Chapter 42

Luke’s eyes turned into slits after she spoke. His face became red when it seemed like he finally understood what she said. While looking at him angrily, she jutted her chin to show him that she meant every word. He was breathing in gasps and his nostrils were flaring. With a clenched jaw, he took money in his pocket then tossed it on the table.
“You don’t want me anymore? F*cking shit!!” he cursed which startled her.
She looked at the other couple next to their table they seemed to have been surprised too. They were looking at them curiously. Luke stood up and got her arm. He was almost dragging her into the car while she was angrily protesting all the way. But it appeared that he was caught up with his own furious thoughts because he didn’t seem to hear her. When he pushed her inside the car, she glared at him before sulking on her seat. Now she realized that what she said at the cafe were the magic words. She finally got his attention. It was better that he was mad at her than totally ignoring her. She cringed when he furiously got in the vehicle. She wanted to say something but his expression stopped her. He looked ready to blow up so chose to be quiet. They would talk at home which was the best place.
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When he parked the car, she was planning to hurriedly get off and enter the house .This time she wanted to avoid him even for a few moments before he entered the room. She needed a lot of energy and guts to tell him what she thought. But she didn’t expect him to get out of the car quickly too. He took hold of her arm and pulled her with him. She opened then closed her mouth again when Beth and Tina opened the door. Her husband’s face was woody while she made her expression impassive.
When they got inside, she tried to wriggle from his hold.
“Let go of my arm!” she demanded.
"SHUT UP! Unless you want me to f*ck you right here right now then you better zip it!" he furiously said.
She gaped and turned to make sure that no one heard what he said. She made a sound of protest again when he started to ascend the stairs while he was still holding her arm tightly. Once inside their bedroom, she tried again to free her arm but he pulled her towards him by holding her other arm too.
"Let me go! Do you want to cut my circulation?!” she furiously asked.
He was breathing shallowly and his eyes looked murderous.
"What the f*ck did you say back at the coffee shop? You want an annulment because you don’t want me anymore?!" he asked through clenched teeth.
Slowly she started to feel scared of him again but she would try to sound unaffected by his anger. Anyway she wanted to shake him up so she had to be firm and brave. She knew he wouldn’t murder her anyway.
"You have been giving me the impression that you are disgusted with me. You treat me like someone with an infectious disease! Whenever I try to get close to you, you avoid me like the plague! You never even talk to me much more touch me!" she accused.
He released her abruptly then he cursed. He advanced towards the room and went to get a can of beer in the fridge. He uttered a cursing word again before pulling the tab. With his back on her, he gulped the can's contents.
From what she was seeing, her husband wanted to finish the booze before he said anything. She thought he didn’t need alcohol to talk to her or maybe he wanted to end up drunk to avoid having a much needed heart-to-heart talk. The last thing she thought made her angrier.
She squinted her eyes. “Oh great! So you want to be wasted to avoid talking to me? " she asked. He didn't react but got another can. "Tell it to my face if you find me disgusting instead of acting that way!” she rasped.
He turned to her with a heavy frown as if in disbelief.
"WHAT? Why would I find you disgusting? What the f*ck are you saying?!" he sounded angry and incredulous.
"I’m right aren’t I? Just because I got hickeys from…” she was interrupted by his loud cursing.
He angrily threw the can of beer against the wall. He walked to her like thunder and grabbed her arms again.
"You don't have to f*cking remind me!" he said through gritted teeth.
"I was right all along! Seeing me revolts you! That’s why you hardly stay home!” she said bitterly.
"SHIT! Is that what you think?!"
"What do you want me to think then? I want to be with you but you are never home! You have been like this since I was discharged from the hospital! I am fed up with all this! What if I was really raped...aw!” she cried out when his hold even tightened.
"Son of a f*cking bitch! Don’t ever say that! I almost killed that *sshole for what he did to you! And I don't want to even think about what you just said! I’ve been trying to forget what happened and now you say that?! " Luke hissed in a voice that was quite shaking because of rage.
That was when she couldn’t help crying.
"I didn’t want that to happen to me! If you like to forget it the more I want to because I was the victim! It hurts so much because you have been very cold with me instead of being by my side! Just tell me directly if you don’t want me anymore…”
"Stop saying that!!" he angrily said before releasing her.
He moved to the center of the room while he furiously ran his fingers through his hair.
"Do you know why I leave the house very early and come back home really late?" he asked with his back on her. He walked to the window to stare at the pool below.
Maybe he sensed that she won’t reply so he continued.
