Chapter 38

Nikita's POV,
~ Babe, see you now, I have something to tell you ~ Kent, my boyfriend, texted me.
That's right, I have something to say to him too.
'We'll be having our baby Kent.'
It makes me smile at the thought of that. We're graduating students so my pregnancy was pretty OK with me. It's only been a few months and we're about to graduate.
I have taken ABM. I haven't told my mom about my pregnancy as long as I know and I'm happy that we can start a family in Kent.
I was already walking to the exact place he said here in the park we used to go to. It used to be our place.
It's still far away and I can see Kent. It looked around.
"Your daddy is handsome baby. Maybe you'll be born like that too. Heheheh" I talked to my baby in my stomach even though it's not big yet.
I'm 3 weeks pregnant and how did I find out? In my next story, I have to tell this first to Kent because I'm sure he'll be happy.
Even before I could get close, I saw a woman approach him. I stopped for a moment and looked at the two of them but I was shocked when Kent himself kissed the woman.
'Maybe you're just misinterpreting them Nikita.'
'Yeah that's right baby. Your father doesn't another woman OK? '
I smiled at the thought.
I hope so.
I approached him when they finished kissing. I pretended to see nothing.
I know it's stupid to call it but what can I do? I love her and we will have children.
"Ahh, y-you've been there before?" Kent asked me in surprise.
"Ahh no. I'm in a hurry ehhh. I'm still running. Heheheh. What are you going to say babe?" I asked Kent with a forced smile.
Kent and the woman can't look at me.
"Ahmm- Nikita, this is Lauren. Lauren t-this is N-Nikita" Kent introduced us.
I was hurt because he didn't even say 'Nikita, my Girlfriend' but there used to be that. I took that thought away because maybe it was just my pregnancy, whatever I was thinking.
"Y-you remember when we were before?" Kent is mad at me. I don't know but my body is slowly shaking and my tears are rolling down my cheeks. They didn't look at me. They remained stooped.
"S-he's the k-told k-I told you early m-I used to love" he said. I don't know why he's still saying this.
"I-I don't expect him to come back. I-I don't-know that I-I still love him." He said more and that's when my tears fell.
The pain ... the pain. I mean, he didn't love me? 1 year and a half he cheated on me?
I'm hurting. Kainis, when we have developed.
"I'm s-sorry N-Nikita. D-I didn't mean to. But I'm b-breaking up w-with y-you." She said tearfully. I just cried again.
I don't want to be selfish but what about my son? Maybe h-her dad doesn't love her. He might deny it. Or maybe he won't recognize it as a child just because of my selfishness. Even if we say we will be formed if I don't let him go. My son's family is just trying to grow up ... and I don't want that to happen.
'Baby, is it OK for me to take care of you first? You both deserve to be happy right? But I will do it for you-for you. I will revive you as best I can baby 'I said to myself then smiled at that thought.
"OK. S-hope m-be m-happy. M-love s-him h-more than I love s-him. I'm h-happy for y-you. You're now free Kent. T-thanks for e-everything "I said before turning around.
It hurts. When I turned around, there were gallons of tears in my eyes.
I'm Nikita Arellano, and I'm carrying my Ex-Boyfriend's Child.
I returned home depressed and crying incessantly.
I saw Mama as soon as I entered.
"Son" "Ma" we once said mama.
"Why are you crying?" Mom asked me.
"Mom, p-please d-don't be m-mad and m-me" pleading I said to my mother.
"What happened?" He worriedly asked me again.
"M-ma, I-I didn't s-intentionally. M-ma, I made a wr-wrong decision" Still crying I told my mom.
'Why is that? It hurts. He didn't love me in a year we were together. '
"I-I don't understand you. What's wrong with you?" Mama asked me a confused question.
"M-ma, b-pregnant a-me" I turned to mama and shock registered on her face.
"Wh-what? You got pregnant without even getting married first? Son, you haven't finished school yet oh? Is that what we taught you? We agreed to have a boyfriend because we trust you. We thought, you're smart smart and you'll always make the right choice. Where is that father? "Mama shouted angrily at me which made me cry even more.
"I'm sorry ma. I-I thought k-cause we'll be happy. I-I thought, m-she'll be happy" I said still crying.
"I don't know what I'm going to do to you Nikita. If only your dad was here, he might have been attacked. What is that Nikita" mama said running out of patience.
