Chapter Twenty-eight(ii)

Chapter Twenty-seven

Xander
So does that mean we had the same first kiss? :") It's exciting. And that's also when Xander and I started getting along, from being acquaintances we became friends for a while until we got to M.U.
Boracay That Boracay, that used to be my favorite place. Because that place is perfect-perfect, paradise if paradise. But all that changed with -
*flashback*
Boracay
"Girlfren, I'm going to admit to Xander that you love him. >:")" I said to Julia.
Actually, Sandrea is not my only BFF, Julia is still there but I only met her recently, because she and Sandrea were the first to meet each other.
I thought Julia would be happy for me but it's surprising because she didn't even hug me and she didn't show me her always excited reaction whenever I told her and Sandrea that Xander and I would join us for lunch. He just had a poker face.
"Girlfren, aren't you happy for me? You don't even exist Can you tell?" I asked him. Only then did he seem to realize because he was just talking to me and 'supposedly' he was excited by what I said but it was obvious that he was forced to do what he did.
I just didn't understand because maybe he just wasn't in the mood, because we had fun here in Bora all day, as in, we went island hopping, rode a banana boat, jet ski, went sunbathing, swimming until we were tired, taking pictures and whatnot -what else can be done.
And then night already.
I wear my best of all the best floral dress that I have today, of course what - I want to be the most beautiful in the eyes of my love. >:') Landee. It seems like a long time ago, I was still staring at him but just because of a kiss, I am also in love with him.
Gosh! Even though he didn't tell me, I know he is also in love with me. The magic of a kiss is indeed true. >:') And here we go! Xander and I are living proof of that and not so soon we will be lovers proof of the magic of a kiss hihi.
*Walk* *Walk* *Walk*
And here it is! DUG.DUG.DUG I'm nervous my God~ because we all know that I'd rather be bashing boys, right? When I told them 'I like you too' but now - I'm going to co-confess, I don't even know where to start, but it's just carrybells~. I'm here, eh, there's no turning back, not even looking back.
I wish Xander's door was always open so I didn't bother knocking anymore, I just kept going inside.
I smiled when I saw the picture of us on the beach where we had our first kiss - he had his arms around me and we were both very happy. I was suddenly thrilled, >/< because I remembered our first kiss.
That picture is also the first time I took a picture with a man. >:) Most of my first time experiences were with Xander. Because it's other men, when they take pictures with a man. >:) Most of my first time experiences were with Xander. Because other men, when I take a picture with them, they will post it on the net and put the caption that they say I am their "girlfriend".
Like duh~ where are they? And I've tried that, because one of my lovers used to request that we take a picture, at that time I was still stupid. NEVERMIND just gives bad vibes.
Where is Xander? He's not here in his living room, I went straight to the kitchen because he might be there again eating Strawberry Pudding. It's his favorite because it's his favorite so it's my favorite too. >:)
But he's not there yet, where is he? I was about to knock on the powder room, you know he's there. Maybe it's because he ate too much Puding again, so his stomach came back, but it's a good thing the door was open, so he probably wasn't there.
Oh! Maybe he's in his room playing Flappy Birds again? He doesn't want to stop like that, because he can't win-win, as far as I know he only scored 1. Lol! My score is still good.
I wanted to surprise him that's why I immediately opened the door and -
W-what does that mean? The smile on my face, gradually disappeared.
My feeling of so much pity, gradually faded like my smiles.
If I'm just dreaming can you wake me up? It's because it hurts. :| My chest hurts, is this what they call a broken heart? And if it's possible - I'd like to go blind right now so I don't see what I see.
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I Think Of You
AC JOURNAL:
If I'm just dreaming can you wake me up? It's because it hurts. :| My chest hurts, is this what they call a broken heart? And if it's possible - I want to go blind right now, don't I can only see what I see.
I even blinked my eyes twice, because we are conscious, right? I'm so excited because I'm going to confess now to the question my love, what I've been imagining.
But why is that? I rubbed and pinched myself, still nothing. I still don't want to lose when I see the scenario now.
And that's the time when reality hits me. :|
I smiled bitterly at the same time as my tears flowed non-stop.
Who is that man i loved?
What is the reputation that he has?
Oh. By the way, he is -
Xander Hush. One of the three Ultimate Heartthrobs where Jin and Reigh are studying.
What do you call him?
The Ultimate Casanova.
And when said 'Ultimate Casanova'
That means many women.
Why would he change women?
Attention because he is a whore and another pogi, right? So he will probably use that to get the only thing he wants One girl. He and Reigh are just the same. >:(
But what do they want in a woman? Virginity? Pleasure? Both.
'I prepare those cherries that are already popped, because they are tastier.' Xander
I let out a bitter smile again along with my tears. I heard Xander say that when he and Reigh and Jin were having a drink behind the Gym where they used to hang out.