Chapter 35 "Firey Cheeks"

Jayson P.O.V.



I felt movement beside me. I knew something was off. That's when I started waking up again. After a long make out section. I fell back to sleep with her sleeping right beside me.
So, I knew she was up. I peeked one eye open. I saw her staring at me with a serious expression like she was in her own world speaking to someone. I know because she had an annoying look on her face when she was not present.
So, however, it got her pissed off. I feel sorry for them.
After I saw what she was doing. I started to yawn and lifted my hands over my head.
I heard a gasp and I saw her turn around and close her eyes. She is pretending to be asleep.
I had a smirk on her lips thinking about her.
Then I thought about her body and her long legs wrapped around my waist and her deep down on my coc-
Fuck! I want this girl.

Few minutes later.

I chuckled and shook my head. 
I am watching her asleep. But I know she closed her eyes to avoid me by catching her pretending to stay asleep.

Wow, I felt that kiss—down way deep in my chest where my heart should be if I had a heart. 
"Damn, man, geez, whiz, you're not an empty heartless guy." I heard Jaze say with a shocking response. 

But there is something different when I kiss a girl. First, I knew I wanted her. Then, my body always liked her, but now I can feel something happening to my insides. 

If I couldn't be around her or touch her, I would die. Why? What is the hell wrong with me? She lied to us. I heard my inner voice. Oh, here comes the negativity asshole coming back.

Hey! I heard my inner voice say. I knew there was no one talking to me. Jaze is already gone, and he is probably with Ashely wolf right now.

So, I waited for him to say something. Nope, he didn't say anything. I was right. He wasn't here anymore.
Lucky bastard! I thought with a growl.

I pulled myself away from her. I knew I had to give us some space, or we would be fucking our chatter brains out all night. Nice that sounds to do all night. 

But I knew we had to talk about what was going on and ask her why she lied to me about my mystery girl and my freaking mate!

I felt heat and fire. I felt like I was wood inside a hot fireplace of how angry and sad the bullshit I had been lied to was.

But do you blame her! Asshole, I heard my angry and cruel inner voice can make you feel like shit!
Shut the fuck up! I scream at it in my head. I had my lips still on hers; we were still kissing until I broke it.

 I didn't want to leave her sweetness and taste on her lips. So, I know I will regret stopping the hot and steamy kiss. 

So, I started to pull away, and I lifted because now I was not still bent over Ashley anymore, and now I opened my eyes.
I stopped in my tracks. 

I am staring into her beautiful face.
She doesn't have her eyes open yet, but I see the heat and cute redness on her cheeks. I can see she is blushing. I thought.

Fuck! I am an asshole and fucking dumbass for hurting her over the years. I don't blame her if she tells me to go to hell.

But then I hope she doesn't say that to tell me to go to hell. I know I deserve whatever she brings me, but I pray to God that she doesn't do that.

I bent over her face, just staring at her.

 I didn't know she popped her eyes open, staring up with a worried and nervous expression but also I saw something deep down with another different expression on her face. Hopeless, I don't know why she has that look on her expression.

That was when I saw it—another expression on her face.

Love, 

Wanted,

 Happiness.

I am a monster!

No, I am more than that!

I am an evil, sinister monster! 

I didn't realize Ashely was staring at me with a worried and sad expression on her face. That was when I felt something warm on my cheek.
I looked down and saw Ashely's hand on my face. 
She opened her mouth and asked me.

"Jayson, are you okay?" She asked me in her sweet and soft voice. I saw her eyes get big when I started to take her hand, and I bent down and kissed her wrist. We were still staring at each other. 

"Umm, Jayson," I heard her say in a shy voice, and that was when I groaned, and that was when she broke eye contact and turned her face away from me.

 She didn't want me to see her red-cheeks because she had turned red and was blushing.

I chuckled and let go of her shaking wrist, and I knew if I didn't stop. We both knew what would happen.

 We both be naked and under the covers, me inside her tightness.

 I wanted to grab her, pick her up, seat her on me, and ride my dick, but I knew we would never talk if that happened, as I said.

So, talk now and fuck later. Until then, I need to calm down.
I let her go, and I moved and sat up on the bed. I knew I would kick myself in the ass for turning away.

That when I heard her voice, it sounded hurt. 
Fuck! she feels hurt by me pulling away from her. 

No, don't." I told her, telling her it's nothing like that. I looked into her eyes, telling her with my expression I wanted her.

 It's just we need to take it slow and talk first.
I gave her a small smile and moved closer to the bed, where she was sitting right beside me. 

"What's wrong, Jayson," Did I do something wrong?"
"No, hey, don't you do that." You did nothing wrong," I told her.
"What then!" Why are you pushing me away if I didn't do anything? I thought you wanted-" 

"Please tell me." I heard her say, begging me. She needs to know I am here and I will not hurt her anymore. I would die if I ever hurt my princess again. 
 
"Shh, No, okay." So, believe me, when! I  say I want you, princess," But we need to talk right now."

Oh, I heard her say when she heard me say I wanted her! I looked over, and her face was red, and I saw a shy smile on her lips.

I sighed, and it was beautiful seeing her smile and not broken and sadness on her face every time I hurt her. So, I love seeing her beautiful face light up.

I craved that, seeing everyone making her smile. 
But now, it's my turn to put a smile on her face, and I see it's staying there.

She is not fawning and looking down. I just hope I don't make her cry after we get done talking.
I pray she keeps that smile I put on her face.
Me!
I did that, not anybody else.
I sighed and turned towards Ashely, and I lifted her fiery red face up when I saw it. 

I could see her red face. I wanted to laugh, but if I did. She would probably think this was a joke, and I know she would never forgive me.
So, I licked my lips. 

Oh, man, it is hard to tell her what is on my mind and how I feel. Well, about her.