“This is my fault...", I sigh, leaning my head against the car window.

“It's partly my fault too, I was stupid for wanting to bring you to this party, you and Thomas are right, you are no longer a little girl who needs an adult to protect you..."

Is he finally admitting that I am no longer a simple little girl?

“Yes, you were very stupid, and I have not been an innocent little girl for a long time, and you have only just realized it?"

“Yes. I knew that you are no longer the Emma who loved to go out for ice cream with me like in the old days, but I also didn't want to admit to myself that you have grown up and are maturing so fast."

“Why? You can't stop it from happening."

“I know that, but I can't imagine the lovely girl I watched growing up becoming the beautiful woman you are becoming, and that means things are going to change."

“What kind of things?"

“I miss the time we spent together, little doll. You have changed and matured a lot and that is good, but I see that you have other priorities in life now."

“I have matured, yes, but I'm still the same, the same Emma who loves spending time with you, the Emma who loves you too much, but you don't feel the same."

The alcohol in my blood is making me say things I shouldn't, but I don't want to stop now, I'm done hiding, I want her to know, I want him to know everything I feel.

“Of course, I do, I love you too much, Emma! I love you more than a person can love anyone else, but I love you, and don't you ever doubt it, little doll."

I close my eyes for a brief second listening to my breathing and I concentrate on that sound so that I don't start to shed the tears that form in the corner of my eyes.

It hurts too much, and the pain is getting more and more unbearable, but this time I don't have the emotional strength to be able to control all the feelings that are inside me and that are begging to be released.

“Can't you see it? Can't you see what's right in front of you?", I ask, letting a thin tear roll down my cheek with my eyes still closed.

When I open my eyes I control a sob, keep looking forward and avoiding Ethan's eyes that I know are fixed on me, he wants to say something, but I won't let him, this is my turn to speak, and he will hear everything that is trapped inside of me.

“I try and do everything to hide what I feel, and I know that I always fail at it, so why can't you see that?"

“For many, many years I have been trying to erase it from me, but it is impossible, and it hurts me too much, you can't imagine how much frustration and disappointment I feel every time."

“It is very wrong, I know perfectly well that, and I didn't choose to feel any of it, but I can't and can't pretend it doesn't exist anymore, yes, maybe the damn problem is in me..."

“What are you talking about, Emma?", Ethan asks, using the serious tone he rarely uses.

“About you and me! That's what I'm talking about, Ethan."

“Sweetie, you've had too much to drink, and you must be very confused by the situation, you're not used to drinking and maybe the alcohol is making you..."

“It's the opposite, the alcohol is giving me courage, the courage I never had to say this, so just listen, damn it!"

“Either you are very blind, or you know how to lie very well, what I always told you when you came to visit me, Ethan?", I ask, drying my tears.

I finally look up at him and see that his face is focused in an overly serious expression, and when he lifts his head to face me, I see that his eyes are locked on mine as if he's finally figured something out.

“That you love me, you said this in all the moments we spent together, but I never imagined that this feeling would mean something else, Emma."

“But it does, and that's what I'm trying to tell you now, it's forbidden and very wrong, but I love you, I love you very much!", I break our exchange of glances by closing my eyes again and thinking.

“These changes everything and you know it very well, Emma?", he whispers and I, still with my eyes closed, just nod my head.

“I know we have no control over our hearts and I'm sorry I couldn't see that a long time ago, yes, it's very wrong, but we can't do anything about it, just accept it."

“What do you mean by that?", I hide my face with my hands, but Ethan approaches and interrupts me.

“Don't hide from me ever again, Emma. I've been blind for all this time, and I don't want you to hide anything from me after tonight."

“Beautiful girl and completely forbidden to me, but that means I wasn't the only fool and idiot in this story either, Emma...", I shudder more when he says all this touching my cheek and drying my tears with his thumb.

“What?", I whisper, not being able to understand what he is trying to tell me at this moment.

“You're right, we don't choose to feel the way we feel about the person we feel it for, doll. We've tried to erase it and it didn't work, so our only way out is to stop suffering for something we want when we can have it, our only way out is to face it together, Emma.", he says using a cautious tone of voice that I have never seen him use before.

He interrupts me with a weak smile on his lips:

“Yes, little doll, we can stop pretending and hiding from tonight on..."

I widen my eyes slightly, feeling an enormous desire to pinch myself and prove that this is not a dream but the purest reality.

“How could you also not be able to see everything I feel for you, Emma? How could you not understand every feeling that I tried so hard to hide and keep secret?"

“You are the most forbidden person for me in this world, but I have reached my limit and I can't stand to live without having what I want..."

“And what do you want?", I whisper, unable to say anything more than that.

“I want you, Emma. And right now, all I want most in this world is to kiss you and taste those lips I've always dreamed of tasting."

Was I fooling myself all this time? Does he feel the same way about me and only now have I learned the truth?"

“You may not believe what I am telling you now, but this is the truth, I love you very much and I want you, Emma. We know how wrong this is and how hard it will be, but I am more than willing to face anything for you, anything to have you with me."

“Do you love me?"

“More than you can imagine, sweet baby girl."

“What about Angela?", I say the blonde's name in an awkward tone and Ethan smiles at this.

“I don't love her, I stayed with her just to try to forget a petulant girl, but that didn't happen, and she knows it, and it doesn't matter anymore since a friend of mine caught her kissing another guy today, that's why I decided to take you to this party."

“I'm sorry...", I say, but I'm internally very happy about this and confused to know that there are people capable of betraying a perfect man like him.

“Don't be sorry, Emma. We are here now, and everything has been cleared up, you are the one I want..."

“I want you too, Ethan...", I admit with no shame and nothing to hide at this moment.

“Don't imagine how hard it was for me all this time to control my desire to touch you as I wanted to, I hated myself for feeling this for you, the daughter of my best friend, but it's an insatiable desire and it's killing me inside, Emma..."