Misery

/-Riley-/
I pace the room impatiently waiting for Dean to show up. Has he changed his mind? What if he isn't coming anymore?. Coming? I scoff at the thought. The real question should be what if he was serious. What if he still doesn't want the baby?.
I pray this is a bad dream. If he rejects the baby again, then I'm ruined. My life will crash along with my heart.
"Relax, Riley. Breathe" Liam tries to calm me down but it isn't even helping. How can I relax when I'm about to face rejection from the man I love?. Or just maybe not.
I just have to hope Liam's right like he always is. Maybe Dean wasn't in his right frame of mind. Maybe he was too shocked to process the information properly.Maybe I even broke the news wrongly. Or maybe....The car horn interrupts my thoughts.
My heart makes a thousand beats at once. I shut my eyes tightly and wait for him to step in, mentally bracing myself for the worst as well. He walks inside in camouflage pants and sweatshirt. I'm not even in the mood to admire him now.
He glances briefly at me before sitting. No kiss. No smirk. No tease. Nothing. That alone is a pretty big sign that yesterday was no joke.
"Dean, we need to talk" I say finally, sitting beside him. He wears a blank expression.
"I guess that's the reason I'm seated already" He shrugs.
"About yesterday...."I trail off searching his face for even the tiniest glint of regret but there's none. Blank.
"This baby is yours, Dean. What's your say in this?" I ask steadying my voice to conceal the terrifying chill travelling round my body.
"Are we still talking about this? Get rid of the damn thing" He says coldly, dashing my hope. It's like he forced a knife right through my heart.
"But...it's yours. Our baby" My voice comes out shaky and small. Tears sting my eyes.
"So fuckin what?. That thing in your womb is a mistake, Riley. Don't you get it?" He snaps.
"Mistake? I'm your wife for God's sake. Why do i have to abort our baby like I'm your side whore?" I yell, letting the tears flow.
"No one knows that. I'm not interested in raising a child now or ever. If you won't get rid of it then I'd be force to get a doctor to flush that shit outta you" He states and i choke on my tears. He's ruined me! I'm doomed. God, what do i do now?.
He chuckles snapping me out of my misery.
"What did you think? You could tie me down with some bastard? You've been kidding yourself real' long, Barbie. Don't forget, I'm Dean Shaw. I'm not the puppet, you are" He snickers and my heart stops for a second.
"W...What are you talking about?" I manage to ask. How can he call me a puppet?.
"What makes you think you're any different from Janelle, Sofiya and the rest? Maybe you are, just a little there but there's one thing you all share in common. Me. Did you really think I'd just fall head over heels for you after a night? I just needed a new toy to play with. Someone different from my usual. I needed a touch of innocenceand believe me, i had so much fun. This thing will ruin my fun and i can't let that happen. So do us a favour by getting rid of it" He says and my head pounds.
It suddenly feels like I'm carrying the whole planet on my head. Dean was using me. I was used. I let myself get used. Tess was right. I look at him with teary eyes.
"So that was all it was? A game?" My voice comes out weaker than I thought.
"She warned you, didn't she? I belong to no one, wifey. How do think I got the others? How?" He smirks and i sink back in my chair.
"Don't even think we're over after this. You belong to me and I'm not kidding when I say that. Try messing around or looking for some knight in shining armour and i swear I'm gonna rip off that armour before you and shove it down his throat. You've got three days. Kill that thing or I'll do it myself. It doesn't matter how" He says and walks towards the door.
"Why?" I ask and he freezes by the door.
"Why should this innocent child suffer for my mistakes? Why, Dean?. Even if you can't love him or me, at least why not give us a chance to live with your hate?" I sob. He doesn't reply.
"Do you hate me that much?" I hiccup. I feel worthless. It's still hard to believe he's been playing with me all along. And I stupidly fell for him.
"It's not you I hate. It's that thing you call a baby" He says before walking out. I bury my head in my laps and cry. I feel arms wrap round me and i know it's Liam.
"It's my fault" His voice cracks. I laugh bitterly.
"Your fault? I don't remember seeing you the night I got raped. I don't even remember seeing you, the night my parents sold me off. You weren't there when I started living with him. How is any of this your fault? You're not even in my heart" I sob. He hugs me tightly.
