CHAPTER 9- YOU RUIN ME

Listen to you ruin me by the Veronica's



Life isn't all that easy, I thought I was brave; I was told I was brave but I am not.

Even if I talk about how I feel, no one will care anyway. Firstly I can't tell anyone, secondly my family doesn't care!

They were the ones that did this to me and here I am, looking at the mirror with tears streaming down my face. I feel my throat, I silently scream, "everything hurts," I whisper leaning my elbows on the basin.

For no apparent reason, everything started to fall apart too quickly to fix it.

"Claudia?" Zac whispers.

"Y-yeah?" My voice cracks and I mentally curse myself, I hear him curse.

"What's wrong?" I can't believe he just asked that!

I swing open the door and he looks at me, noticing my red face and puffy eyes. His eyes soften from their hardened state and he walks into the bathroom trapping me between the basin and him, I'd rather be anywhere but here.

"What's wrong?" He repeats.

I want to shout at him, tell him that this isn't what I want. He's stupid, he should realise I'm breaking down because of him. Because of this stupid fake marriage and I hate him, I want to call everything off. I don't care if my family disowns me, I don't care what anyone thinks. Kill me! Kill them! Let this torture be over!

But instead I whisper, "nothing."

He sighs reaching up and tucking a strand of hair behind my ear, "tell me," he demands.

"I-I just stubbed my toe on the corner of the wall," I lie, he chuckles.

"Poor Claudia, are you okay though?" I nod.

"Come on, we are going to the club," he says.
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One thing I do not fit into his clubs, it stinks of sweat and alcohol; wait a minute... I'm 18 and have never been to a club cause all my friends are younger! So I didn't bring my ID which they didn't check and he didn't even show the bouncers iD

"How did we get in here?" I ask hoping this isn't another place he owns, it's to hard to keep track of.

"I own this place," I shrug to myself, free things!

Actually, I don't want anything here. Most likely it's spiked.

People glance at us and our joined hands, he kisses my cheek to make it more 'realistic,' then whispers, "I'm going to the bar, some of my mates are here," I nod and he walks past me.

I sigh and look around, drink? Nope. Dance? Nope. Well it's technically grinding and movements of sex so a definite no.

I see a small stage so I walk to it noticing the microphone and piano, time to show Zac my number one talent.

They must have karaoke here, I walk up the steps and clear my throat looking in the direction of the bar noticing Zac talking to multiple women and laughing.

I start out soft, "Job well done
Standing ovation
Yeah you got what you wanted
I guess you won
And I don't want to hear, they don't know you like I do
Even I could've told you
But now we're done.

I see Zac look up on the stage, as well as everyone else. I look into his eyes but then close my own, letting the music calm me.

'Cause you play me like a symphony
Play me till your fingers bleed
I'm your greatest masterpiece
You ruin me
Later when the curtains drawn
And no one's there for you back home
Don't cry to me you played me wrong
You ruin me.
I see people slow dancing and I smile, this is to you Zac for ruining me. He looks at me in amazement, surprised.

My fingers work over the piano's keys, this is my strength; my peace.

I know you thought
That I wouldn't notice
You were acting so strange
I'm not that dumb
And in the end I hope she was worth it
I don't care if you loved me, you make me numb

'Cause you play me like a symphony
Play me till your fingers bleed
I'm your greatest masterpiece
You ruin me
Play me when the card's drawn
And no one's there for you back home
Don't cry to me you played me wrong
You ruin meeee!
We're that song you wouldn't sing
Just a broken melody
You're killing me

You play me like a symphony
Play me till your fingers bleed
I'm your greatest masterpiece
You ruin meee!
And later when the curtains drawn
And no one's there for you back home
Don't cry to me you played me wrong
You ruin me."

Everyone claps and I slowly walk down the stage, Zac stands in front of me and grabs my waist.

"You can sing," he states.

"I guess," I shrug.

"You are... Really good," he compliments, I smile.

"Thanks."

"I'm guessing you sung that song because I ruin you?" He whispers, I wink at him clicking my tongue.

"How'd you know?" I sing.

He bites his lip, "do you hate me that much?"

Not beating around the bush I reply, "yes I do."

Then I push past him walking to the bar deciding I need a shot or two.
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"CHUG!CHUG!CHUG!" They shout as two guys old one leg each and my arms grip the barrel with beer in it.

I'm versing someone named Shoe? Shape? No, Shae!

I finish the barrel of beer before Shae and they drop my legs, everyone cheers for me and I thrust my fist towards the air.

I stand on the table, "now whoossss drunk?!" I shout, they all cheer.

"Raise your glass for the people who their parents chose them to love!" They raise their glass and bring it to their lips.

"Raise your glass for marrying a super hot billionaire and he is somehow nice!" They cheer and chug the shot down.

I feel my own shot sliding down my throat, I've gotten used to the burning feeling.

I hear an angry growl, "CLAUDIA!" I look down and giggle.

"Oh there's my hubby!" I coo, he places his hands on my hips from where he's standing. Somehow he's almost at the height where I am on the table, maybe the tables short?

I giggle as he grabs my hips,"what the hell are you doing?" He hisses lifting me off the table, I wrap my legs around his waist and hook one arm around his neck.

He looks at me surprised, I guess I'm an affectionate drunk for people who I hate, his hands grip my hips and I stare at him.

"Wow," I say with my eyes wide.

"What?" He asks.

"Your face is like a square!" I squeal, everyone cheers yelling 'SQUARE!'

He glares at me and tries to put me down but I cling onto him tighter, "Claudia what is with you?" Have I only just noticed how attractive he is?

I feel arousal stirring within me and I smile lazily, then my smile stops as I feel an ache between... There.

"What's wrong?" He asks.

"I feel sexual," I honestly say, he looks at me with surprised and I see he slightest blush on his cheeks even though it's dark in here.

I then smile, "hey! That's a good song, I'm feewing sexual! Ve should be sexual!"

"Feewing? Ve?" I nod. "They aren't even words," he mutters and I grin.

"Okay let's go and eat ice cream!" I smile, he sighs.

"First get off me," I pout but slide my legs down off him, he groans his eyes closing and I raise an eyebrow.

"Oh my god! Did I hurt your balls?" I squeak, he sighs and shakes his head gripping my wrist and dragging me out with force.

"Bye friends!" I wave, a chorus of, 'bye Claudia!' Echoes.
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"Claudia what you did tonight..." He angrily says and I look at him, my vision blurry.

"Ha?"

"This could end up on the paper!" He roars.

"Me having fun?" I ask, he glares.

"No. You chugging down beer and even drinking from that barrel!" He says, his eyes somehow seem colder.

"Let's just eat ice cream," I yawn, he sighs.

"You never take me seriously," somehow in my drunken state the anger from the bathroom comes back to me.

"At least I didn't force you to marry me!" I shout, he scowls.

"Discussion over, go to bed."

With that, he storms away like a bull.

And I sigh.