Chapter 39

Turvi's pov 




Life takes a drastic turn in a small span of time. We never think that we will do this kind of thing in our life but we do. 




Just like me, I never thought I would be marrying like this by not informing my parents. 




Yes today is my marriage with Aashu. We both decided to get married on paper first and leave my house so we can get married again later. 




To be honest it's my idea to do so. Staying here with them is becoming hard for me. 




It's suffocating me to no end. 




The words are engraved on my heart and no matter how I try they just don't want to get erased. 




10 days have passed since Stuti's reception. 




I still remember when I met Aashu. Next day of Stuti's reception. 




"hii doll face," he said as he came where I asked him to meet me 




"hii," I replied timidly 




"are you alright?" he asked me and I shook my head in no 




"no I'm not. I'm not alright Aashu." I told him and started crying 




I am crying a lot after whatever I hear from my parents. 




"hey, what happened why are you crying?" he asked as he wiped my tears 




"Aashu, I am in pain. Extreme pain. It's hurting me very bad." I said 




"will you tell me clearly?" he asked and I told him everything 




Once I finished him telling everything he was fuming in anger. 




"how could she blame you for everything? I mean that's illogical and has no sense in this. You were a kid when everything took place" he said and kept mum 




I don't know what to reply. 




"what do you want to do with a doll face? Whatever you do I'm with you." He said 




"Will you marry me?" I asked him 




"obviously I will. Remember we are engaged." He said and I shook my head 




"I want to get married as soon as possible and not in a lavish way. I know papa can't arrange money for my wedding as Stuti's wedding took a toll on him though jiju's family helped a lot but still. And he won't accept money if you offer him. He is a very honest person and loves his self respect very much. "I told him 




" then what you suggest? "he asked me 




" court marriage. "I told him and he looked at me with sadness 




" court marriage? Then what about your dreams about your wedding? You have so many dreams to fulfil. "He said and I chuckled 




My dreams of marriage are the least important thing for me right now. 




I don't want to stay where I'm considered as a bad omen. The woman whom I loved as my mother isn't my mother and hates me and blames me for the things I never did. 




She always behaved rudely with me and the reason is clear. 




Papa also stays quiet for this reason only. 




It was better if my mother had chosen herself, not me. 




Then maybe she would be alive and I won't be the bad omen here. 




People can say I'm over reacting on this matter. 




Judging is really easy but when you're in that situation you understand the depth of it. 




"I only want to be with you Aashu. Permanently, legally. Marry me please. We can get married or throw a party later but I want to get married and leave that house." I told him 




"what about your parents will they agree with it?" he asked me 




They won't I know. At least papa won't agree with it. 




He has his own dreams to see me getting married and as I'm his only daughter he won't like this. 




But I don't have any option other than this. 




In front of my pain that is nothing. 




"they won't and we won't tell them. After the wedding I will tell them and leave. And we will do it after Stuti's pag phera ritual. I don't want to ruin her happiness." I told him and he nodded 




"won't you inform stuti as well?" he asked 




I trust Stuti and I never hide anything from her from our childhood and neither will I hide this. 




"I will. I will tell her everything." I told him 




"doll face I love you and for you I will do anything and everything. Whenever you feel weak you will find me with you as your strength." He said and kissed my forehead 




I must have really done some good deeds to get a person like him as my husband. 




Stuti and Aashu both are two strong pillars in my life. 




I came back after meeting him and the day passed normally. 




Next day Stuti came for her pag phera ritual. 




Everything was perfect like picture perfect. 




At night I told stuti everything about my life just now and about the plan for my marriage as well. 




She was shocked and hurt just like me. 




She hugged me tight and said to never blame myself for what ever happened. 




She even didn't blame me for her parents death….. 




The ringtone of my phone brings me back from my land of thoughts. 




It's Stuti. 




"hii," I said 




"hi, are you ready?" she asked me 




She will join us directly in court only. 




I asked her to not come here because that will draw their attention on me. 




"yeah I'm. I wore my normal Sleeveless white body fit dress with a multicolored shirt tied on the waist. I can't wear any kind of heavy clothing." I told her 










I definitely can't wear something heavy and again get questioned. 




"hmm I know. Don't worry I have bought a  saree for you and Aashu has brought jewellery. 




We will get you ready before the marriage 










takes place." she said and I smiled 




They take care of my needs and wishes so much. 




"OK I will reach there soon as I will be leaving now." I told her and she hummed 




"come soon we are here already." she said 




"yeah bye stuti. And I love you so much babe you're the best sister anyone can have." I told her and cut the call 




I wrote a note for my parents and kept it on my bed. 




Dear Parents  ,




I hope by now you guys know that I know the reason behind my mom ...I mean my masi hates me.

I am really sorry for the fact that for me you have to lose my birth mother.  




But tell me honestly, was it my fault to take birth? Was it my fault that she loved her daughter more than her life ? Was it my fault that Stuti's parents died?




Trust me,no child wants to see her/his parents dead...if it was in my hand I would have saved my mother and killed myself. 




I really wish I would have died instead of her or with my mother only ….at least I wouldn't have to be a bad omen of your family.




Thank you so much Masi for taking care of me from my birth till now...though you did it with hatred but still you did. It's a very big thing itself. 




Papa,what can I say to you? Because of me,you have to lose your wife? I am so sorry for that. But thank you for being my father.




Now the interesting thing is I want to give you guys good news. That is, your bad omen is leaving your house forever…




Yes ,I am leaving your house to never come back. No I am not angry at you...I am hurt...I am terribly hurt that my heart aches too much and it suffocates me.




Anyways Bye ..




  I hope after my absence, the prosperity, the happiness, good omen everything comes back to your home.




Just one regret will remain always in my life, that is I can't be the perfect daughter whom you guys wanted.




Good Bye & Take Care.




Turvi.




The letter is written by SrijeetaBhowmick







Now it's time to go home. I will miss you very much but don't miss me much. 




I told my room and went downstairs. 




No one is there. 




I don't know if I should be happy that no one is there to question me or be sad that I could not see them for the last time. 




I have a very strong feeling that this is the last time I am seeing these things and maybe my parents as well. 




I shook my negative thoughts and stepped outside. 




I took my car That Aashu has gifted me as our engagement gift. 




I haven't used it much before. 




Throwing a longing look to my house I started the engine and drove away. 




My heart is feeling heavy very much and I want to cry but I won't cry. 




Today is the happiest day of my life, my marriage and I won't turn it into a sad day by crying. 




I drove towards the court when suddenly a truck came from opposite side and hit my car 




An ear piercing scream passed my lips and I felt darkness surrounding me.