Chapter 18 ~ Pure love ~

* Anna’s Pov *

I am so pissed off right now, one after another shock coming to me, what should I do or what reaction should come out from me, a man who I love and waited five years suddenly saying he always loved me and silently guarding me and now suddenly saying my mother also involved,

my mother, who still consoled me when I was at the last line of sense, supported him; this is too much to digest.

Should I be happy, or should I be angry with both of them? I don’t know what I should do.

Blaze looked at me like he was trying to read my mind and see what I was thinking, but it was something I never expected for me.

“So what do you want from me? I said with a little anger and irritation; I feel frustrated right now, my heart suddenly leaping every step and dragging toward him, but my hidden pain was telling me, Anna get a grip on yourself, you shouldn’t jump on this fire, you will burn yourself once again.

But if people could stop their hearts, why would they even ever feel so helpless?

But the position is also the same, nor can I fight against him nor can I accept him.

“Love me,” my thought broke with Blaze’s voice as he said I looked at him.

“What? I think I heard him wrong. Love him? he never once said this to me; he loves me. Five years ago, I was the one who always screamed in front of everyone. I loved him, but he never answered me back.

Now he once again asked my love but never said he would love me.

“ Yeah, love me again, I need your love Anna because without your love I am a soulless body, so love me, I need you, no my heart and soul need your love, I can’t tell you the whole thing, but on the path, walking right now need your light,

otherwise, I don’t know how long I can stay human. Without your love, I will lose the remaining light inside me.

so love me, I'm begging for your love for me.”

Blaze suddenly lost his calm expression; he suddenly became a person who is obsessed with something; he lost his awareness of whom he was talking to, or he might really lose in darkness and separately search for a little brightness.

“Blaze, have you ever thought about loving me? Why do you always ask me to love you? Since you can’t love me, why do you expect this from me” suddenly, I don’t know why or how I threw my anger.

He looked shocked, but I need to say what I always kept to myself, this insecurity and doubts still chase me hunting a ghost; now I want him to feel that pain, and with all might, I pushed him and distanced myself from him.

I jumped off the bed and looked at him.
“yeah, it was always me, I crazily ran behind you and flung at my love you, but I got nothing in return; you only give me humiliation, insecurity, pain, kept me in the dark, I almost Died because of you, thinking he won’t need me anymore,

you just used me, my love, now five years later you intended to do the same, why me, why the hell it’s me who have to feel this pain, why not you, why bastard why” I don’t know. Still, I am already crying; this was the second time I called in front of him within one day.

Blaze was suddenly so silent, and this calm response from him angered me more at that moment, but I was wrong. Suddenly I felt something fall on me like airspeed, I just blinked, and he was already on me.

And at the same speed, he pushed me against the wall behind me.

His eyes were also bloodshot about something else, which I don't know who to explain.

I hissed as I attached my back to the wall; after all, the wall was hard, and this fool used his strength more than I could handle, beast. That’s why I called him.

I wanted to scold him, but I put his hand on my mouth and blocked my mouth like a strong wall.

“Shh, today I will ask, and you will answer me, don’t dare to skip,” he said, and at that moment, I want nothing more than to go away from him.

“Now tell me, what do you mean you almost died? Blaze asked because he knew I needed to answer him with my mouth. He moved his hands, and I finally found the chance.

“You fucking idiot, you almost strangled me, let me go, I will not answer you, go to hell or hand yourself on a tree, why torturing me? I blasted him like a bomb; this thing never changed; I never stopped myself in front of him, like my heart.

But sometimes too much bravery cost us more than we expected, he suddenly swapped me and my feet were nowhere to touch the ground, he kissed me, but he was not kissing me, he was biting me like a mad dog, other than the pain I felt nothing, I winced in pain, but it didn’t stop him.

Soon I felt salty, and I knew my lips were bleeding, but this mad dog was still lost in his madness.

I tried to move my head from pain like a half-dead mosquito.

My tears were falling; I was in a pitiful position.

He halted. “I will bite you every time you refuse to answer me,” he said, but it was like a red warning to me.

I looked at him with a pitiful puppy who he tortured.

* Blaze’s Pov *

Her tears and the pitiful look were enough for me to melt away, but I was not in my control anymore; I kept the chained possession of me long enough; I wanted to see her side of mine.

I never loved her. From where she picked this idea, I tried every possible way to torture myself to not scare her by showing how much I love her.

So if she wants to show my love to accept me, I will show her; it’s her choice, not mine.

But my heart stopped when she said she almost died, why she mentioned something like something might happen when I was away, what exactly I missed or her mother hid from me.

“So tell me, why did you say you almost died? Before I take you here in this position, you better tell me,” I threatened her.

Her tears were falling nonstop. I want to kiss away her tears badly, yet I hold back; I need to know why she hates me so much and why her eyes are always so empty.

“Boohhh, you, why are you so mean to me” she looked at me like I wronged her.

I sighed. “Anna, do you want me to bite all over your body, then I will do what was scaring her, and she fell for my trick?"

“ because you left me,” she let out the word I wanted to hear the most in life, but no, I never wish to her death, ever.

My grip tightened on her waist; I wanted to shoot myself for her.

“So '' I questioned her, but deep down, I was praying, please say nothing. I'm not ready to hear.

But she did, and my world crumbles like nothing.

“I did, I gave up on my life, I ate the poison, I cut my wrist, I tried to drown myself in the bathtub, what more you want to know, I tried everything, yet see how my fate worked, I'm still alive,” Anna said with a cold sneer at her face. I felt like lightning hit me hard; I'm not feeling anything, why I am suddenly feeling numb all over, even my heart froze.

Only one thing spinning in my heart, she tried to leave this world, leave me behind, all alone; how could she do that? Her life also mines as much as hers’s, so why did she try to snatch my life from me? All my blood rushed to my brain, and I could see nothing other than blood in my eyes. Yeah, she said it’s my karma; I agreed; finally, it’s my sin, she knows how to punish me.

My beast suddenly leaped and grabbed her neck as hard as I could,

“Why? Who dare you, Anna swan, you tried to kill yourself, no wanted to kill me, why, why, did you not just wait for me,

why, huh, I loved you like my entire world, yet you dare to leave me. Are you having fun when you try these, huh,

I lost the last bit of patience. Yeah, I created a world for her where I can give her everything. Yet, she was trying to go to kill me with her life.
I loved her so much, yet she gave this to me. I thought our love was sweet and innocent without any spot, yet she strained our pure love with her blood.