"Yes I have to agree that I am definitely avoiding you. I do that not because I am disgusted with you. It was both painful for us what happened. If you didn’t stop me, I would have killed that son of a bitch! Until now I am planning ways to murder him though he is already behind bars! Yes I was furious when I saw him on top of you! I was enraged when he kissed you and left marks on your neck..." he admitted bitterly before turning to look at her.
She put her hand around her throat when she saw his face. He looked as if he was in great pain. Physical, mental and emotional pain.
She wanted to go to him but she stopped herself. She had better listen to him.
"I avoided being with you to stop myself from making love to you. Your doctor said we can't have sex yet for a few weeks. I can't trust myself being near you and not make love to you. I can’t be with you without holding you, touching you and making love to you. You know what effect you have on me. I couldn’t trust myself that I can do what Dr. Fuentes advised," he confessed.
She was shocked. She had no clue. The real reasons were the exact opposite of what she thought. She slowly walked to where he was. She felt guilty that she did a lot of stupid things. She even told him that they should get an annulment.
"I always stay in the office. I don't want to go out with my friends to hit the bottle because I wouldn’t be able to stop myself from taking you when I get home .In the morning while you were still fast asleep, I jog for an hour to release my sexual frustration then I take cold showers at the office," he revealed.
She touched his cheeks with her hands.
"B-babe I'm sorry. I didn't know. You should have told me."
He kissed her palms and enveloped her in his arms.
"I love you very much Mrs. Contrero. I will never find you revolting. My desire for you will never wane instead they grow every day," he murmured against her head.
"I love you too babe. Sorry if I said such things. I felt so down thinking you don’t want me anymore.”
She felt so relieved. She knew no one could replace him in her heart though out of anger she always told him they should end their marriage.
"That will never happen babe...never!" he whispered.
She pushed his chest a little to look at his eyes." I didn't mean what I said.." she shyly said.
He chuckled. "I think you meant some of them especially the narrow-minded part," he said dryly.
She chewed her lower lip then smiled. He sighed then kissed the tip of her nose.
"That's okay babe. I am really narrow-minded when it comes to you. I won’t deny that especially now! Even women get attracted to you dammit!” he hissed.
She wanted to laugh at what he said but when every word sank in, her forehead creased.
"What do you mean? Are you going to be stricter?" she asked.
He nodded. "You hit the nail on the head Mrs. Contrero! I won’t allow that to happen again! You have to get used to the idea that someone is going to watch you when you go out," he said matter-of-factly.
She pouted but didn't say anything. He was only after her welfare. All he wanted was for her to be always safe.
"Okay," she agreed.
He cocked one brow. "Do I smell a silent rebellion Mrs.Contrero? Or are you really not arguing about it?" he sounded doubtful.
She ran her tongue on her lips. "I also don't want to be in that same situation again," she admitted.
He nodded with a satisfied smile on his lips.
"Good," was all he said.
Being this close to her hot husband was really making her think of sex. She needed him. She wanted him to possess her. She was dying to taste and hold him.
"Babe don’t you miss me?" she asked huskily.
Luke frowned. She rubbed her tits against him.
"F*ck babe!" he groaned.
"I miss you so much,” she confessed in a breathy voice.
His frown deepened when she touched his bulge . She closed her eyes while she held him. She was savoring having him in her hand. She missed its size and texture.
"Dammit babe! We can't! Don't do that! I told you just now that I have been controlling myself from taking you! Is your medication making you act like this?" he asked through clenched teeth.
She nipped her bottom lip. She didn’t know why she was feeling frisky. It could be the medicine or it was because she hadn’t been possessed by him for days.
"I dunno. But we can do heavy petting right?" she asked throatily.
Before he could open his mouth, she tiptoed to kiss him on the lips.
That broke all his control. He hungrily kissed her back. All the nights that he wasn't able to touch and kiss her had taken its toll. He let out a sound of pain and pleasure from the back of his throat when she opened his fly and put her hand inside his briefs.
She tore her lips from his to say in a gruff voice, "Take off your shirt babe. I want to see and touch you."
"Let’s go to the bed. I don't want anyone seeing us from below," he pulled her away from the window and walked to the bed.
He laid on his back bringing her with him. She was on top. He had his hands around her as he kissed her wildly. She was feeling bold because she really missed him. She ended the kiss.
"Babe I want to ease your sexual frustration," she murmured huskily.
He knitted his brows. "But we can't make love yet babe," he said and disappointment was evident in his voice.
She moistened her lips then seductively said," I want to taste your cum again."
His handsome face brightened and he let out a satisfied smile.
"Then be my guest, wife. Do what you want with me, you own every part of me just like I own yours,” he drawled.