It's going to be okay

Karina

I wake up in the middle of the night hearing some moaning and when I look into the cabin's small bathroom, Karina is kneeling in the dark vomiting into the toilet, with a thin nightgown sticking to her body due to the sweat on her skin.
I bend down beside her and her body jolts with fright when she feels one of my hands touching her back and the other holding her hair so she doesn't get it dirty.
— It's going to be okay, honey, put it out and then I'll take you to Astor, he'll have something to help us. — I rub soothing circles on her skin as she pours out the dinner given to us by the human family that lives nearby. Even though my father was a bad man, he managed to make many people admire him without knowing his betrayals. — Why didn't you wake me up? Don't feel bad like that alone.
I hold your body so you don't put so much weight on your knees and wait until you can talk. The smell doesn't please me at all, since my sense of smell is much more acute than a human's, however, I would never leave her here alone.
— You were tired, you spent the day carrying the things that came
hidden from the mainland and I was sleeping soundly, I didn't want to disturb them - she says, almost out of breath and I remove as many locks of hair from her face as possible to find her very pale.
Karina's skin is cold and it terrifies me.
—But you're sick, you should have called me. — I frown and she
she appears to have just vomited, as she faces the toilet and sits on the floor, leaning against the wall.
— I'm not sick, I'm pregnant, Klaus. — Place your hand on top of the rounded belly that I confess I tried my best not to look at.
Every day I work to the point of exhaustion not to think about it, because every time I think about it, I release the beast that wants to go to Karina and force her to never let go of me,
even if you've made it clear that you prefer a good male, one who hasn't thought about harming you.
It takes me miles of desperate running, howling and growling before I return to my two-legged form and I end up creating the risk of being seen by someone one of these days, even though I always know how to avoid it.
— Did the healer say how long will you stay like this? — I ask,
I take the cotton t-shirt off my body and use it to wipe the sweat from his forehead and neck.
— It's going to be okay, relax and give me some water — he says in a tone weak and I run to the kitchen and bring her a full glass, and she uses the liquid to clean her mouth. — Give me my toothbrush and toothpaste, please.
I continue to obey Karina and help her remove all traces of vomit from her mouth, but the second she finishes cleaning, she becomes weak again, sits on the floor and takes my t-shirt that was left in the corner to smell.
— Your smell is so good... it even makes my stomach feel better — he murmurs and He takes a breath of air with the shirt stuck to his nose and in the same second his heart starts to beat a little slower, calming down.
— Keep the t-shirt on then, since it helps you. — I shrug, pretending that I don't like that she needs my smell.
It would be great if Karina changed her mind and accepted me as her partner. The truth is that the last time we spoke I panicked at your denial, all those voices I heard my whole life about never being a real Persian, about not having roranis on my body or heat, came back to my head.
But now that we've been apart for weeks, with each passing day it seems to get harder to talk, so I'd rather just stay away and not put her in danger with my volatile inner beast.
— Touch my face again — he asks and I end up giving in, a little. nervous, because I don't want to do anything wrong and make things worse. I gently run my fingers over his forehead and cheeks, which are slowly regaining their color. — Why does your touch feel so good? — he moans and presses his face against my hand.
She probably can't even see me very well, since what little light comes in here comes from behind me.
— Your body still thinks you're my female, but soon the rest will of my blood in you ends and so does the mating, since I stopped
bite you. — My throat hurts having to admit that. — Maybe this will help you not feel like that anymore.
— What happens when we are no longer mated? — It even seems who is scared.
— You will be free to… find a male that pleases you more. And so that works when a female rejects a male, he shouldn't try again or fight with the others, or every time a temporary partnership is broken, we would have hundreds of deaths — I murmur and start to pick up his body in my lap. — I'm going to get you out of here — I warn and hold her against my body as I stand.
Then I walk to the living room and put her on the sofa, turn on the light and Karina blinks a few times, getting used to everything being brighter. Her gaze slides down my bare torso instantly and she licks her bottom lip like she's hungry, which makes my dick start to want to fill with blood.
It's been weeks since we've touched, weeks since I've had any relief from the frenzy that runs beneath my skin every time we get close.
— I'll prepare some of the tea Astor left in case your stomach feels strange — I warn and head towards the kitchen, before I can't resist my animal instincts and make a big mess.
— No need, you're afraid of fire! — he exclaims behind me, still curled up on the old couch with my t-shirt in his lap.
— I don't have any more — I lie, because it's better for me to stir the fire than she, who can get burned and not heal quickly.
I arrive at the small, simple wooden kitchen and convince myself not to think about my difficult task. I put a gallon of good water in a metal pan and count to three to light the small automatic stove in the house. Just press a button and the flames rise.
I want to run out, grab Karina and leave everything behind. My whole body shakes, I start to sweat a lot and my hands hurt like I'm being burned right now. It's been a while since I've had this type of crisis, before my little human they were constant.
