Chapter 16: I won’t let her get away

Orville’s POV:

Why am I even asking her the obvious?

Of course, she must’ve felt disgusted being held by a man almost twice older than her age…
Even if we both were drugged and out of our minds, I should have held better control over myself and stood on my grounds like an Alpha should be.

But I lost to my carnal instincts pathetically and pounced on this vulnerable girl, without even using contraception! I am too ashamed to meet her eyes at this point, and there’s no way I could ever forgive myself for this.

Now that I think about Arnold’s actions, I am actually no better than him…

As a brief silence prevailed between us, I saw her fidgeting a little while leaning her head down. My bite marks were blooming on her porcelain skin like flowers under the bright daylight, which once again made me remorseful.

To take a Supreme Alpha like me on her first time, I must have caused a lot of pain and strain on this poor girl’s body.

But what bothered me the most was why didn’t I feel the slightest contempt to hold a black slave in my arms? Why was the maddening desire to claim her had blurred my rationality? Could there be really a special bond existing between me and this frail black-slave just as my wolf stated?

While I was lost in my worries, I heard her let out a small cough, before she finally looked up into my eyes. “Just as you stated before Master, I won’t hold you accountable either for what has happened between us. If I am being honest, you saved me once again, because if any other men would have discovered me in that state, probably I would have already died by now.”

I stared at her in awe of her words, as I couldn’t find the accurate words to reciprocate her. Just what kind of miserable life she has been living until now that she isn’t holding me accountable for my actions? Brushing my silver hair bangs above my forehead, I let out a heavy exhale while asking her, “You are 18, and wolfless, right?”

“Yes…” Her voice trembled a little when I saw her blinking those big onyx eyes in confusion.

“That means you aren’t a minor, and since you are wolfless, there will be no chance of pregnancy.” I tried to assure her first, as I believe this should have been bothering her mind all this time. “But…as I am deeply mortified with my actions, and that’s why, I have come to a decision.”

When I further added those words, I saw her closing her eyes with harrowing fear in them. Glancing once again at the swollen red hickey I had left on her side neck, I muttered, “From now on, you don’t have to stay in the garden hut. You can live inside the manor, just like other servants. By this, you can learn about the basic manners and etiquettes from them.”

This time I saw her stood still, rolling her gaze on me with disbelief. Perhaps, it must’ve come to her like a shocking decision. But this is the least I could do to amend the sin I have committed last night. I still feel dubious about her reason for entering the manor last night, but I must find out who probably did drug her last night! And…I must find the answer for myself as well!

Besides, by staying inside the manor, I will be able to keep an eye on her when I am around. I met her confused gaze and rather uttered in a cold voice, “As the first thing today, go and meet Lady Martha, the senior maid of this manor. I have already told her about you today, so from now on, what you will eat or drink here, she’ll be in charge of that.

“But do remember, you aren’t allowed to touch anything in this manor before you properly learn the etiquettes of working here. So, be sincere towards your duty from now on.”

Without uttering a word, I could feel her eyes screaming with confusion as if she wanted to confront why am I doing all this. To be honest, I still don’t know the reason myself, but…about one thing I am certain.

My heart isn’t prepared to let her stay away from me. I am certain that’s what my wolf felt too, but until I find out what’s that thing special about her…I won’t let her get away from me.