24. His broken past

CILIA'S POV
Does he have to always suddenly show up in front of me, anyways why is he here? What's he doing in my department. Ahh, I forgot he's also in Business Adminstration department like his friend.
But why is he standing before me right now and smiling without saying a word for over thirty seconds?
'from now on, we'll be seeing each other constantly.' His words rang in my memory.
Okay, but why?
I put my phone into my waist coast pocket as I stared at him. Yes, I didn't forget to cover up properly today, lesson already learnt.
"Uhmmm, excuse me." I said after another thirty seconds of him looking down at me with that heart breaking smile of his. Some students were still squealing and shrieking. I think I saw some videoing secretly. What's their problem anyway? Well I don't blame them, I'm almost drooling myself, if not that I'm still somewhat jealous due to the photos I saw earlier.
But Lia, what's wrong with you anyway? Leave since he doesn't have anything to say other than to look at you....
"You are in my way, do you mind excusing yourself?" I heard gasps around. Wait did I just say that to Jay? America's most famous musician? Even after he helped me from the cold yesterday?
Who cares anyway, he's a playboy. He doesn't love and you know that. Just look at that photo, he flirts with girls all around. You can stay if you're ready for your next heartbreak.
This isn't me, I'm not usually like this.
I fall easily in love, that's why I need to get away from Jay before I get myself hurt.
Just because of the little attention he showed to me yesterday, I was already getting jealous of seeing him with other girls.
I've always had this crush on Jay ever since I was 16, but it seems like it suddenly increased from the day Jay stepped foot on this campus. I see myself daydreaming of the possibility of being his only girl, to the extent I began learning Korean, just for him. I shouldn't let myself fall in love with him. I should stop it at all cost, to protect my fragile heart from shattering once again, that's why I must leave now.
He still wasn't saying a thing, just looking at me amusedly like he could hear my thoughts.
"I'll return your scarf tomorrow, didn't know I would run into you." With that said, I walked away from him to another direction, after all the hallway was incredibly spacious. I was thinking about going to meet Tania at her department, when I suddenly saw myself being spun around back to Jay.
He was holding my hand tightly as he drew me closer to himself. I was stunned beyond imagination. Infact stunned is a little word for how I felt. My eyes were widened in shock, lips completely agape.
Jay surprisingly leaned closer and whispered in my ear.
"Didn't I tell you we'll be seeing each other constantly? Welcome to day one." He paused. "Don't be scared Saline, I just wanted to talk. You're really amazing you know." Now I'm completely flustered and in shock, serious one.
He leaned back and smiled again, this dude really loves smiling. He looked back at the students.
"All of you that have been videoing, stop right now and delete every single of it you have in your phones."
He knew? I looked from him to the students.
"If any of this leaks on social media, I'm gonna have you all dealt with. Is that clear?" He warned. Many of them nodded fearfully, some frantically trying to delete the videos, I could tell based on how they were shivering as they operated on their phones.
Hmm, Jay's okay with photos of him and other girls displayed on social media, but he isn't okay with mine and his?...
He looked back at me and smiled again.
"Don't misunderstand me please. I'm only trying to protect your highly placed reputation in this campus. If the video or photos gets out, you know what the students can do, their snide comments and all. I heard what they said about Aurora and I won't like that to happen to you too, at least not like this. I only wanted to talk." He said.
He was right, it wouldn't be pleasing to me to hear comments as the ones they were saying about Aurora. That would be very upsetting. I nodded slowly, he smiled and took me out of the crowdy hallway into a much more serene environment.
JAY'S POV
Saline isn't an easy girl like I earlier thought. I still can't believe she wanted walking out on me.
Although she's jovial and friendly, I could sense her fear. Like, she's scared of herself being a victim of heartbreak. Yeah I researched on her dating life, she just broke up with one Eddie adding more to her list of ex's.
