Chapter 21

The drive back home was quiet. I sneaked a peak at Jason and although he was trying to concentrate on driving, I could see that something was on his mind.

Maybe it was the same thing that was on my mind.

We won the competition which means we were qualified to go to the semi-finales which also means Jason and I would be allowed to drive together again.

I just couldn't get out of my head about where we go from here. Our future.

Braydon and I already talked about our future. Four-year college. I study medical while he plays professional football. After medical school I take a year off and we start our family. After awhile when we were settled I would do residency training to get my license and he would be a stay at home dad. We would be well off by then.

When we were discussing it, we played it off as a joke but now it seems like a sensible plan.

Where would Jason and I be in a few years? We are step-siblings after all. Our relationship isn't normal. We aren't supposed to fall for each other anyways.

Was I falling for him?

I did just give him my virginity. The thing i was saving so it could be special between Braydon and I. There is no Braydon and I anymore.

The thing though, it was special. I didn't regret one bit for giving my virginity to Jason. It was perfect. He was perfect.

Again, this nagging feeling keeps tugging at me; can there ever be a Jason and I ?

Hands slowly reached out towards me and intertwined our fingers together. "Penny for your thought?" He asked, a playful smirk crept on his face.

I didn't even know where to begin. I didn't want to scare him off with this nonsense about our future. Especially when we were only supposed to be having fun.

"It's nothing." I laugh heartedly, trying to play it off.

"Come on Blake," he pressed, "I know when there is something bothering you."

I couldn't tell him.

I sighed heavily. "Just thinking about our dance routine that we could do for the competition."

He eyebrow rose indicating that he didn't believe my lies. "Blake—"

"Jason—" I interrupted, "do you ever think about us." I blurted. It was out there and I couldn't take it back.

He shrugged. "Sure I do Blake. I can't get our first time out of my head."

"That's not what I mean," I sighed, "I meant like our future. Where do you see us?"

His shoulders shrugged again. "Oh I don't know Blake. Too complicated to think about."

"Meaning?"

"Meaning that our parents are married and they would never accept it. Would never accept us. Making this thing real means that we would have to come to terms that this would never work out which would mean that we would end up doing something that both of us wouldn't want to do. So I think it's best if we just not think about us for a little while at least."

I bit the inside of my cheek, replaying what he said. He's right. Nobody would accept it. Besides Ashley I don't know anyone else who would be happy that Jason and Blake, stepsiblings, are now a couple. Are we a couple?

"Do you have feelings for me?"

His head snapped in my direction before quickly turning his attention back on the road. I recognized the street he was turning to meaning we were almost home.

Our parents would be home by tomorrow night and according to them, they wouldn't be leaving again for a very long time. So I am taking advantage of this night.

He stayed silence, not answering my question. I guess that's a no.

My heartbeat quicken at the fact that it was just a game to Jason. He was just a player and I was his chess piece.

Jason took hold of my hand again and give it a squeeze. Was that a reassuring squeeze? That he did have feelings for me but was too afraid to say?

Jason parked the car in the garage and I got out making my way to the house.

"Don't you want to get your suitcase?" Jason called out.

I shrugged, "we can get it tomorrow. I want to go to bed." I winked at him. Lord, I hope I didn't look stupid doing it.

As soon as we get inside the house, Jason picked me up and carried me to his room. A familiar sent hit my nose. Jason's room smelled exactly like him and I loved it which is why I sleep with him every night. I don't know how I would be able to sleep tomorrow night without him.

He threw me on the bed. His lips eagerly found mines and soon we found ourselves in that forbidden land again.

He raised my shirt above my head and threw it on the floor beside his bed. We took off all our clothes and his lips found my breast. This time was different than the last time. Last time he was gentle, treating me like I was fragile. This time around, he was more...wild, eagerly wanting every part of my body.

**Jason's POV**

Hey sexy." A voice said from behind. I turned around expecting to see Blake. After last night, I didn't know what to expect. It wasn't Blake though, I was met by a blonde haired beauty.

Here we going again.

"Miss me?" She asked in a seductive voice.

I sighed out of annoyance. "Why are you here?" I yelled but softly, I didn't want to wake up Blake who was probably still sleeping.

Taylor was unfazed by my outbreak and instead her mouth formed upward into a smirk. "Just here to remind you not to forget me." I groaned. I don't want to deal with her right now.

"Jason?" A knock came from the other side of the door. "Are you okay?"

"Yes." I answered. "I'll be right out."

"Ok. I am just going to make us some breakfast."

I replied a quick ok and I heard her footsteps walking away. I turned my attention back to Taylor. She was gone.

Taylor is—was—a complicated story. After the incident I couldn't stop imagining her and I had kept replaying her last days in my head. She was one of the reasons why I couldn't answer Blake's question. Did I have feelings for her?

The last girl I feelings for broke my heart and two and stomped on it. She wasn't around after that to give me an explanation on why she did it.

I wanted an apology. I wanted her to suffer. But there's not a suffering worst than death. Yes, the guilt I felt for what I did to her was still there but so was the pain she inflicted on myself. After Taylor I don't know how else to express my feelings to another girl.

Blake is a wonderful girl. I think the whole school knows that. But I couldn't give her the love she wanted. She needed someone like Braydon. Someone with a future.

That doesn't mean I won't take advantage of this situation when she still likes me. I don't know how she would react when I break her heart.