I'll fix this

Kenton


I turn to look at Amaris, thrilled and full-on excited as Dad announces our pack. But, the look in her eyes and the frown turning down her full, plump lips causes my stomach to turn and the smile to fall from my face.
Why is she so mad? I wonder, dread filling me as she pulls away and takes a step back.
"Amaris—" I begin, reaching out for her, but she shakes her head as she takes another step away from me, putting even more distance between us.
"No..." she whispers. Panic, dread, and a dozen other emotions wash across her face before she takes off running. Mid step, she shifts—way too smoothly for a new wolf—and then leaps across the chasm that she created in the earth to keep the rogues at bay.
"How did she...?" I begin to say as she lands on the other side, then continues running as fast as her wolf's legs will take her.
"Son?" Dad says, watching her as well.
"She doesn't want me?" I whisper the words as hurt and anger war inside of me.
"I'm sorry. Maybe, it was too soon. Too much in such a short amount of time," he says, reminding me that she hadn't grown up in this world, not knowing what it means to be mated to an alpha.
"I hope that you're right," I murmur as my chest aches at the knowledge that our mate has left us.
"Leave her be," Dad says, placing his hand on my shoulder. "Let's finish our run and get back before it's too late. You have school tomorrow."
I nod and then shift, even though I'm no longer in the mood for a run. Before I take off back in the direction we had earlier came from, I look in the direction that Amaris had gone in, desperately wanting to go after her, to apologize for going too far too soon—we'd not even talked about who she is to me. 
I had just assumed that she would want me, just as I wanted her.
*Kenton, it's time to go—I'm sorry, Son*, Dad says through the mind link, his feelings flowing through letting me know that he truly does hurt for what I'm going through.
As we make our way back through the forest, my wolf takes over, and as I sulk in the background, he opens up his senses, hoping to come across her scent—or that he will come across her.
But, for some reason, I don't think that she's going to make it that easy.
She's confused, upset, hurt—and I certainly didn't help the situation any.
By the time I make it back home, my wolf is incredibly angry—livid—with me.
*I'm sorry*, I mumble as I climb the steps, then shift back to my human form before entering the Packhouse.
'*I know. I just want our mate*,' he tells me. Now he's the one sulking. *'I don't like knowing that she's mad at us—you, actually, but I'm being punished too.'*

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The first rays of sun creep through my curtain-laden windows, hitting my face and causing me to scrunch my eyes at the intrusion of the bright light. I try to roll over, covering my head with my pillow and going back to sleep—considering that I spent the majority of the night tossing and turning, staring up at the ceiling, contemplating all of the ways that I've done things wrong with Amaris already, very little sleep was had and I needed it, desperately.
'*Let's go look for her*,' my wolf begs, not caring that I've only managed maybe two hours of sleep. '*We're in this mess because of you, GO. LOOK. FOR. HER. NOW*,' he demands, and knowing that if I don't, he will just ignore me for the rest of the day, I get up and make my way down the stairs and outside in search of my mate.
Shifting as soon as I clear the tree line, I sniff the air hoping to be able to catch her scent but much to both me and my wolf's dismay, there is no sign of her having come near the Packhouse. 
We run through the wooded area, dodging trees and other greenery left and right, constantly on alert for any sign or smell of Amaris as we retrace our steps from last night until I find myself back at the tree line behind the school.
Not knowing where else to look for her since I don't know where she lives, I turn around and make my way back to the Packhouse, needing to get ready for school. I'm holding out hope that I'll find Amaris before classes begin, and get to talk with her and sort everything out then.
After showering and throwing on some clothes, I make my way back down the stairs to find Asher, Boone, Dutch, Riggen, and Winston all in the kitchen already eating breakfast when I walk in. As soon as I step into the kitchen, they all stop talking and give me sympathetic looks, looks that I definitely do not want or need.
*I'm going to get her back*, I promise to myself, full of determination. 'I'll get her back and make it right, fix what I managed to screw up so horribly in such a short amount of time.'
"Don't look at me like that guys—I'll fix this, somehow," I tell them, muttering the last part. Going over to the counter filled with trays of food, I begin piling my plate full of eggs, bacon, ham, and hashbrowns. Then, grabbing a second plate, I pile on pancakes, French toast, and a couple of waffles.
"Is there anything that we can do to help?" Boone, my future Delta asks.
Dutch, Riggin, and Winston are all training to become pack warriors, Boone's dad being the one that's training them—half of the time Asher, Boone, and myself are training with them. Or we are when we aren't out training for our roles.
Roles that we've spent the last five years training for. For two months every summer starting when we turn thirteen, Alpha, Beta, and Delta wolves begin their leadership training. It's a long, grueling, and lonely two months, especially for a bunch of horny teenage boys who have just started to realize that girls don't actually have cooties, but have a set of tits and a nice ass instead.
"Just, if you see her, will you let me know?" I ask, walking over to the table. "I need to talk to her, to try to fix my screw-up," I explain as I take my place and then begin eating.
"Sure thing,” Asher says. "You know that we have your back, man.”
"I appreciate it," I say, glancing at each of my friends before continuing to eat.
As soon as we get to school, we break off, each planning to scout a different area of the school property, looking for my mate.
I look everywhere that I can think of, checking where her locker is, asking around to see if other students have seen her, and even checking the parking lot to see if I can catch her scent but come up empty-handed.
*Anything?* I ask through the link when it's just a few minutes before the first bell is due to ring, praying to the Goddess that my buddies have had better luck with finding her than I've had.
*I've got nothing*, Asher says, sounding nearly as frustrated as I am.
*Me neither. I asked around and no one has seen her yet*, Boone is next to reply.
I see Riggin, Dutch, and Winston walking toward me, shaking their heads back and forth in response
"Don't you have first period with her?" Winston asks, stopping next to me.