According to my research, she's had series of heartbreaks before her recent one. I'm figuring that's why she's trying to get away from me, especially with the fact that I'm a playboy. And not just from me, many of my kind.
But I need her to relax. I won't hurt her. Besides I don't have any intention of dating her or anyone else.
Love sucks really bad most times. Look at Daniel, and there's also that guy I saw with Diva the other day and there are many more including Saline here. I can't allow myself experience that, I just want to be close to her that's all.
"You said you wanted to talk, I'm listening," She said, breaking my train of thoughts. "I'm sorry I didn't bring your scarf, I'll try to bring it tomorrow." She added.
"That isn't necessary, you can keep it." She stared at me questioningly. "I mean, I have many others." I said looking back at her. We were sitting just few meters away from the department building, under a tree.
"Thanks." She said.
"It may sound silly or even surprising to you but, I've been watching DSD's performance for over two years now. Your weekend videos included. I must say you girls are doing really great." I paused.
"You have?" She asked, looking at me in surprise. I nodded.
"And thankfully to you especially, I go..." My ringing phone interrupted me. I stood up to answer it. "Please just a minute," I said. She smiled and I walked away a bit, backing her.
"Susy didn't I tell you not to call me again? nahente jeonhwa hajimayo! (stop calling me)!" I said switching to Korean. I met Suzy during one of my performance in South Korean a year back.
She was the girlfriend of one of the band members I performed with. Ever since then, she's been bothering me and stylishly wanting a relationship with me. I've told her countless of times that I can't date her but she never listen.
"Oppa I just wanted to say hi..."
"nanuen dangsin-ui oppaga anibnida(I'm not your Oppa) dangsingwa yaegihago sipji anh-ayo ( I don't want to talk to you)." I said sharply and ended the call.
I turned back to Saline, but she was gone. I looked around for her but couldn't find her.
"Shit!" I kicked the chair in annoyance.
Just great, extremely...
CILIA'S POV
"Susy didn't I..." I stood up quietly and walked back to the park at the department building.
Jay's too involved with a lot of girls and adding me to the list isn't what I want. Although I really wanted to hear what he was about saying of me when the call came in.
I know myself, I'm already at the thinnest line in between my crush and love for him. Any further attention he gives to me will end up pulling me over the line, and I may fall very badly in love with him.
I should stay away, but will he?
I reached the car park, walked over to my car and stepped in. I need to go see Tania, Elle sent me a message earlier that she was with Jade.
I started the car and drove off.
FLASHBACK
DANIEL'S POV
I ran very fast out of the football field to her department. What I just heard from the students shouldn't be true. It mustn't! Not after all these years, she can't do that to me!
On reaching her department, she wasn't there. She should be at our favorite spot then.
I ran speedily to the fountain falls, sweating and breathing profusely from the amount of meters I'd covered, but I didn't care. I really need to see her, she'll prove to them that she's still mine, that they were wrong. I can't lose her.
I slowed down my pace a bit when I reached the fountain. Moving forward, I sighted her smiling and hugging another guy with her back to me. She was really cheating on me with the president's second son, Xavier, who just got transfered to Newark University.
She brought him to our spot! Goldie how could you?
My eyes red with fury and jealousy, I yelled at her.
"Goldie! What are you doing?" She turned around abruptly when she heard my voice. She looked at me for a while before turning back to him, she kissed his lips and turned to look at me.
She fu!king kissed another guy in my presence!
I was completely clouded by rage to the extent that I rushed over to him, pushing her out of the way and punched him so hard he fell. To my utter dismay and anger, she ran down to him in panic. I swallowed hard and painfully, feeling my vision blur due to the gathering tears.
"Are you alright Xavier? I'm so sorry. Are you hurt?" I drag her away forcefully.
"What do you think you are doing Goldie?! Are you out of your mind?! You are choosing him over me?!" I yelled.
"I'm sorry Daniel, I know this might seem sudden to you, but I don't love you anymore."