'What will I do?'
I immediately climbed to the top because I could no longer bear the pain in my chest. I am also dizzy and I want to cry but it might be with my baby so I will force myself to live.
I just cried and cried all afternoon. I haven"t eaten since before.
I went down to look for food but mama was not downstairs.
Are you hungry already son? Don't worry, mama still loves you 'I smiled wryly at the thought.
My child is my only source of strength.
I got an egg and hotdog in the fridge and cooked it. That's what I'm going to eat first. I'm ashamed of mama because I broke her trust in me.
While I was eating my cellphone suddenly vibrated. I read the text.
*Nik, it's Hanz. I went home there. See you, I miss you Witch.* Text me from my childhood friend Hanz.
My eyes widened. I miss my BFF koooooo.
'I can't wait. I want to see him soon. Baby you will meet Tito Hanz your Wizard '.
Nikita's POV,
I opened my cellphone because someone was texting again. But all of a sudden Kent's face brought tears to my screen. He is my wallpaper.
I don't know if I should change it or not?
I 'm still hurt.
Naturally, you just broke up, didn't you?
Yes but I'm different, we broke up with something already forming. I don"t know if it"s right that I didn"t tell her about my pregnancy. But maybe if I say so, it will just be a reason for them not to stay together or marry Lauren and I don't want her to regret her previous relationship with me.
I just smiled bitterly when the word marriage came to mind. Can I see him tied to others while his son is looking for him?
Will I even get to the point where I may regret not telling him about it?
I just wiped the tears from my eyes and unlocked the screen. I saw Wizard texting again.
*Witch, don't leave your house tomorrow. I'll go there. :)*
That's all he said so I turned off my cellphone again and covered myself with a blanket.
I feel like crying again.
'Baby, forgive Mommy ah, she just wants to cry but promise, one day, Mommy will be happy too. I love you baby '
I hope I'm still happy ... without him.
I didn't realize that little by little I was being visited by drowsiness. The next day, I heard a knock on my door.
I slowly opened my eyes but I suddenly regretted when Kent"s face I saw in a picture frame on my desk. I cried again.
We are gone. No one texts me every morning. No one will call me when I'm awake. I don't have a carpenter to eat. No one gets angry if I don't eat because I'm busy. And there's nothing to do-I love you when I'm sad.
*Brizsk! Brizsk!*
I looked at my cellphone when it rang. I picked it up and looked again at who was texting.
It's just Hanz ... I thought who.
*Hey wake up, maybe I'll wake you up sleepy there again?*
That's all he said so I hurried to get up to take a bath because my crazy bespren will be in trouble again.
After I took a bath, I combed my hair and went downstairs. I saw mama serving. Mama looks sad and I know it's because of me.
Suddenly my eyes rolled again. Hayssst! I'm so sorry.
"Let's eat now" said mama. He treats me cold now so I'm just reluctant to go to my place where I'm eating.
"By the way, Hanz is supposed to be coming. Don't move too much and maybe you'll succeed" mama said coldly so I just didn't say anything.
*DINGDONG! DINGDONG!*
Mama stood up to see who rang the doorbell.
"Witchhhh! Where are you?" I heard Hanz shout. They were in the living room but his voice echoed throughout the household.
"Hoyyy! Female Witch. Aymisyo" said my male friend.
Yes, it's a man and it looks like maybe because of the noise but it's not gay. Women will even chase.
"Come on, let's date" he said and just pulled me away after I wiped my mouth because I had finished eating. I just let him go wherever he wants to go.
Just like he said, he pulled me into his car.
"Wait, where are you taking me?" I asked him.
"Didn't I say, we're going on a date? I miss you witch" he promised with a smile.
"How many more witches have you bewitched?" He was teasing.
It's an animal, he still calls me that until now. Ganito kasi yan.
Flashback!
Hanz and I haven't really gotten along yet. They just moved into our neighborhood. Our parents became close because our house was really close.
I saw him crying under the monkey bar and being teased by the other kids. Kesyo panot daw siya.
Hahahah, he used to be skinny but he's handsome even though he's skinny.
So that's it, I approached him and he even laughed at me. He thought maybe I would fight him like the other kids.
"Move! I don't like you" he said to me but I came closer to him and patted his back.
"You want me to voodoo them?" I said.
