090

JULIA
When Master left, it was as if a part of me left with him, even knowing he'd return soon. The other four came in. Ed and Rob teased us both, calling us the raccoon sisters. Regina pulled out her compact so we could see how we looked. Ugh, so ugly, our faces a mess. Lisa with her broken nose, me with a big bandage over my cheek, both of us with black eyes and wan, pale skin. How could anyone ever love us again? Raped, defiled; wet and welcoming to my rapist. At least Lisa was Jack's ex-husband. He'd fucked her before and Master knew this before accepting her. He'd taken me, taken what my Master owned, a thief, and I'd been unable to stop him.
They spent about fifteen minutes in the room, light hearted banter provided to lighten our hearts. Each of them squeezing our hands before they left, promising to come back tomorrow, to see me before I was released, making Lisa promise to play poker again next week if she was up to it. Chen lingered behind after the others left.
"Janet is working now. She will come by after work. She said to tell you she's very sorry 'her Mistress' was hurt."
I looked at him carefully. "Are you really okay with me taking that role for her?"
"For now. I'm a little surprised she wanted to explore, given how adamantly opposed she was to the whole concept on our first date. But everyone should be able to determine for themselves what it is they expect out of life."
"If she decided she wanted to be like Lisa and I, could you be her Master?"
"I'm thinking about that. I wasn't put off horribly when you and Lisa started serving, but you were Scott's and not something I'd have to deal with on a daily basis. I'm trying to picture myself in that role. Sometimes, it doesn't bother me, other times the thought of doing so twenty-four hours a day, does, especially with someone I'm becoming close to."
"You might not need to do it full time. Scott's parents did it on a part-time basis, mostly when the children were away, because they didn't want to shock their kids. Marcia, whom you just met, is a part-time slave, mostly on her off days and vacations. I suspect Janet is somewhat submissive, but she may not need to be a full-time submissive, like I am."
"Marcia, the woman who was introduced to us as a deputy sheriff?"
"Yes, though I'm sure she'd appreciate it not being aired about as it could affect her job. The only reason I tell you is so you understand it may not be necessary to be a full time Master. It could be no more than a part time gig, satisfying a need in Janet without making wholesale changes to both your lives. It might be possible for it to be even less, merely doing some activities which are dominant in nature, such as tying or blindfolding her once in awhile for sex. Those are things which you can work out with her. Don't assume yet she wants to become a full time slave."
Chen nodded thoughtfully.
"Thank you for coming, Chen. It was very thoughtful."
"I like both of you a great deal. It sickened me to think what happened."
"Did the news reports say we were raped?" Lisa asked.
"It was implied, not specifically stated."
"Fuck!" Lisa exclaimed. "We'll always be the women who were raped now. Never normal again, everyone looking at us, staring, wondering about it; from the grocery store to the gym. The worst part is because he's my ex, somehow they'll think I invited the attack. And it's what the bastard will probably attempt to say in his own fucking defense. 'Hey, she wanted it, trying to reconcile', so much bullshit."
"You've got all his texts and yours where he was threatening and demeaning and your rejections. 'I never want to see you again,' etc. Why would someone possibly believe you invited it?" I asked.
"'Oh, that was only because she didn't see me in person, could reject me over the phone, but when I showed up at her door, Lisa was reminded of our love together, how much we cared for each other'. Pure bullshit, but someone will believe it."
"Except why did he break your nose, if you wanted it so bad," I said. "Most people would never believe a word he says."
"Julia's right, Lisa," Chen said. "People who know you will know he's lying."
"I don't even care about most people. I care what our Master thinks. I never want him thinking I wanted to be with that monster."
That was my own fear. That Master would think I wanted to fuck Jack. Didn't it align with his original supposition I wanted sex with others? To be a sexual plaything available to whoever wanted me? I had a knife and it hadn't made a difference. My legs were parted and someone else fucked me. Would he believe I failed to repel Jack because it was secretly what I wanted? We'd stabbed him twice and hadn't killed him.
"Listen," Chen said. I looked up at him with tears in my eyes. "I know Scott pretty well. I don't think he'll ever believe you wanted to be attacked."
I nodded, wiped my eyes. Hoped it was true.
"Thanks again, Chen," Lisa said.
He left and a few minutes later, Master came back, alone this time.
"What did Chen talk to you about so long?" He asked.
"He told me Janet was sorry 'her Mistress' was hurt and she'd come to see me after work. I talked to him some more about her exploring her submissiveness and how he felt about it."
"He said the news reports didn't explicitly say we were raped, but it was implied," Lisa said. "We were both upset about it. People never look at you the same."
Neither of us said anything about what really bothered us; whether Master would treat us the same.
"The nurse is coming in to check on Lisa soon, make sure everything is good for her to go home. Dr. Sturgis is going to start your tests, so she recommend I take Lisa home and come back after supper to see you."
I blinked back tears again. I still didn't get to go home. I wondered if Master had slept with Zoe again last night. I could ask, I suppose. Would he think I was jealous? At least he'd have Lisa tonight. I kept my fears to myself.
"All right," I said. "Kiss me."
He looked at my face. "It looks like it would hurt if I kissed you."
"I don't care. Kiss me anyway." Please, still love me, Master.
He gave me a light kiss on the lips. "I'll be back in a few to take you home," he said to Lisa. He kissed her too, just as lightly. Then he was gone. I closed my eyes. Please, still love us.