Chapter 27

**Nova**


I hadn't thought about the fact that I had never had sex before when I all but impaled myself on Chase. The heat flowing through my blood was muddying my brain and all I could think about was finding relief. What I wasn't expecting was for him to come so fast. He looked almost pained when I released his neck and looked down at him.

"Did I hurt you?" My voice is almost breathless at this point.

He lets out a weak laugh. "Hell no. Don't stop now, I'm only getting started."

I look at him with surprise. "But you already...you know."

My awkwardness about saying anything suggestive out loud makes him laugh.

"I can go for hours, sweetheart. If you move your hips a bit you can feel I'm still very hard." As if to prove his point he shifts slightly and I feel the truth in his words.

The movement isn't big but it still makes me bow forward with the unfamiliar sensation. It doesn't hurt thanks to my healing but it is something I will have to get used to. It also feels so good.

He said I should move my hips, so I try that and he makes that pained sound again. The sounds he is making are worrisome but he assures me it's not from pain, so I keep going. His hands land on my hips and he clings to them while helping me move. I gasp as he brushes against a specific spot inside me.

Wow...that felt nice.

I move to try and reach that spot again and when I find it I'm the one groaning.

"Shit...I'm going to come again with you riding me like this sweetheart." Chase says before his body tenses and his hold on my hips tightens almost painfully.

With another deep grind of my hips down on him he gasps and I feel the heat inside me as he comes.

"Shit...it's a little late to worry about this now but I didn't use protection..." He says once he catches his breath enough to talk again.

I quirk my head and stare at him in confusion. "If you are worried about sexually transmitted diseases then you don't have to worry. Vampires can't contract illnesses. Our healing abilities kill anything like that."

He lets out a tight laugh and I realize I hadn't stopped moving on top of him. Once I realize I still and he sucks in a deep breath.

"That's good to know, but what about pregnancy?"

Oh, I see.

"I'm not sure. We didn't have cross-breeding in our community. As far as I know, no vampire has paired with another race before. We may not be compatible to have children." I admit.

As far as I know, vampires don't usually breed with anyone else unless they have left the community. None of us knows what those vampires do unless they cause trouble.

Chase's face falls making me even more confused.

"Did you want to have children?" I ask him.

We hadn't gotten around to having this talk yet which goes to show how much we still need to work through.

He sighs and he watches his hands as he moves them along my hips and down my thighs. His touch feels amazing but this seems like the kind of discussion best had when we are in...this kind of position. I try to move but his hands clamp down hard holding me in place.

"Where are you going?" He smirks up at me and I narrow my eyes at him.

"I thought maybe talking about children would be best to do when you aren't...inside me." I wave a hand between us to visualize my point but he smiles.

"If I could have you like this all the time I would." His hands move from my hips and slowly along my stomach.

I don't have the firm muscles the guys have anywhere on my body, but honestly, I don't think I would want all kinds of bulging muscles like that. With the way Chase is looking and touching me, I don't think he minds all the soft parts of my body.

"We can talk just like this."

I sigh in defeat and let Chase continue his exploration of my body while I try to get us back on the subject of kids. Not something I thought I would ever have to worry about. In truth as much as I hoped I would escape the hell I lived in, I always knew I would die there.

"Alright if you insist." I start to say but my words hitch when he thrusts up hard.

My eyes fall shut and I suck in a quick breath. How can he focus on talking like this?

"Now about vampires being too stuck up to have kids outside of their race," Chase says making me gasp in offense.

"What? It's not like that!" I shout defensively.

"Really? Then what's it like sweetheart?" Thrust.

I gasp and try to focus my mind away from the shock of pleasure that single movement caused.

Clearing my throat I try to keep my voice steady. "Vampires are immortal. That alone means having relationships with other races means partners who would live longer than the other. Not everyone likes the idea of growing old with a partner that doesn't age. I won't get any older from this point. I will look like this the rest of my life."

This makes me remember that I will face the same experience with my mates. They will grow old and eventually die while I live on alone.

"Can't you guys turn them so they don't die?" He asks slowing his movements.

I sigh in relief. "Technically yes, but there is a whole process to it. Otherwise, Vampires would turn whoever they wanted. Our leaders would bring the individual seeking to be turned and speak with them. They would go through a rigorous ritual that will show their ability to adhere to our laws. As I said before that we have not mated with other races should tell you how many people have passed the process. Being turned is painful and not many people can survive it. It's a risk not many want to take."

Chase nods and makes a sound of acknowledgment. "I see. What about us? Could we petition to be turned?"

I knew he would ask that.

"Yes, but I don't know how many of our communities have survived the invasion. I don't know if any of our leaders still live."

The thought of so many of my kind being tortured makes my heart ache. Are any of us still alive outside of captivity now? Where could they be hiding?

I remember my mother telling me about sanctuaries hidden where we would move when the world went through a new stage of growth. Could that be where the rest of us fled to? I need to find out.

"I see your mind working. What is it?" Chase asks bringing my attention back to him.

"It's just...I remembered something my mother told me once. She spoke of a place we would go when we had to hide from the world. Being immortal means we live through all transitions the rest of the world goes through. Our presence can affect that growth so it is safe for us to remain hidden for a while until we see how we can live among the new generation. Some of my people could have taken refuge there."

His eyes light up. "You think?"

I nod. "It's possible. The memory is not clear but I think I remember the name of the place. Maybe Charles can find it."

"Worth a try. Now enough talk. Let's get back to the fun stuff." I laugh until he sits up and pulls me into a deep kiss.

I get lost in the heat between us until I come over and over thanks to his powers. Once he grants me a reprieve he is exhausted and falls asleep almost instantly. I remain awake and work through a dozen memories trying to recall where the sanctuary could be. The name is old and may not exist in the data this generation has access to.

After an hour I get frustrated and give up. I need to shower and get my mind off of this. Trying my best to not wake Chase I slip out from under the covers and move silently over to my clothes. That's another thing we haven't sorted out yet. I need stuff for myself.

For now, I just want to get clean.

I decide to rummage through Chase's drawers to find something clean. What I don't expect is to see a collection of odd-looking appliances of some kind. Not sure what to make of them I shrug and grab another pair of sweats and a black T-shirt. I always did like black growing up since it hides...blood so well.

Another memory hits me then. An image of Samuel and I hiding in my room and trying feeding unsupervised for the first time. We got in a lot of trouble for it, but it wasn't the first or last time we indulged in it. Those were special moments between us.

I always thought...that he would be mine one day. Now I've lost him to whatever monster those people made him into.