Chapter 25

Qin Jue paused for a while, then slowed down his voice, "Zhiyin, I know I can't let go of my pride, so I don't want to let you know my hesitant and childish thoughts at that time."
"I've always regretted the thought at that time, never again. Whatever you need, I will do everything to help you. You give me one more chance and we start over, okay?"
His eyes were red, and he tightly held Ruan Zhiyin's arm with both hands. Looking at her with hopeful eyes, he cautiously waited for her sentence.
Ruan Zhiyin met his expression, shook her head and sneered:, "Regret? Qin Jue, your regret comes from my leaving. You hope that I will continue to be by your side quietly, instead of really feeling how wrong you are."
"Don't you know anything about my disgust with the Lin family? No, you just feel like everything is the best of both sides."
"You think I have the t&d shares you gave me, and I'm going to marry you, so there's no need for me to get involved with the Ruan family. You can fulfill your own feelings and commitments at the same time."
"It's not that I haven't given you a chance, but you've already used up your chances. You thought you loved me, but far less than you touched yourself."
"To put it bluntly, your actions only reflect the selfishness and despicableness you have buried in your bones."
"Perhaps, you feel that your help is alms? But my life is my own, not yours. You have no right to interfere with any of my decisions, let alone give up anything for me."
"I can't start over with you. There's no way for the two of us. Qin Jue, put away your so-called affection and embarrassment. I don't need it, and I don't want to see it."
In fact, from Qin's mother's repeated hints that she didn't have to work too hard and just needs to be Qin Jue's wife, she should have understood that even without the Lin family, she and Qin Jue would not be able to make it to the end.
The problem between her and Qin Jue was never Lin Jingfei, but his indecision and selfishness which only wanted to fulfill his own ambition. However, Qin Jue said that she was too calm in this relationship, which was not wrong.
She could give up the engagement and go abroad just because she knew that he was dating Lin Jingfei. In the later interactions, her efforts were not because she loved this man to the point of being dizzy, but because she was always willing to work hard in anything to achieve desired results.
In essence, she also has her own selfishness, because she is unwilling to give herself wholeheartedly in front of anyone, and always maintains that calmness.
She worked hard and gave Qin Jue a chance. She has no regrets about the decision to end this relationship. As for Qin Jue's unilateral regret, she has no obligation to fulfill it.
——Qin Jue, put away your so-called affection and embarrassment. I don’t need it, and I don’t want to see it.
This sentence was like a huge boulder that came crashing down, shattering Qin Jue's remaining hope during this time. She really wanted to abandon him, not because of some ridiculous misunderstanding.
The bitter and turbulent emotions were madly shouting, and he wanted to refute Ruan Zhiyin's words, telling her that this was not the truth, that he really loved her.
But all the rebuttals in his heart turned pale and powerless when he met her in different eyes.
Qin Jue's eyes were scarlet, and his teeth clenched, trying to find a trace of emotional fluctuations on her face, but in vain.
There was boundless depression in his heart. As if he had fallen into the dark deep sea, the suffocating sea water enveloped him, and he had lost his sense of everything around him.
The fierce punching wind came, and before he had time to react, Qin Jue was staggered to the ground, blood dripping from the corners of his thinly cut mouth.
Cheng Yuelin slowly removed his cuffs, stretched out his hand to pull Ruan Zhiyin, and his expression was icy cold.
He looked down at the half-dead man, and said sarcastically, "Qin Jue, if you want to be a mistress and pry other people's corners, you have to think carefully. If I find out again, I don't mind giving Qin Zhize some good ideas."
"Mistress?” Qin Jue stood up slowly, wiped the blood from the corner of his mouth, and frowned back, "Cheng Yuelin, you are the one who is late."
The atmosphere fell into a silent stalemate.
Ruan Zhiyin curled her fingertips slightly. She was actually relieved when she saw Cheng Yuelin coming over.
It could be seen that Qin Jue still wanted to anger Cheng Yuelin. She quickly grabbed the man's arm and whispered, "Let's go. Ignore him."
The banquet outside is still going on, and if the situation is getting bigger, it will not end well.
As for what Cheng Yuelin said just now, Ruan Zhiyin didn't want to bring him unnecessary trouble because of herself, nor did she want Qin Jue's mess to bring him more criticism.
When the words fell, the man just glanced at her lightly, and his footsteps did not move.
Ruan Zhiyin sighed and said, "Lin, I know you fought hard, but if you hurt your hand, you will have to be taken to the hospital. There's no need."
If he thinks that she and Qin Jue met here hurting his feeling, what she said now is enough to complement.
Cheng Yuelin's emotions seemed to be affected by her words. He raised his eyebrows, looked at her with deep eyes, and finally nodded with a chuckle, and reached out to embrace her.
The two turned around and left.
Only Qin Jue stood lonely, and the corridor was completely silent.
At the door of the bathroom at the end of the corridor, someone cautiously stuck out his head. It was Wang Xin who had been hiding in the men's toilet for a long time.
He had just finished going to the toilet, but now he was so suffocated by this drama that he wanted to go back and squat, and took out his mobile phone to share with others what he had just heard.
However, considering that Cheng Yuelin was too difficult to provoke, Wang Xin coughed lightly and walked out slowly.
When passing by Qin Jue, he sighed and patted him on the shoulder earnestly.
"Master Qin, listen to my advice. It's not a big deal. But if you go to be the other man then there is a problem with your character, not to mention Ruan Zhiyin will look down on you."