— It's just something that-that can't hurt me — I whisper to myself. Even, with my heart beating like that of a wild animal.
— Klaus, are you okay?! — he shouts from the room and I sink my claws on a wooden wall and I stand there, at the edge of where the kitchen ends, until the water makes bubbles. —Klaus? — she asks and suddenly she is behind me, touching my waist. — You're shaking.
Karina manages to squeeze in next to me, as I'm almost blocking the entrance to the room, and as I remain frozen in place, the human quickly turns off the heat and then throws the herbs inside, without any effort.
— It's okay now — he says, with a calming smile, taking me by the hand.
hand and guides me back to the living room, to the sofa where I placed her. In a few minutes the roles were reversed, I went from someone who should protect her, to a foolish male afraid of a small flame on the stove. — Let's wait a few minutes for the tea to be ready and I can drink it. Do you want me to sit on your lap?
I am struck dumb by your question, in disbelief that you would offer me something like that, when you have shown yourself so well without me by your side, just with the healer giving you herbs.
Karina takes my silence as yes, because she sits on my legs and presses her body to mine, placing her head against my bare chest and holding me as if I were her personal teddy bear.
— I thought that after heat your smell wouldn't be so good, but I I don't think it has anything to do with heat or mating — he admits, blowing his breath on my skin and leaving me with goose bumps.
— Yeah, maybe... — that's all I can say, still in shock from the fire and with your behavior.
The truth is that I am a stubborn male and would never follow these rules that the Persians invented about courtship to only try once. If it were Klaus from months ago, I would seduce Karina until she begged to be mine alone.
However, the days have shown me that the little human was right to have doubts. If a Persian woman who lied to me and almost led me to the path of death, came to me saying that she loved me, I would not accept her either. I would never believe her no matter what I did.
And even though I know Karina is right in her reluctance to accept me, I still want her with every cell in my body. I want her every breath, every laugh and every problem.
— Next time you let me turn on the stove — she says, relaxed against me.
— I learned from a human on the island not to be afraid anymore, b-but I think I'm not good enough yet,” I grumble, not wanting to appear weak.
— Are you talking to humans? — She raises her head quickly and your heart beats faster.
— Yes, just briefly. She don't know my name, she won't tell nobody. — I make it up, just to look like I'm making some progress with my flaws.
— So it was something quick between you two? — Arches an eyebrow. — You're away for so long, so... you have time to find a new human and... — You can't even finish the sentence and I don't know if I'm imagining things, but your eyes look like they're about to fill with tears.
— Do you think I had sex with this human?
And I do not know. — He shrugs and looks away. — You're single, right?
You can do whatever you want. — I'm not having sex with anyone — I clarify, without wanting to leave the my sad little female.
Ah, that's good. — Bite your lower lip and I can make the look sad to leave. — I mean... it's not good, but... — Her whole face turns very red, with embarrassment. - You understood. — He gives a hoarse, disconcerted laugh.
— I understand, Karina. — I run my fingers over her face and she sighs.
bottom. - Are you feeling better?
A little. — He puts his hand on his belly and caresses it too. One
The other day I watched her for hours while she stroked her belly and talked to the puppy. — Why didn't you ever agree to hear the baby's heartbeat again when Astor offered?
— I no longer need to get close to the belly, I can hear its heartbeat from here — I reveal and she opens her lips, shocked. — Astor is doing this because he wants me to get closer to you. He doesn't even rest his head on her belly anymore, if you notice.
You are kidding? — Karina smiles sleepily, intrigued by the fact. — No, our baby is very well and healthy. Do not worry.
— How do you know it’s a “she”? — investigates and snuggles even deeper into the my lap, which makes it difficult for me to think of the words I should say.
— I feel like it is — I answer and his whole body looks much better than it did before.
than when I was in the bathroom. — I'm going to get your tea, so your stomach feels better and you can sleep — I warn, placing her back on the sofa.
But before I walk away, Karina stands up, touches my hand and makes me stop. We are having a lot more skin contact in one night than we have in recent weeks.
— I'm going crazy without being able to talk to anyone, Klaus. I need leave the house for a bit or talk to someone. Let me just make one call to my mother, please — she begs, contradicting how I thought she was.
But it makes sense that the little female is missing her family, I'm the one who's so worried, I've ended up thinking that she's one hundred percent fine and that needs to be fixed.
— It's very dangerous to make contact with the continent — I reply and Karina Nod your head, letting go of my hand.

***

A while passes after she drinks the tea and goes to bed, the house is silent, but I can still hear Karina's agitated breathing, someone who can't sleep. After a while I hear her feet on the wooden floor, very slowly, until she reaches the spare room where I have been sleeping.
I usually spend the night with the window open, but I leave the mosquito net on so that mosquitoes don't bite the little female's body. Therefore, Karina can clearly see my face while I pretend to sleep.
—Klaus? — She whispers and I don't respond, I want to see what she's going to do.
After a while, she walks a little further, climbs onto my bed and takes the vacant place next to me, hugging my body and placing her head on my chest. My tail automatically wraps around her ankle and we both fall asleep.