Chapter 20

Isaac and I just arrived back at my house. I didn't say much one the way home or even since I woke up. Today is my mom's anniversary and I was trying hard not to close everybody out and cry or get angry over what happened. I was unpacking my clothes when he came back from talking to my dad and kissed my cheek.

"Meet me outside when you're done."

I nod my head and continue unpacking while he left. I heard laughing outside in my backyard and decided to hurry and go out.

As I walk outside in my back yard I was surprise to see Dad, Alicia, April, Isaac and Chad.

"What's going on?" I asked

Isaac stepped forward and took my hand. he led me over to our parents and Chad. I look down into the empty hole and then at them.

"What's this?"

"Son, today three years ago we lost a very important woman, Your mother and my first love. It's heart wrecking to remember this day and it's torture to live without her and it wasn't fair for her to leave like that." he took a deep breath before continuing. "But she's gone and we have to live with that, we have to move on. I have moved on but that doesn't mean I don't miss her or cherished the memories of her. She will never be forgotten. Ever."


"But you have to let go of it sometime, Rumi. You can't change the past, any of it. Hanging on just eats your life away. You are angry, you've been angry for a long time but that's not how you remember someone. If you want to be happy, do not dwell in the past, do not worry about the future, focus on living fully in the present." Alicia said.

Then April stepped up

"Forgiveness doesn't mean you are pardoning or excusing the other person's actions. It doesn't mean you need to tell the person that they are forgiven. It doesn't mean you shouldn't have any more feelings about the situation. Forgiveness doesn't mean there is nothing further to work out in the relationship or that everything is okay now.
Rumi it doesn't mean you should forget the incident ever happened. It doesn't mean you have to continue to include the person in your life and forgiveness isn't something you do for the other person."

"By forgiving, you are accepting the reality of what happened and finding a way to live in a state of resolution with it." Isaac finished "Your mom is in a better place and she is so proud of you. "

Then Chad spoke "And remember Rumi, we are always here no matter what and no matter what you have to deal with."

"You come to us." Dad said

"So today we are going to plant a tree to honor the life your mom lived."


Dad walked over with a small oak tree branch with the bottom wrapped in a clear plastic bag. Isaac handed a yellow ribbon to me.

"This ribbon will represent your mother and as the tree grow we will extend the ribbon. She'll never be forgotten and we will show respect."

I held the ribbon in my hand while dad placed the tree n the hole and cover it with dirt. I looked around at everyone who had a smile on their faces. I really have some good hearted people in my life.

"I love you guys." I cried and wipe my eyes.

"Aww we love you too."

I opened my arms for a group hug and everybody joined. When we separated I slowly tied the ribbon around the tree and stepped back to observe it.

"Things will get better.

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"I have a headache." I whined and cuddled closer to Isaac.

"That's what you get for jumping on the bed like a child." He replied and I roll my eyes.

He got up and went to the bathroom. He later came back with a bottle of pills, probably for my migraine.

He held one pill to my lips.

"Open".he command and I shook my head and kept my mouth close.

"Now".

I shook my head again. We stared at each other for a while and then he sighed and put down the pill and got off.

"You win".he said and laid back down with his back turn to me.

I wrap my arm around him ways and kiss the back of his neck.

"I'm sorry but I'm not sick, I don't need those".

"You're stubborn Rumi".he mumbled.

"I know,I'm sorry". He turn around and pulled me closer and kiss me.

"Its okay".He brush my hair out of my face.

I deepen the kiss and he pulled me on top of him,my legs on either side of him. He brought me closer and I moan when I felt his erection on mine.I slip my shirt off and took his off, kissing him. He sat up with me still on him and he left from my mouth and went to my neck, sucking on it as his hands roam my naked chest. He went down and take my nipple in his mouth, I threw my head back and groan as he nibbled and lick it sending waves of pleasure rushing straight to my shaft. I moan and tangled my hand in his hair. He pulled my pants off and he flipped us over as pulled his off and starts to kiss down to my growing erection then stop.

"Wait!"Isaac breathe.

"You are not stopping now". I hissed

"But you have headache".

"Isaac." I whined. My erection was hurting

"You sure about this?".he ask as if it was a question to himself.

"Are you sure?".I ask.

"Yes".

"Good".

I flip us over and pull down his boxers, I take him inside my mouth a began to suck. He let out a slight moan and I suck harder when he groan.I took all of him inside my mouth and moaned out my name when he hit the back of my troat.I stop when I felt him twitch, he was about to come,I lick my lips and smirk at him. He flipped us back over and pulled my boxers off throwing them to the floor with the rest of the clothes. He kiss me, slipping a finger in my hole,fire burning through my body at the pleasure. He positioned his self at my whole and I prepare for him. He kiss my neck before pushing in. I gasp and grip the sheet when he was fully in, it hurt at first but then it turned into pleasure. He moan and slid almost all the way out before thrusting back into me and I close my eyes as our night began.