"Cheng Yuelin is her husband now. You have never been an ex-husband. What's the point of entanglement?"
Qin Jue, "..."
/ / /
Cheng Yuelin and Ruan Zhiyin came out of the Yan family's banquet and sat on the Bentley waiting at the door.
With the episode of Qin Jue, it was natural for the two of them to stay here no longer.
Ruan Zhiyin sent a message to Gu Linlang, and left with Cheng Yuelin.
The wide carriage was full of silence.
Cheng Yuelin adjusted his seat, lying on the back seat with his eyes closed. His face was peaceful, and his well-jointed hands were naturally placed on his chest.
He hasn't spoken since he got in the car.
Outside the car window, the neon light and shadow of the night light swept across his handsome silhouette. Ruan Zhiyin looked sideways at him, and could smell the sweet, faint smell of alcohol on the man.
She thought that Cheng Yuelin was able to navigate a group of people with ease and deal with the surrounding conversations with ease, which was completely different from her impression of him.
Gu Linlang also said that the Cheng Yuelin in her eyes could not coincide with the unrestrained teenager in Ruan Zhiyin's description.
Unsure of the man's current mood, after thinking for a moment, Ruan Zhiyin said to him——
"You said that I have bad eyesight, which are not wrong."
The man lifted his eyelids and glanced at her loosely, as if reluctantly aroused some interest in what she said later.
As the car drove through the business district, Ruan Zhiyin stared at the lively night scene of feasting outside the car window, recalling her first Christmas in the United States.
In high school, Qin Jue helped her a lot, and she did have a girl's heart for Qin Jue.
But when she learned that Qin Jue and Lin Jingfei were together, she really let go of Qin Jue.
Later, Qin Jue came to the United States.
During the year he pursued her, people around her said that her two-point and one-line life was too boring and persuaded her to try dating, but Ruan Zhiyin never thought about accepting Qin Jue.
Until she received the Jade Buddha from the dean.
The dean is an elderly person, and she is still a little superstitious about certain things.
She felt that wearing jade could avoid disasters, so even if her savings were small, she gave each of the children in the orphanage a piece of jade.
Jade Buddha is for girls and Guanyin is for boys. The quality is not good, but it is her heart and mind.
On the eve of Christmas Eve, she received a call from her grandfather.
Grandpa told her that the dean had passed away.
Since she returned to Ruan's house, although Dean Chen did not refuse her insistence on giving the orphanage, she also seriously persuaded her not to go back.
After leaving the orphanage, it is time to start a new life.
Older people will leave one day, and people will always face the parting.
Ruan Zhiyin comforted herself as such, but she was still mourning for the dean's departure, only didn't show it.
On Christmas Day, her mentor invited her for dinner.
On the way back to the dormitory, every household turned on the lights to celebrate the festival, but she felt that the scene in front of her gradually separated her from her former self.
In a trance, there is no sense of belonging at all.
It didn't take long for her to receive the Jade Buddha from the dean's mother, and the package was sent one month before the dean's death.
The people at the orphanage told her that a boy called and asked about the Jade Buddhaand later asked someone to send the dean to the hospital.
The dean passed away peacefully without any regrets.
Ruan Zhiyin only mentioned about the Jade Buddha to Qin Jue, and he once gave her a very similar Jade Buddha for this reason.
When Qin Jue went to find her again, it was New Year's Day. Ruan Zhiyin thanked him for the Jade Buddha, and at that moment, accepted Qin Jue's confession.
The car passed through the congested intersection, and several loud whistles suddenly came.
Ruan Zhiyin sighed and recovered from her thoughts.
She held her cheeks lightly with her delicate hands, turned her head and smiled, "Cheng Yuelin, you know that I lived in an orphanage when I was young."
"Um." The man glanced at her.
"Our dean is very nice. Before she passed away, Qin Jue asked the dean to send me a gift. At that time, I felt that this thought was very precious."
So after all, she was touched and accepted Qin Jue.
Ruan Zhiyin felt that she also wanted to respond to people who were willing to go to great lengths to treat her well.
But now it seems, indeed-
"Maybe, it's really bad eyesight."
"What's the gift?"
Cheng Yuelin's voice was not emotional.
Ruan Zhiyin narrowed her eyes lightly, "A piece of jade Buddha."
The man fell into silence, as if feeling a little tired. His pure white palm slowly covered his eyes.
Stopped for a while.
"If there wasn’t that Jade Buddha, you wouldn't be with Qin Jue?"
Ruan Zhiyin was stunned for a moment, pondered for a few seconds, and shook her head with a chuckle, "I don't know."
"But...it really was this thing that made my mind up."
If there is no Jade Buddha, there may be other things. At that time, Qin Jue tried her best to chase after her. In the words of her Chinese roommate, those romances fulfilled the fantasies of many women.
Moreover, there are not so many “if” in the world.
Seeing that the man started to be silent again, Ruan Zhiyin frowned and asked with concern, "What's wrong with you? Feeling sick?"
He should have been drinking quite a bit just now.
"A little bit.” Cheng Yuelin put down the palm covering his forehead, his eyelids drooping slightly, "But, it's all right now."
After a while, Ruan Zhiyin heard his laughter.
"Ruan Yingying, I was wrong.” Cheng Yuelin turned to look at her, and his slightly upturned eyes seemed to be drunk but not drunk, with a smile, "Your eyesight is actually very good, so you don't have to—"
"Look down on yourself."