"It'll be fine, trust me"He assures me. Last time I listened to that, this is what I got.
"He wants to hurt my baby" I whisper. I feel so terrified and sad. Atleast if he rejected me and let me keep my baby, it wouldn't hurt this much. Atleast, I'd have my baby to love me.
"He can't. Wanna know why?" He asks and I nod.
"Because you're the mom and moms protect their kids. Moms don't sit and let someone hurt their kids. A mother's love is one of the biggest weapons nature ever created" He tells me. His words give me strength to live. Honestly, i was considering suicide since there's practically nothing to live for. I burst into laughter.
"What's funny?" He frowns.
"It's the first you've made absolute sense with no swear words or snark" I say and he chuckles.
"I can't believ you just said that. You were looking out for swear words while I was trying to make you feel better?" He scoffs and i grin.
"Thank you, Liam. You're a total sweetheart when you're not being an asshole" I say and he rolls his eyes.
"Forgive me for not letting you cry your eyes out".
/-Renzo-/
I'm busy arranging some files when Dean walks in. I simply ignore him and continue sorting.
I felt so mad when I found out about his reaction to Riley's pregnancy. He was acting like he wasn't the one who planted the damn sperm in her. I was gonna talk to him about it when I saw the guards outside
I couldn't control my rage when I found out he was fucking Delilah. Who fuckin does that?.
"Renzo, you can't pretend not to see me forever" He sighs but i don't even spare him a glance. I continue filing like I'm alone. I wonder what the poor girl is going through. I was almost sure their relationship was going somewhere until this.
"If I've done something, just tell me. I hate the silent treatment" He pleads but i ignore him. He walks to my desk and slams the file shut. I sigh.
"I've got to submit this before noon. You're wasting my fuckin time" I say frankly.
"I'm your fuckin boss. Just end this childishness already" He groans. I attempt to leave but he pulls me so hard that I crash back on my chair. He stares at me expecting an explanation but i simply pull myself up till I relax in the chair and start twirling.
If he's got all day then I should probably help him waste his time. He groans and stops the executive chair from spinning.
"Come on , man. What did I do wrong? Talk to me, please" He sounds desperate at this point.
Being bestbuddies for a long time, i know how much he hates being ignored by anyone. Silent treatment is worse. He'd prefer you murder him.
"Please" He pleads.
"She's just another toy, right?" I finally speak and He sighs in relief but it ends the moment he processes the question.
"This was about Riley? Are you fuckin kidding me?".
"Cut the chase. Yes or no" I snap but he's unable to give me an answer. I stand to leave.
"Yes. Can you sit now?" He sighs. He doesn't even have to say it cause the shock of it sends me to my sit immediately.
"The rape, apology, house, everything?" I ask.
"I needed a change. So that day, I happened to see her with her friends laughing over some lame joke, i think and i knew she was perfect. Her innocent smile was all I needed. Approaching her would have been too downgrading so I took a shortcut the day I saw her in the club. It was easier with her greedy parents. Everything was perfect until that thing came up. The bastard's about to ruin everything" He seethes and all I can do is stare at him in disbelief.
I try talking but i end up scoffing repeatedly, still unable to believe how much of an ass he'd become.
"Do you know you're about to ruin that girl's life? What the fuck is wrong with you? Have you lost your senses? When did you become so fuckin callous? If it'd been those famous hoes, i wouldn't flinch but a girl as innocent as Riley? Why the hell would you even think about that?" I yell. I feel like punching his senses back.
"I won't let go of her. I just hate that thing she's carrying" He rolls his eyes.
"And whose dick planted it in there, huh?. I was right, you're a fuckin disappointment. You're despicable" I spat.
"Judge me all you want but she's not keeping that baby" He snaps.
"Why?" I fire. He keeps shut.
"Why, Dean? Answer me, dammit" I yell.
"I hate babies. She won't keep it. If she's not willing to flush it then I'll do it. Even if I have to carve it outta her with a knife" He says and i punch him in the face.
"That's for saying trash about your kid" I say and punch him again.
"That's for Riley" I breathe punching him again.
"And that's for being a dick" I say and walk out.
Married At Seventeen
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