"What! Yo...yo...you are kidding me right? This is a joke! You love me Goldie, remember?" I said, becoming suddenly weak at her words.
"I am not joking Dan. I'm sorry. I thought I did but I was wrong, I only dated you for fame. But when Xavier came along, I fell in love with him." My eyes were already teary.
She... she only dated me for fame? No that's not true.
"No. No, you can't do this Goldie. What happened to all those affection you showered on me all these years? You can't leave me! Please. What did I do to deserve this? Please tell me, I can change if I've erred, but please don't breakup with me, please Goldie don't leave me." I cried holding her shoulders tightly.
She just stared emotionlessly at me, no remorse, no concern. After four years plus of dating, she wants to leave so suddenly. She didn't even have the decency enough to break up with me properly, but only after I caught her cheating. When did she become this heartless?
I slowly released her. She was really leaving me for him. What did I ever do so wrong that she had to do this to me? I stared at her intently.
"I've got one last question Goldie, did you ever loved me? Please answer me sincerely." My tears were streaming down already. She looked up at me in...in...pity?
"Dee I'm...." There goes the nickname she gave me. She reached out to touch my face but I stopped her.
"Just answer me!" I said coldly.
"Dan I'm so..."
"Babe?" The idiot that took her away from me called. He was up already.
"Daniel I'm sorry. It's over between us. Please forgive me." She turned and walked away.
"If you leave now Goldie, don't ever come back! No matter what your reason for this was, if you breakup with me now, don't ever come back to me!" I said after her, she stopped on her track but didn't turn back to me. I sighed, wiping tears away.
"Fine! You made your choice, thanks for teaching me a hard lesson." Xavier walked to her and took her away.
I sank on the floor and cried.
PRESENTLY
That was the most painful experience of my life. My eyes are probably red right now. Each time I think about what she did, it breaks me afresh.
Now that I think of it, it's good dad transfered me here. Seeing them together back then at Newark almost everyday was making me lose my mind. I was very terrible for the first three months. I lost concentration in everything even the things I loved doing. But she never called, never texted, neither did she check on me.
My friends wanted to talk to her on my behalf but I stopped them. There was no use, she still won't return. I never expected her to do this.
I was 19years old when I and Goldie started dating and now I'm almost 24, in a few months I'll be. She's the first girl I've ever dated but she isn't my first love. There's someone else who I can't remember but I know Goldie wasn't the first girl I ever liked.
I stopped attending concerts, even Jay's own because it was a constant reminder of her. She's a singer just like Jay, her voice was melodious. She used to backup for him during any of his performance while I played the Bass guitar and Roe, the piano. I can't even remember the last time I touched a musical instrument now. We were a great team back then, but then she chose to ruin it.
I looked around the quiet vicinity I was sitting. I've been here for over fifteen minutes after my last class.
My stomach rumbled, I haven't had lunch yet. I think I'll have pasta and barbecue sauce for lunch at the private cafeteria. Yeah, that seems yummy...
Roe's probably still having classes and Jay, he went to find Saline. I was alone.
I stood up and walked towards my car.
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I parked my car at the park beside the private cafeteria. I was about removing my seat belt, but was interrupted by laughter. I looked ahead only to see Diva and a guy laughing as they walked out of the cafeteria.
I frowned upon seeing them. Ugh! So cheesy. I scoffed. Probably her boyfriend. A black handsome dude with coily shiny black hair and silver eyes.
Why is he wrapping his arm around her? My frown surprisingly deepened. I feel so jealous right now. Why do I even care anyway? I think I'm going insane.
I watch him open the passenger door of a gray Honda Accord car, while playfully bowing to her as she stepped in. I gritted angrily, hitting a hand on the steering wheel.
I don't even know why I feel so angry. Watching the car drive out of the vicinity, I grimaced.
Great! Appetite lost. I reversed my car and drove out too, heading to the dorm.