Chapter 21

Kimberly Medilton
"You tired?" Rafe stroked my hair
"A little" I answered
"Since it's done , let's go home" Rafael slipped his hand to my waist and we walked out from the ballroom. He held me tightly
"What is he doing here?" Rafe asked coldly and I turned to where his eyes land
"He's one of my dad's guest" Rafe and Ethan glared at each other and they're ready to kill each other
"Let's go" Rafael pulled me out to the lobby. We got into my car and Rafe insisted that he wants to drop me first instead of dropping him first
I leaned to his shoulder all the time and he always kissed the too of my head and I felt loved. He never fail me so this time I don't want to fail him
I can right? I can learn to love Rafael right?
"You go.. I'll go inside after you go" I said and he shook his head
"I want to-"
"Rafe.. I'm not a baby" I cut him and he chuckled
"You're always be my baby Maddie" He ruffled my hair
"Go.. See you tomorrow" I said and he nodded. He got into the car again and he waved at me. I waved back and smiled widely. The car slowly disappearing and I walked to my fence
"Are you happy?" I froze and I turned my body to Ethan
"Yeah" I looked straight into his eyes
"You're lying" He walked closer to me and I walked backwards
"What exactly do you want Ethan?" He stopped as he's a step away from me. He looked at me without any expression. It's like he's looking for something from my eyes
"I don't know what I want to be exactly. I'm happy that you're done with me but I'm damn mad when that bastard touches you and kiss you. I love the fact that you're not appearing in front of me again but I hate the fact that I will never get that look from you again.. I don't know what I want Kimberly" He said in a really painful tone
"I have Rafael now"
"He loves you but you don't love him" He stated and I scoffed
"Who are you saying that to? Do you even know my heart?" I hissed coldly suddenly he leaned on me. I trembled and my eyes widen
"Let's talk somewhere else" He took my hand and pulled me into his car. I tried to pull my hand from his grip but it's useless. I got into his car and he got into his side. He started the car and drove away
I turned to him and found his face looked so serious. I turned my head back looking straight. I'm so tired that I can't hold my eyes. I leaned my body back and started to sleep
I opened my eyes slowly and I felt my hand was held. I turned to see Ethan was holding my hand and he looked straight to the beautiful view
"When you left 2 years ago , it felt the same when my sister left me" He said in a really painful tone
"I started to realize everything when I was in Toronto. It was weird leaving Seattle even it was just for a couple of months. It's weird that I don't see you everyday , I don't mock or insult you , I don't see your cheery self , I don't hear your advice and just starting to missing your presence a lot"
"I thought your presence was nothing to me , but it's starting to make a really big influence on my life. I saw that you have a really kind heart , how you always be good to people even they had hurted you"
"I felt that I'm me when I'm around you. That's the real me. I felt comfortable and just right but I always deny it to myself that you're starting to walk into my heart"
"You never give up , you always help other first even you're the one who need help first , you always let yourself get hurt rather than others get hurt.. and that what's make you amazing"
"I realized it when I'm in Toronto and I can't stop thinking about it. That's why I was so excited to come home to see you but you're gone. I was mad.. I felt betrayed. It's like you left something within me but you left me hanging without any message about your departure. I was mad and I always blamed you for it"
"I kept telling myself that I don't need to find you because you will come to me but I was wrong. You have someone that will steal you sooner or later if I kept my pride up" He said a lot but never dare to look at me in the eye
"Do you think this is the best? Do we go our own way? You with someone that you will meet in the future and I'm with Rafe? We hurted each other Ethan" I said not able to look at him either
"No , I'm not letting you back to Rafe's arms"
"It's not fair Ethan!"
"I don't care Kimberly. I've never in my life been this selfish okay? I don't want you to be with Rafael" He bursted angrily and then calmed down as soon as his eyes met mine
"I have a lot of scars Ethan and it's all from you" I said truthfully
"I'm sorry , I was stupid"
"Rafael proposed to me last year and he promised me that he will make me happy and he will never fail to make me happy while you? Have you even made me happy Ethan? All you did was hurt me" He shut his mouth and looked away
"Don't you think this is a sign?" I asked
"Do you like Rafael?" He asked
"Not yet but I want to try. We can learn to love someone" I said
"Look at me" He said and I slowly turned to him
"Do I still make your heart beat fast?" Yes!
"Do I still make you nervous?" Yes!
"Do I still have a place inside your heart?" Yes!
"You know the answer Ethan" I turned away and leaned my back to the seat
"I don't know why I like you, but I love you. I don't know why. I hate it that my heart chose you. You cut my heart until it bleeds non stop. My heart hurt when I went to London. It was a really stupid decision for me to go to London early"
"It's always you Ethan , it never change how matter I try but now I've pass my limits"
"Let me fix it , this time I will never hurt you Kimberly. I swear" He said and I sighed
"Give me one chance" He begged and I turned to him. We looked at each other and he started to lean to me
"No" I said and he looked at me disbelief
"It's not fair Ethan. It's not fair for Rafe" I shook my head and he sat back
"You don't like him Kimberly"
"He sacrifice a lot of things for me Ethan , let's just go our own path because maybe this is our fate" I said firmly and he shook his head
"You can't get back to him Kimberly"
"Take me home" I said coldly , Ethan started his car and drove me home. None of us talk on the way back and the tension was so thick to handle. My heart hurted a lot at this point
My eyes widen when I saw Rafe standing in front of the gate looking at us glaring. I got out from the car and Rafe's eyes landed on Ethan. Ethan got out from the car and as soon as he closed the door Rafe punched Ethan
"Rafe!" I held him
"You want her now?" Rafe asked coldly to Ethan. Ethan glared at Rafe big time
"Okay don't make drama here boys" I held Rafe body
"She's always mine from the start" Excuse me Ethan?
"Yeah , hurting her. Do you think I will let you take her?" Rafe bursted and threw a punch again
"Ethan go home" I said looking at him seriously and he looked at me disbelief for defending Rafe
"Kimberly I-"
"Go home , I hope I don't see you again. Let's just end everything" I said looking at the ground not even dare to look at him
"Kim-"
"Just go Ethan , I'm with Rafe now" I said and I felt Rafe's body soften. He looked at me disbelief
"Go" I looked at Ethan and he had a painful expression
"This is our fate , we can't be together" I knew I will regret saying this later