CHAPTER SIXTY-ONE

Nicholas was about to look at the picture when Astra's lips met with his. He felt the sparks when their lips touched. It had been so long they had been together without the aid of alcohol and external influences. It felt wonderful. Nicholas helped Astra to climb him and he kissed her deeper, he slightly tugged on her bottom lip with his teeth while she snuck her tongue past his lips. It felt wonderful for a while as they had a duel of tongues of sorts. They both explored each other with their mouth and their hands. Nicholas' hands went over Astra's body, her hands over his. He felt so hot and hard and all hers.
Nicholas flipped her so that she was below him and helped her out of her dress. He wanted some skin and he wanted it fast. He touched her with an urgency of a cave man and he did the same to her.
'It has been so long," Nicholas said as he removed her dress. She looked so white and beautiful and refreshing. Nicholas had to remind himself to be careful when he saw her naked bump with beautiful stretch marks all over. She looked like a goddess. Her black lacy underwear made him wonder if she had planned to seduce him after all, it was not so hard to imagine.
'Too long," Astra said as she helped him remove his clothes. She wanted him, all of him, she wanted to touch and feel him and one with him. Astra ran her hands over his chest and thumbed his flat nipples and Nicholas could not think straight anymore.
'Bed," Nicholas managed to say after a range of curses. A little bit of common sense still arose in him, he did not want to fuck her on the couch, while she was pregnant, that was a lot of lows not the type that he wanted to get down to.
Nicholas managed to get her hands off him for a moment and then scooped her up and carried her to her bed.
He lay her as carefully as he could on his bed, but Astra was not having it, she seemed to have more energy than he did, was kneeling on the bed and kissing him again. Nicholas managed to get the hook off her bra and her breasts sprung free. He had never seen her naked when she was pregnant, and one thing he could say was that her breasts looked glorious then. Her nipples were a bit darker than their normal cherry color and her areolas were a bit bigger than they were before, and the mass of her breasts were considerably larger than before. Nicholas studied the beauty that was her breasts before he held them in both hands. The sweet sound that she made from her mouth told him that they were more sensitive than before.
'Fuck Nicholas!" Astra moaned and pushed her breasts closer to him. She wanted him to touch her all over, she craved for his touch. She wanted his hands on every part of her body.
Nicholas smiled and put his lips on her left nipple and Astra felt her knees buckle and her sex quake from all the pleasure, it felt marvelous. Nicholas suckled on one breasts all the while massaging the other and Astra was busy grinding on the bed desperate for some pleasure. She moved her sex over his legs and then she was holding his head tight over her breasts she did not want him to stop, she wanted his mouth to keep on being on her, she wanted him to keep on using his tongue and his teeth on her sensitive nipples. It was almost as though he was sucking on her clit as the ripples that she was feeling shook her the core. Nicholas left one breast and began suckling on the other. Astra felt like she had to be going mad with pleasure. She scraped his back with her nails as his finger ventures straight to her pussy. She knew that she would find her wet as she was as horny as they came.
Nicholas plunged a finger into her and Astra began to scream, she was feeling too many things at once and it was hard to know which felt better and what was making her crazy. Astra did not care though, she was going to come and it was Nicholas that was pushing the right buttons.
'Nicholas!" Astra screamed as pressure rippled all over her. She could feel tears in her ears as she began to calm down.
'Fuck!" Nicholas said as he lay beside her on the bed. astra took a breather before she noticed that Nicholas was still very much hard, she was ready for penetration too.
Astra climbed over Nicholas and looked at him with a smile and she gently lowered herself unto him. She felt so tight and so full and it all felt so right. She then started rocked on his dick, moving in the way that she could. Nicholas smiled and then held on to her breasts as she began to bounce. Astra moved over Nicholas increasing her rhythm, in and out. She bounced so fast that her breasts were hitting her chest and Nicholas thought she was the most sexy woman upon the earth as she wes with him. Nicholas then flipped her over and pounded in her with her same ferocity, Astra was screaming and moaning as their genitals met in what seemed like a primal war.
Nicholas stilled as he felt his orgasm coming. He then continued to pound into her increasing his tempo until he finally released his seed into her.
Astra felt like she was seeing heaven as there were stars. She came from her high as she felt Nicholas release his warm fluid inside her.
'I love you," Nicholas said to her. Astra froze for a moment, she knew that he loved it her. It was just such a vulnerable moment that she wondered if he was sure. But then again, he had given her his love and she should simply take it.