I don't know why I said that. I am not a witch.
"What?" She said in shock.
"Just a joke. Mama said it's bad to cry" I said to little Hanz.
"Really? I'm bad?" He said more.
"Yes, that's why you're shh. Don't cry anymore" I told him while wiping his tears.
"What's your name?" I asked him.
"I'm Hanz. And you?" He said more. Hanz used to be really English.
"I'm Nikita."
"And you're a witch." He said so I stared at him.
"No, I'm not" I said together.
"Yes you are" he said smiling. I don"t know if he"s smiling or just holding back a laugh.
"Aishhh, let's go. But it's just a secret ahh" I teased him.
End of Flashback!
From then on, we became close and I just let her call me 'witch'.
"No one is fighting me don. I tell them 'I have a witch friend' so they don't fight me anymore" he said teasingly so I looked at him again.
"Where are we really going to date?" I even told him to divert our conversation.
"Pshh, edi at the Mall. Let's eat first, I haven't eaten yet" he said but he still thought he was on the road.
"Oh, you're going to complain. Did I tell you to come to my house before eating?" I made a harsh promise to him.
"No but I want to eat with you. Yieeeee, that's going to suck with excitement" he teased again.
This animal's mouth is horrible.
"Hehhh! No one will shake your skin" I pissed him off again so he also glared at me.
I just laughed so he just laughed too. That's right and we arrived at the mall. He parked his car so we just got off.
He put his arm around me and then we walked into the mall. He took me to a seafoods restaurant. We were just at the door and I could smell the food. I looked at the menu and ...
Ulala ~
My eyes widened. I'm craving for lobster tas shrimp tapos lato tapos ...
Waaaaaaaaaah! I'm hungry again.
I pulled Hanz inside myself. We sat down and the woman immediately gave us the menu. I chose only six dishes.
"As far as I know, eat before we leave ahh. You still beat me hungry ahh" he said. I just didn't say anything because I was really waiting for my order.
And after how many years, naserve narin.
I was already hungry so I immediately grabbed the lobster and shrimp. I really put it in my mouth. Hanz just looked at me and shook his head.
"You'll pay for that ahhh. I'll beg you. I thought you were a witch, you're a pig too" he said so I stopped eating.
He looked at me curiously. I lost my appetite because of what he said.
"Why aren't you eating anymore?" He asked more.
"I don't want to. You said I'm a pig, didn't you? It's annoying" I said annoyed so he hit me.
"I have no appetite. Eat that and let's go home" I said.
"Huh? Eh, you're not joking anymore" he said and laughed out loud.
He's crazy, brothers and sisters! Understand.
"Eat that and we'll go a lot more. We'll go to the arcade" he said so my eyes lit up.
"Really?" I said.
"Pshh, don't. You said we're going home because you don't have a g ----"
"It's just a joke. This is it! I'm going to eat it" I said and hurried to swallow the contents of that shell again, the one that looked like a clam!
"Why are you acting weird?" Out of the blue Hanz said so I stopped eating again.
Shall I say? Shemayyy! I know why I'm getting mad, right? Don't you know that too?
Haysttt! Shall I say so?
Nikita's POV,
"H-huh?" Trembling I said to my best friend. I suppress my trembling of course because I am so familiar with it. He knew I was hiding something when I was shaking.
"What? You're hiding something. Tell me." He was serious so I was even more scared.
"A-what is y-yun?"
"What is that?" He asked me again.
"Wow, I'm aware of you. What are you thinking about there?" I keep myself from murmuring because it only makes me even more curious.
"TSS!" He sighed.
"Wait ..." I said while holding my stomach.
"What happened to you?" Worried he said.
"I'm C-Cr. You're just there. Don't take my foods but ......... I'll vomit you." I just said it was a reason to make him laugh.
I hurried to CR because I felt like I was really going to have diarrhea.
'Baby, should I tell your Uncle Hanz or not?'
I did what I was supposed to do and took a tissue to the side. I exited the cubicle and faced the mirror while washing my hands.
I remember the time when Kent and I also went to the mall and then I had diarrhea so he waited for me outside the CR. When he was bored he really knocked.
'Be impatient!'
I smiled again.
What is that Nikita, for once don"t think about Kent. You shouldn't be depressed especially if you're pregnant! '
'What will I look like when I have a big belly?'
