EPISODE 51 WHY IT HURTS SO BADLY?

MIDNIGHT..
Chari was surprised when Clint suddenly came to their house.
"Why are you so late, Clint? Aren't you supposed to be here tomorrow?" Chari asked. " Ugh! Drunk! " Clint said when she smelled it.
Clint smiled and immediately hugged Chari. "Is Clyde asleep, Ma?"
"Yes, it's almost midnight. What are you doing? Why are you drunk? Where did you drink?" Chari asked while looking closely at Clint. Just a moment and.. "Clint, why do you have a bruise on your cheek?" She saw the bruise on Clint's right cheek where Trina slapped him hard earlier.
"Don't mind this, I bumped into the cabinet earlier," he said with a smile. "Ma, I'm going upstairs to see Clyde. I wanna kiss my baby!"
Chari followed when Clint came up. He went to Chari's room because Clyde was there.
"Umn.. my baby," he said as he laid down next to Clyde and immediately hugged him.
"What the hell, Clint, he's asleep," Chari said.
Clint hugged Clyde even more until he woke up. "Hi baby, how are you feeling?" Clint kissed Clyde.
"Dad Sir Clint, you smell like my alcohol," Clyde said with a smile. "The one my doctor is using."
Clint took off his shoes and laid down next to Clyde. Then he laid Clyde's head on his arm and hugged his son.
Chari just looked at them. She knew Clint had a problem. She could feel it.
"Clyde, I love you so much. I don't want to lose you and your mom, hmp! I'm sorry, son, it took so long for us to meet." Clint was crying. "I'm so sorry I didn't take care of you when you were a baby. So sorry for being late, sweetie. Daddy loves you so much. I don't want to lose you. I don't want to be apart from you anymore. "
Chari sighed.
"Don't leave Daddy, okay, Clyde? Even if I mess up sometimes, promise you won't leave me, hmm.. " he said, while hugging his son tightly.
Chari left the room first.
Two hours later, Clint came down. She caught Chari having a drink in the kitchen.
"Asleep?" Chari asked quickly when she saw Clint.
Clint grabbed a beer from the fridge and sat next to Chari at their perfectly sized kitchen counter.
"Where did that bruise come from, Clint? Did Trina hit you again? It looks like it was on the left last time!" Chari said.
Clint even caressed that cheek.
"Why do you always let her do that to you, Clint? I haven't done that to you?"
Clint didn't answer, just reaching for his beer bottle while staring at Chari.
"What happened Clint? Tell me please, is that about me?" Chari asked seriously.
Clint still didn't answer. He just kept staring at her.
"Clint, what's wrong?" Chari keeps on asking.
Clint shook his head. " Nothing, Ma," he said, looking straight into her eyes.
"Do you love me, Chari?" Clint suddenly asked. "Do you still love me even though I'm not doing a good job of being a father to Clyde? Huh? Ma?" Clint's tears fell a moment later.
Chari held Clint's hand. "Did you and Trina fight again?"
"Ma, I want to let go of her. I want to leave her, but why can't I? I'm really confused!"
Chari let go of Clint's hand. Maybe you already love her, Clint. That's why," she answered.
Clint held Chari's hand back again. "Ma, I promise I really don't love her! I really don't feel anything for her! Tejie is the only thing stopping me, so I'm still there! But I'm really struggling, Ma! I want to leave her and go to you!" he seriously said while holding Chari's hand and staring at her in tears. "Ma, I want to go back to you but I can't! Why, Ma? Why is that? I always think about Tejie. I don't want him to have a broken family, but Ma, I'm really fed up! Hmm! I'm so— so fuckin' confused!" Clint cried.
Chari resigned. "Are you having a hard time, Clint? I'm sorry, huh. It's like—it's like your life just got more messed up when we met again."
Clint chased after Chari's hand and tried to hold it. "Ma, no! Don't think like that! I've been looking for you for a long time, Ma. If you only knew!" He said at the same time as he gave Chari a pitiful look.
Chari didn't move. She pretended to reach for her beer bottle just to get his hands off Clint.
"Ma, please." Clint tried to take Chari's hand again. "Ma, don't think like that! I might go crazy if I lost you and Clyde!"
"It's like—you're having a hard time, Clint. It's really hard to keep up. Even if you say you love me, Trina is the one you've been with. No matter which angle you look at, it seems like Clyde and I are the ones causing trouble," she said, looking at the distance.
"Ma, don't do that! Please.. You're only making me think more about what you're saying! Don't —- "
Clint couldn't finish what he had to say because his cellphone rang. Trina is calling.
"Clint answered it!" Chari ordered.
Clint just shook his head quickly. "No!"
"Answer it, Clint! I want to hear you talk to her!" she yelled.
When Chari said that, Clint immediately picked up the cellphone and answered.
(Trina) "Clint!I know where you are! Don't wait for me to come see you there with Chari! You will be in big trouble! Go home or you're not going to get anything here! I'll take Tejie home with us and I'll never show you again!"
Toot! Toot! Toot!
Trina's loud voice was heard from the other line.
After that, Clint looked at Chari.
"Did you hear, Clint, go home because Trina is going to bring Tejie home with them. I don't want trouble, Clint. It's embarrassing for Clyde, so please. Leave.." Chari said, with obvious tears welling up. She was just waiting to see how Clint would react, whether to leave or not. But..
Clint didn't speak, but instead he reached for his beer bottle again, drank it, and dropped it while staring at Chari before standing up to leave.
Chari was left alone, sitting there with a heavy heart. She didn't think Clint would actually leave. She thought that Clint wouldn't come home even after she told him.
"Why does it hurt? Hmmm..Why does it hurt so badly? Did I expect too much? Ugh! It hurts... Hmmm.. I'm so sorry baby---sorry Clyde..Huuuuu.."
Chari couldn't stop crying because of the pain of those moments. When Clint stood up to prepare himself to go home to Trina immediately, he proved that she and Clyde were really only a second choice for him.
"I wanna go home, hmp!"
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