'And I love you," Astra replied. She had loved him for years and she still kept on loving him even with the range of problems that were arising around her.
They both settled with each other in the promise of love. It seemed like things were looking up for them, the future seemed promising.
They both slept in each other's arms and then woke up for a second round. They had sex slow and sweet this time. The promise of love had changed that for him. He held on to her and came again for the second time that night, the next morning, they woke up together too.
'This is nice and cozy," Nicholas said and Astra smiled.
'I could get used to this," Astra replied.
'I remember I was looking at my children's baby pictures when you tried to seduce me last night," Nicholas said to her and Astra laughed.
'Yeah, we left those in the living room. Speaking of children, where is Brian?" Astra asked. She was worried that Brian was all alone with the staff. The thought did not really occur to her when she was seducing Nicholas that night.
'Brian is actually with his grandmother. My mother loves him," Nicholas said and Astra nodded. Her mother did love him, she remembered the picture she had seen of Theo's birthday, with Nicholas' mother holding Brian on her hips.
'So he is going to be there all day?" Astra asked.
'Yes, that is until I go and pick him up. Do you have any plans?" Nicholas asked and wiggled his eyebrows.
'Nothing of the sort that you are thinking about. I thought we should go and see Brianna, you have never been there. And to think that Jared was there before you," Astra said to Nicholas.
'Jared knew?" Nicholas asked. He was surprised.
'We were actually very close friends, I did not tell him about Brian though, just Brianna," Astra said to Nicholas.
'Well I do want to see her. We should try and have breakfast first though," Nicholas said and stood up to go into the bathroom.
'Do you want to have your bath?" Astra asked and stood up with him. Nicholas shook his head in affirmative.
'We should have one together, save water," Astra said snd she walked naked into the bathroom. Nicholas was pretty sure they used more water than they individually would have used.
They both took the bath together and did so many other things. When they were done, they towelled each other and helped each other dress before going on to prepare breakfast together. Astra discovered how much she had missed that, how much she had missed doing things with him. She noticed how she thought about having communion with Nicholas it was therapeutic being with him.
They ate their breakfast of eggs and toast as they looked over the pictures of their children.
'This is Brian and Brianna when they were born," Astra said as she pointed to the picture of the twins.
Nicholas looked at his children. They both looked so frail and pink and heavenly. They looked like angels. He wondered if his daughter would look that way too as a child.
'This was when they were a month old," Astra said and pointed another picture. They both looked older there, a little less pink and frail. Nicholas noted that Brianna had more hair on her head, but there were almost identical apart from that.
'And here they were three months old. This was just before Brianna's death," Astra said her voice was shaky then. Nicholas knew that the death was still very much hard on her that she was still trying to heal.
'I am sorry for not being there Astra," Nicholas said.
'It is past and gone don't worry about it," Astra said and then started to show him more of the pictures.
'This is Brian at nine months. He is already such a looker here," Astra said with a smile. The rest of the pictures were of only Brian and Nicholas was hurt that his son had to grow up without his sister, that his daughter just had to die. Astra showed him pictures of Brian up until his fourth, even pictures of him when he went through chemotherapy.
'In his last scan, he was cancer free but the doctor told us that there is a possibility of it coming back again," Astra said when Nicholas asked what his health status was.
'He will be fine," Nicholas said. He was trying to convince himself too, he could not lose two children in a life time. He did not even want to know how it felt like.
'We should go to her grave. I want to see it," Nicholas said and Astra nodded. They both left her house and walked to her car. It was a long and quiet drive to the cemetery. Astra and Nicholas were quiet on the drive to the cemetery and they both came down from the car together.
Brianna Charise Michealson. She had named Brianna for his father and her sister. It brought tears to his eyes.
Nicholas dropped at her grave with tears in his eyes.
'I am so sorry Brianna. I am sorry that I did not have the chance to be a father to you, that I did not love you as i should have. That I was not able to hear you say Daddy, or see you take your first step or laugh so that I could hear. I did not have the chance to drive the boys away and you did not have the chance to be my little princess. I am sorry that your life was cut short by that monster and I am sorry that you are not here right now with Mommy and Daddy and Brian. I love you Brianna, I hope you are fine wherever you are," Nicholas said. Tears were rushing down his face.
Astra looked at the man that she loved and she felt his pain, she felt that for her child and she wept for them both.