Chapter 12-2

But then his father took care of me and slowly when I started to heal he told me about that he had made with my grandfather and that is how I met Alex. But at first, he seemed different. He used to smile a little and talk nicely but now...he has changed completely. Many a time I had assumed that he was forced into this or perhaps he has someone in his life whom he loves and I even tried to ask him all these wanting to sort things out between us. I don't him to marry me being pressurized by the situation but like always he nodded his head no to everything I asked.
"You know my condition! And even though you deny it...I know that you are being forced into this. You don't love anyone...you don't love me...you don't share anything with me...you don't want things to work out between us nor do you opt out of this deal. I don't understand you! You know that I'm in a position where I'm in debt and bound by the deal...but you! You are free! You can always walk out of this deal! So why are you always like this? I want to know the reason for your hatred towards me! Just tell me what is it already!" I huffed out air as I felt the corner of my eyes stinging.
"Ivona!"
"Please? At least let me aware of my sin so that at least I could try to repent!" my voice broke out in the end and soon I was in a series of sobbing.
As I looked back at him hoping that today he would let it all out but to my extreme astonishment he wasn't annoyed or irritated like the other times. In fact, he seemed a little down to earth as for the first ever time I saw concern and a little sense of remorse in his eyes as he saw me break down.
"You know what?" I asked in between my sobs.
"I am ready to face the consequences!" I said once I repeated the whole sentence in my mind practicing it for a moment.
"What?" he seemed little taken aback.
"I can't just can't do this anymore!" I cried as I looked at the ring that I was wearing "I will be the one who will be walking out of this marriage! You seemed to be under pressure but not being able to walk out of this deal. Hence, I shall face the consequences and I shall deal with money that needs to paid back to your father. I shall pay back my grand father's debt! But for now...I'm calling this..." I placed my fingers over the ring ready to pull it off "wedding of-" but before I could do that he walked up to me and kept his hand over mine stopping me from removing the ring.
"Wait!" he breathed as he stared at the ring.
"You don't need to-"
"No! Wait! Look! Forgive me. You don't need to do this!" he said and looked into my eyes. His grey eyes boring into mine as I stood there paralyzed to my spot traumatized by the fact that he was actually opening up to me.
"Look! I understand I don't involve you in my matters but that has nothing to do this with this deal. And for the last time let me make this clear to you...I am not forced into this nor I have anybody else in my heart! It's just that I don't know what to do!" he said as he withdraws his hands and raked a hand through his hair looking slightly red.
"What?" I muttered.
"You won't understan-"
"Oh then, make me!" I said determined and that made me look straight into my eyes.
"You don't me know me well!"
"Nor do you!" as I said that he nodded and bit down on his lower lips staring at the floor.
"I have no problem with you!" he said and I arched my head to a side.
"Nor do I!"
"Tell me the reason for dragging me back here. Your grandma must have been so upset!" I said once I remembered his grandma's saddened look when I told her I needed to leave urgently.
"There's no reason for that-"
"See? I told you! It won't work between us. We should call this wedd-" he got hold of my hand and stopped me from removing the ring as he looked down to me.
"Fine! I get your problem!" he muttered as he took few steps back and shoved his hands in his pant pockets. I stared at his questionably patiently waiting for him to continue.
"Let's get to know each other well!" he said and that instantly brought a smile up to my face as I smirked inwardly but gave him a small nod and smiled at him feeling happy all of a sudden.
It seemed the day just started.