Despair:

Kira:

I cry bitterly. I can't help it. My entire body convulses with sobs and moans of pain. I hide my face in my hands, sitting on the floor and leaning my back against the wood at the bottom end of the bed.

I knew it, everything was too perfect, finally perfection has gone to hell!

Patrick:
I head to my human's room, eager to see her. Earlier today, she went shopping and they informed me she was back but she didn't come by to see me. It's strange. My kitty always looks for me when she comes back from shopping. She knows that it greatly delights me to see her parade for me what she’s bought. Especially if the purchases involve...shoes.

In the hallway I hear her sobbing and I materialize at the door of her room. She cries inconsolably, her loose hair hides her face. She groans in pain and sighs, her body shaking. I frown and clench my hands into fists. Something must have happened to my girl for her to fall apart like this.
I am seized with a terrible fury. Who dares to make my human cry! I walk over to her, picking her up, lifting her off the floor and cradling her against my chest, sitting on the edge of the bed and lowering her onto my knees. I stroke her hair and brush it away from her flushed, drawn face.

Buddha! She is so beautiful when she cries, her cheeks flush and her lips turn red. My chest fills with tenderness. I want to offer her the world, I want to dry her tears with my kisses... but first, I will find out who has put her in this state and I will kill them with my bare hands.

—What happened, kitten?- I whisper against her hair.

An idea pops into my mind. Perhaps, misfortune has befallen her uncles or one of her friends. I dry her tears with my thumbs while kissing her little mouth. She purses her lips into such a cute little pout.
—Come on, tell me. What calamity has happened for you to cry like this.

She doesn’t respond to me. She just hides her face against my neck, hugs me and continues sobbing heartbreakingly. Whatever it is, it's a very bad thing. This is not a simple cry of sadness, my human is the victim of deep despair.
— Tóra, Tóra, iremise, eímai edo. - I whisper in her ear caressing her back and rocking her against my chest as if she were a child.

She sighs a couple of times, pulling her face away from my neck and avoiding my gaze.

—You'd better send me back to Spiros , Patrick. I'm not staying here another minute.- her voice is cold, her expression impassive. The only thing that betrays her immense suffering is the slight tremor that I perceive in her lower lip and the uncontrolled beating of her heart.

Her words have pierced my soul like daggers of ice. She’s going to leave me, she wants to leave. Why? What did I do that upset her so much? This morning she was happy, when she went out for a walk she was radiant. I squeeze her hips with my hands, digging my fingers into her skin.

No. I won't let her leave me. I am all hers, completely and hopelessly hers. I'll find out what's made her so unhappy and I'll fix it. Even if she demands that I leave the throne, I will. Perhaps that’s what has made her this sad, that I spend too much time on other matters and too little with her. I can work it out, I can put in an interim ruler, one of the council members and go on a trip with my human.

I want to cry, for the first time since I am a vampire I feel an overwhelming desire to cry.
Oh, what will become of me without her? Where would I go? What if she doesn't love me anymore...? What if I've bored her...?

Humans are very changeable in their feelings, I've seen it. Would I be able to let her go? Thinking about it torments my black soul. No. If she has stopped loving me I will keep her by my side. I will dominate her with kisses, I will enslave her with caresses, I will tie her to me with orgasms. And yet, if she still wants to leave me... No, no. No. Have mercy, kitty.
If I have no other recourse, I will use compulsion. But I won't let her get away from me. I need her, I love her... desperately.
—What have I done to you that you wish to leave me, Kira? - I ask in a small voice.
She comes out of my arms, away from me. No. She turns to look at me, her eyes full of resentment, anger and hate.

—I've seen her, okay? I've seen the vampiress they brought you.-She hugs herself and sighs.-I came back early and went to the throne room. You were with your guests but the doors were open.

Tears fill her eyes. And she frowns at me.

— You sat her in my place, Patrick. - she groans and bites her lips. -I don't know who she is, I don't know where she came from, but what I saw was enough.

Kira:

It hurts, My heart burns, it seems that it has been set on fire and it will never stop consuming. Theos!

—You want her for yourself, don’t you? Does your black heart covets her?

The words of that boy hammer my mind. I waited, my hear hanging on a thread, for Patrick's answer, I hoped he would deny it, I prayed he would spit through his teeth that it wasn't true.
But he didn't. He simply looked at the vampire girl and smiled. And he destroyed me with that smile.

Patrick:
Immense relief runs through my body. She's referring to Ava and the interview I had with the Elementals. I let out a sigh of release. Thank you Buddha! My beloved does not really hate me, she is simply blind with jealousy. I've never seen like this
She crosses her arms over her chest and looks at me disdainfully. Hmm. She will be an uncontrollable immortal, I smile, yes. My beloved will be a vampiress to reckon with.

—You have the nerve to smile in my face! - she screams furiously.

Oh, the defenseless kitten has disappeared and the relentless tigress has taken her place. She has put me through a real hell, the fear of losing her was so strong that I have made a decision. Yes, it is time for me to tell her my fondest wishes, but for now I am going to make her suffer a little. Just a little.