I imagined myself holding my stomach and then getting dressed and then Kent suddenly came in with us while yawning -----
'Hayyyy! Kent again. '
I just bent down and washed. Then I went out to CR.
I went to Hanz and I's table. He's still there, he still hasn't finished what he's eating. Eh, he only ordered a little.
It's slow even when you eat this panot.
"Until now? Are you still good at eating?" I am critical of his art of grief.
The madman just stared at me and pointed to where I was sitting before. I just sat down and left the food immediately.
Grabeeeee! The smell of toes makes you hungry.
"What? Tara?" Hanz said after we ate.
"Come on. Pay for that since you were the one who came here!" I said so that I could be free.
"Is that so? What if I make you sick of what you ate?" He also said so I confronted him and punched him.
"Aray! You're so hurting now ahh? That's how I miss you?" He still said so I pinched him on the side.
I"m glad to pinch him. Heheheh!
"Arayyy! What is that witch, you have evolved ahh, you have become a sadistic witch ahh" he said. I just stared at him so that the conversation wouldn't escalate because I was so itchy in the arcade.
KYAA ~ I missed the arcade.
We left Hanz's restaurant. We are now walking to Tom"s World. Since Tom's World was still on the fifth floor, Hanz pulled me into the elevator.
"A-ayoko d-diyan!" I said because I was feeling nauseous when I rode there. Knowing that I ate a lot before and then I had a baby in my stomach, maybe he didn't want that so I said no.
"Huh? I thought you really liked it? Before, you were the one dragging me to the elevator, now? Anyare sayo?" He even said so I looked at him.
"Ahh-ehhh- because isn't it-ahmmm, what is it --- maybe we'll brownout here t-tas mastuck-up ta-tayo sa t-taas."
Stupid wild! Why is that the excuse I thought of?
"TSS, you're OA too. Of course they have a generator tas will run the elevator until the nastuck gets down to the top!" He just said but I ignored him instead, I just pulled him to the escalator.
"Because maybe-let's t-try the escalator. S-I'm tired of the elevator ehh" I said but he didn't answer me so I turned to him and there was still a look of surprise on his face. I just sighed.
When we got to the fourth floor, I didn"t expect what I saw.
Kent is here ....... with Lauren.
Destiny is with me. Doesn't he feel sorry ehhh, I'm pregnant after he still met Kent and me. Ansama mo tadhana !! Ayoko na.
'P*ste'
I stopped when I saw them. Kent got used to it and that's what made me cry the most. He was quick to find others while I, believed the saying ....
'You have to wait six months before you look for someone else when you break up'
But, he didn't look for others because from the beginning he didn't put me in his heart. From the beginning, Lauren was the flesh of his heart and until now, Lauren is still the one he loves. He didn't even love me in our one year together.
I thought he wasn't a playboy but he still didn't make a difference because he was a cheater. He made me believe that he loved me even though he didn't.
But why is that? I know he doesn't love me but I still can't get mad at him? Unfair, he's happy, I'm not!
'Baby, why is that? Let's go, you're going to make mommy happy, aren't you? '
"Oh? I'm so far away that you're still here. I thought you were following me ehhh. You're an idiot there."
I saw them enter the bag shop. I don't even remember that he bought me a bag. Clothes, yes, he bought me of course but bag? No!
"Hey Witch!"
Suddenly my feet brought me near the shop they entered.
"Wait! You're not on your own ehhh. What's really going on with you?" I stopped walking when someone suddenly grabbed my arms. I think it's just Hanz.
I was surprised ... Hanz, I'm still with him.
"W-what's that?"
"I've been talking to you before. Looks like you're not on the payroll right now! Did you smoke?" He said it seriously but he said it jokingly.
Suddenly my tears rolled down my cheeks and I didn't know, I just pulled him to the escalator and we went straight to the parking lot.
I put him in the car and I was there in the driver's seat.
"W-wait, where are we going?"
"Hey! I'm going to drive."
I ignored him and started the engine. He just kept talking but at least one I ignored. My mind is full of my misdeeds now.
When we got to a park playground just near our subdivision I pulled him out.
I sat on a bench and I knew he was following me. He sat down next to me.
"Tell me what's wrong?" He said and tears welled up in my eyes as I hugged my best friend.
I need comfort.
"H-Hanz, b-pregnant a-me"