This is all your fault

Cassie

It was such a strange feeling being trapped in my own body. Able to hear and to see and feel but not being able to move. I couldn’t even turn my head to see what Julian was doing to Bill but it sounded violent.

Good.

I hoped what ever Julian was doing to him was causing him pain.

Finally it all fell silent. The only sound was the raspy sound of my breathing mixed with Julian’s.

He hovered over me, but I didn’t look at him.

“It’s ok now.” His voice was softer than I had ever heard it. “It’s over, I came in time. You’re safe.”

Not able to move anything but my eyes I finally looked at him. He was standing by the bed, with his hand outstretched like he was going to touch me and at the last minute thought better of it.

I was glad of that I didn’t want him touching me. I didn’t want any one to touch me. All I wanted to do was go home and wash my skin free of any touch of bills.

It disgusted me that he had touched me. But it could have been worse. It would have been worse if Julian hadn’t arrived before the drug had fully taken hold of me.

I should be grateful but all I could feel was anger. Anger than he hadn’t believed me earlier but was now suddenly acting like my hero.

I didn’t want a hero and I didn’t want him.

At my side my fingers flexed and I let out a sigh of relief. Finally my body was beginning to work again. It felt like hours since Bill had sprayed that mist into my face but I knew it was only minutes.

“Are you feeling better now?”

It was an innocent enough question but it unleashed the rage in me. Forcing my still not working limbs to move I pushed myself upward. And even that small movement took all the strength I had. I could glare at him though.

“Better?” I seethed with the anger flowing through me. “Did you really just ask if I was feeling better?” My voice was growing higher and higher.

For a second Julian looked shocked at my anger but I wasn’t surprised by that. Julian was the kind of man who didn’t think about anyone but himself. I hadn’t known him long at all but I knew that.

He was a selfish man.

“Yes.” He shrugged. “But I can see you are angry.” He frowned slightly. A small line appeared between his eyebrows. “And rightly so.” He added quickly. “I mean you have every right to be-“

“I have a right?” I screeched. My legs dangling off the bed. The feeling was coming back to my extremities now but it was the horrible pins and needles feeling that was equally uncomfortable. He was lucky I couldn’t stand up yet.

Really really lucky.

“I just meant.” The first sign of unease flickered into his eyes. Reaching up he ruffled his dark hair. His eyes darted away from my face for a second and two pink spots appeared high on his cheeks.

What the hell did he have to blush about?

Asshole.

“You’re damn right I have the right to be angry and upset Julian” I shouted. My hands clenched into fists at my side, “You didn’t trust me. Thought we were flirting right Julian? Now you’re the savior?”

The colour drained from his face. He went as white as a ghost. “I-“

My whole life is spiralling out of control. Over and over again I clenched and unclenched my fists. Desperately trying to control my anger so I didn’t hit the heir to the Lycan king. He’s the last one I wanted to see after this.

“Leave me alone!” I screamed.

He deserved it , though. Maybe if someone had smacked him upside the head growing up he wouldn’t be such an insufferable fool right now.

His eyes widened. The look he gave me wasn’t a hurt one. I doubted he had feeling to be hurt but it was surprise.

“Why so shocked?” I asked. “You said so yourself that I’m a filth. Like a dirty animal that could do anything and you didn’t want to be tied to me at all-” Why he still refused to leave? He should be furious now.

Disgusted by his existence, on shaky legs I slipped from the bed and my knees almost gave way. I gripped the edge of the bed to steady myself but not before his hands lashed out to catch me around the waist.

All of a sudden it was hard to breathe.

Probably because I was moving around before I should be. That was what it was, I told myself. Had to be.

“And I lost my dream job.” I willed my thundering heart to slow down before he heard it. “My life derailed the moment I met you.” Throwing my head back I gave an unhappy laugh. “Hell is the marriage even legal? You haven’t touched me. You didn’t even show up. I’m in limbo. I’ve lost my home and my dream job and almost myself - ”

The anger speeding through me was getting to much. Lifting my hand I swung my open palm at him. It was a silly thing to do but I did it anyway.

He caught my wrist easily. Holding it for a second above my head.

And his eyes darted downward. It took me exactly five seconds to realise what he was looking at.

When alpha bill had attacked me and I had fought back, my blouse had ripped. Julian was looking at me because I was flashing naked flesh at him.

Glancing down I struggled against his grip on me.

Now I knew why he refused to leave and stared at me in surprise.

I needed to kill him.

“Let go of me.” I growled out. This was mortifying. One of my breasts was fully out of the cup of my bra. The rosy nipple all puckered up and aching.

Damn it.

“Don’t fucking look at me!” I was so embarrassed. Not just because he was looking at me but because his nostrils had flared.

I was turned on and I didn’t know why. Why was I suddenly wet for him? Why were my nipples straining with the need to have his mouth on them?

I hated him with everything I had but I wanted him as well.

It had to have something to do with the mist alpha bill had sprayed on me I told myself but I wasn’t sure that was true.

“Let go of me before I scratch your damn eyes out.” Anger was easier to deal with than the hot feverish lust that was taking over me.

I didn’t want Julian. I didn’t. I would never want him. It was just my body reacting to the drugs that had been given me.

The strong fingers around my wrist flexed. “You’re crazy. Out of your damn mind, insane.” He spat and even though his voice dripped with condemnation, his eyes told another tale.

They had darkened and become hooded. His lips were parted and his chest heaved.

“Of course I’m insane. Of course I’m out of my mind. I’m married to a grade A asshole.”

He growled and my lower stomach erupted into flutters that felt like butterflies against my mound at the sound of it.

“I don’t care that you're the heir and will be king one day.” I carried on trying to ignore the wetness that was pooling in my panties. “I hate you.”

“I hate you as well.” Gripping my hip hard he pulled me into his body. Crushing me to his chest so tightly that my breast was squashed against the marble hard muscles.

I moaned before I could help myself.

Julian’s eyes widened at the sound that escaped my lips.

It was a needy look. One that mirrored my own.

Reaching up his shadow covered me. He smashed his mouth against me like a lion bit on the neck of his prey.