I assume my most relaxed posture, selflessly raising a shoulder.

—Yes. If you've seen her, you know she's really beautiful.- I commented and she instantly throws herself on me in a bling fury.

—You've fucked her right? You're going to marry her, aren't you?Answer me! Answer me, you damn traitor!

She tries to scratch my face, seeks to bite me and even kick me. She’s gone out of control. I take her hands and pull her until she falls lying on the bed.

— Get out! Leave me alone, go away!-screams angrily.

She smells of anguish, she smells of irrational fear. She is afraid of losing me and that fear has driven her crazy. Tears fill her eyes and she moans in pain. She rolls onto her side, assumeing a fetal position. Making herself as small as possible. She has started sobbing and moaning again. I can't take it anymore, it torments me to see her suffering like this.

I walk over to her and climb onto her body, she keeps her face hidden against the duvet. Her hand grips it like a claw.

—Kira, I'm not going to leave you.-I whisper.
—Of course you wouldn't. – she protests. -You want to marry someone else and you plan to keep me by your side as your toy. -she sobs.
— You said you loved me and I believed you. You said your heart belonged to me, but now you go and do this...

— If you don't love me back, what does it matter if I marry someone else? What attracts you to me is just sex...- I protest.

She sits up on the bed suddenly and wipes away her tears.

—That's not important anymore. Even though I love you, you won't stay with me. You said it yourself, vampires marry vampires and human lovers are only temporary, so... why are you looking at me like that?

She’s right, I look at her with a goofy expression on my face. I look at her completely drunk with happiness. She loves me, she just said she loves me! My kitty is not merely sexually pleased with me, my tigress doesn’t simply like me, my wench has openly confessed that she loves me.

— I look at you like this, human of my heart...because you're wrong. I'm not going to marry anyone.

She pales and gives a frown.

—But...but I saw her. She was right there, sitting in my place and you...

— You got it all wrong, and I expressed myself very badly that last time. Human lovers are usually temporary for obvious reasons, of course. But I told you that immortality is granted to a human in payment for favors and work done or...

—For love. - she whispers.

—Yes...-I stalk her and cover her body with mine. Forcing her to lie on the mattress.
—Seeing that I love you desperately and that you love me to the point of madness, I find no impediment to our wedding. - I sob of happiness against her lips.

— I'm not going to marry you. You would have to kill me first.- she protests.

— We can come to an agreement, hmm?- I bite her lower lip. Buddha! It is so painful and wonderful loving someone!
— What do you think if... we get engaged, and I give you time to assimilate things, to say goodbye to your friends and your family? Would a year be okay with you? Starting today... and then I make you... my wife?

Kira:

I look at him sideways. Is he saying what I think he is saying? I can’t believe it. I purse my lips and frown at him.

—You're sure you won't marry the vampire I saw.

—She wasn't a vampire, and no.I'm not going to marry her. My wish is that You marry Me.

I am dreaming, right? Am I hallucinating? Focus on concrete things,Kira.

—What happened to asking on your knees?- I demanded.

He gets off of me and kneels on the mattress. Oh for Aphrodite!

—Miss Kira Samaras, would you accept my humble hand in marriage? Keep in mind that we will be together forever and ever, amen, and that there is no such thing as divorce between vampires.

He has bared his fangs while saying "divorce". He really hates the idea. I let out a shriek and throw myself against his chest, kissing him on the mouth, on the cheeks, on the chin, wherever my lips touch him. I dry the tears that had been caught on my eyelashes. He wants to stay with me, forever!

—Yes I accept. I will marry you in a year.

He hugs me tight and I elbow him in the ribs. He laughs.

— Where’s the ring?- I ask.

— You've been wearing it for a month now, it’s on your ankle. In my family it was tradition to give that kind of anklets to our future wives...
My eyes widen.
Really?
Oh he’s so annoying, he’s so mean and absurdly romantic!

—If you gave me the anklet a month ago...that means...

— It means that I have been engaged to marry you for a month, kitten. I was just waiting to see... if I could convince you to marry me. You scared me to death.When you demanded that I take you back to Spiros, I thought... you were leaving me.- he protests.

— Forgive me. I jumped to conclusions. I shouldn't...

He silences me with his lips and I bite him.

—Tigress!- He scolds me.

—Yolie knew it.

— Hmmm?

— Yes. A few weeks ago we talked on WhatsApp and she told me that I reeked of wedding.

— Really? Well, she's a witch after all.

—Does this mean that we will no longer have no- strings- attached- sex ?- I say pouting and adopting a sorry expression.

He sneaks between my legs and looks at me smiling cheekily.

—Well, if I've learned anything from these months of enjoying your company, Miss Samaras, it's that you love to experiment in the sexual arena...- he licks the mole above my lip. -Have you ever had engaged sex?- He asks, caressing my shoulder and lowering the strap of my dress.

—No.- I reply breathlessly. – I can’t say I have.

—Well, there's always a first time for everything.

On my music player sounds Can't feel my face from The weeknd and I must say, that I can't feel my face either, I smile so hard that I have it anesthetized. And I love it! Can I die of happiness?