Pain in love

"It's amazing how someone can break your heart and you can still love them with all the little pieces."

Eternity pov

I slid down on the wall of the room of my apartment; I leave him the man whom I love, him my Aaron



It's not within our control to fall in love ... but to go far away from that love ... is within our control
Tears started falling out from my eyes but deep in my heart I don't know why but I have a feeling that we were never separated from each other like the fragrance from a flower

The door of my room burst open and Olivia my constant companion, my best friend entered my room when she looked so devastated and incredibly sad

"Eter," She said and quickly hugged me

"My dear friend, if I cannot hear his voice, it is better for me to become deaf. And because I now cannot see Him, it would be good for Me to be a blind woman, but I am so vulnerable I will never go back to him he didn't trust me, he didn't understand me and it hurts so much."I wept to hug her

She soothes my back
"It's okay eter everything is going to be fine, I am sure Aaron will come back to you," She said to me

I shook my head "No Oli, he will never, he thinks that I am backstabbing betrayer, he hates me so much oli I saw in his eyes, hatred for me," I said crying profusely

She is soothing me, but my breaths seem like a waste without Aaron I love him so Damm much

"Please eat something Eter, it's been two days you leave him you didn't even drink water properly please," She said to me

I shook my head "I want to be alone," I said to her

"I am not leaving you alone, Eter," She said to me

"I don't want to leave him, but he doesn't trust me, he doesn't love me, now I leave him but I can't express the unbearable pain of separation from him is hurts like hell, you know second without him looks like thousands of years," I said and cried harder

"Shh, please Eter don't cry and eat something I am begging you my dear please stop crying otherwise you will get sick," She said while bringing food towards my mouth
By seeing these memories of my and Aaron feeding each other comes to me and my mind felt dizzy because I can't live without him

Suddenly my eyelids become heavy, and I drift unconsciously

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I opened my eyes, the sound of beeping of the machine heard

I opened my eyes slowly noticed, I am in my room of my apartment laying on the bed and the doctor is checking me Olivia is sitting beside my bed looking so worried, it attaches my hand with an IV drip

"She will be alright just make sure she will take these vitamins medicines, " Doctor said giving the slip to Olivia

After the doctor was gone, I looked at Olivia

"What happened," I asked her while staring at the wall blankly pinching my lips together

She shook her head "you got fainted because of vitamins and iron deficiency," She said to me with furrowed brows

But mind, my soul, my heart, everything is with Aaron
I am missing him so badly I just want to lay my head on his muscular hard chest and want his arms wrapped around my waist
I want his kiss, his caressing everything but my self-dignity and self-respect doesn't allow me to go there, I will never go there, where I have no respect; he has to learn how to trust someone it's very important in every relationship.

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"Olivia, I want to go back to my apartment," I said to her while weakly slinging my arm around her

she brings me to the ice cream parlor for ice cream but everything just reminds me of him Aaron

I love that man so Damm much, I can't live without him

"Eter, just try this berry crush flavor it's new here," She said, but I turned my head away, closed my eyes and so handsome face of Aaron comes into my soul

He is in my soul, every inch of my body has him, every molecule of my skin loves him, he is present in every molecule of my body

Suddenly my eyes caught a beautiful couple
The girl is sitting in the car and her boyfriend or husband I don't know bring her ice cream her eyes sparkled up with happiness, she quickly hugged him and kissed him on his lips

Memories of mine and Aaron in the ice cream shop comes to my mind, tears of separation from him come in eyes, I ran away from there

I come into my apartment and locked the door of my apartment after which I come into my room, and laid an on the floor of my bedroom, tears dried from my eyes but aches in my heart is still so fresh
I closed my eyes, but then the face of my love Aaron my heart

I sat up and go towards the dresser and pulled out the diary of my poetry it poetry can help me to
Forget my sorrow temporary

Because "People who are scared often hide behind words"

I started writing....... For Aaron.



I'm looking for that reality which shines even in extremely dark conditions ... I'm looking for that love which I left at your doorsteps ... people of the world, try to understand the prayer when one bow down ... I'm looking for that heaven which you attain after death

after writing that poem, I don't know why but I have to write something like a letter for Aaron

So I tear the paper from my diary and quickly write - "Your memories have kept me alive ... or else the questions would've killed me a long time back"
I never told you but, I love you more than anything!
But what you did to me, it hurts like hell Aaron, it hurts so deeply to my heart, I will never come back to you again because you don't trust me, Aaron.

Your wife.

After writing that message for him, I quickly stand up and go out of my apartment



And go towards Aaron's mansion,
When the taxi stops at his mansion, I come out and put that paper in the corner of the large iron gate of the entrance of his mansion where I put the pain of my heart for him.

After that, I sat back in a taxi comes back to my apartment
I saw Olivia standing indoor of my apartment looking so worried even her eyes are puffy

I looked at her
When she saw me she quickly pulled me into a tight bone-crushing hug

"Eter where have you been, you ran away from ice cream shop, without informing me, do you even know how scared I was when I didn't found you silly what if anything happens to you idiot," She mumbled even, I feel wetness on my shoulders she is crying

"I don't want to talk, leave me alone Oli," I said to her coldly, I really, don't want to drag her into my sorrows she is my childhood best friend more like a sister and she is trying her best to keep me happy but my happiness lies in Aaron the only love of my life
Eliot is just an illusion now, I understand what the real love pain of actual love is. Aaron 'He taught me how to love, but not how to stop.'

I want to keep away my sorrow from her

"Nothing is kept away from your friend, whether it's your happiness or sorrow, in friendship everything is shared half-half, in your happiness, you always include me eter you always gives me half part of your happiness to me, then why not in sorrow, today I come here to take my part of sorrow from you," She said while tears were streaming down from her eyes like me and hugged me

"Aaron," I whisper his name because my soul is carving for him, my heart is aching for him
"Aaron is my happiness old he is my everything," I whispered while I felt
My limbs that tingle with fatigue
and I ran inside towards my bedroom of my apartment leaving Olivia to stand there.