Chapter 40

Nikita's POV,
"Tara is a pregnant witch." Hanz is with me. He has been my great follower since he already knows my condition. He takes me to school and picks me up home.
After I ate, I hurried because I have a lot more to pass and after that, clearance only then a few months, we are graduates.
I rode and so did Hanz. We were quiet the whole trip because ... I don't know why he was quiet.
Topakin yan ehhh, suddenly quiet but sooner or later the abnormal will find you again!
You drive him while singing.
Oh see? I said maybe we're quiet ... EARLIER, Just now he suddenly turned on the radio of his car and listened to a song ... Oh huh !! That's how he is, he'll be quiet before he suddenly sings.
"Oh! Don't disobey the Doctor's advice." He was reminding me.
"Yes Wizard Boss. Yes!" I said while still saluting him. He just laughed at me. He waited for me to enter the campus before he left.
He is my best friend. The luck of the woman he will marry.
I'm already walking to my room. When I entered, Ma'am was not there yet so I just sat quietly.
From time to time, what I had been waiting for came in. Yes yes, until now, I still want to see him. To this day, I am still happy to see him even though I get hurt every time I see him.
Martyr if martyr but what can I do? My heart dictates ahh!
Her face was clear. You can see in his face that he is happy ... but that hurts for me because the mind is chasing me ...
You can"t make him happy like that. Only your release will give him that satisfaction. '
He went straight to his seat just behind me. We used to sit here when we were still in a relationship and I'm expecting him to change seats because we broke up.
He didn't even look at me before. I'm hurting. I want to know that I still have value to him at least in hindsight. But I failed. He didn't took a glance at me.
"Good Morning Class!" Suddenly our teacher came in so we were able to sit down.
"It's only a month and a half and your suffering will be over. But before you can take the stage to get your certificates you still have work to do in my class. Find someone to be with. Here's what you have to do. I want to. I want you to meditate on Vladimir Propp's Morphology of Folktales and find a novel that shows these morphologies. You will need to pass it to me before you can take the final test. This will serve as your clearance for me. " Long explanation by Mrs. Razon, our teacher of Filipino Literature.
They are already looking for a partner. No one is still approaching me to make me a partner. I don't have anyone close here in our room. I can talk to them but they're not my friend.
"Psst! Nikita." I looked behind me when he suddenly called me.
Will he invite me to be his partner?
"Can you be my partner? K-because no one approaches me, same as you." He said more. There was not even a trace of him being ashamed.
Why are the others, it's awkward for them to talk to their ex but he ...
'You're nothing for him.'
Everyone knew we were Kent but they didn"t know that we already broke up. So maybe no one approached us because they thought we were partners.
"Ahh-ehh ----"
"If it's okay with you." He cut short what I would have said.
My heart is celebrating because I can be with him even just as a partner in work but my mind? It keeps on saying that I should move-on.
'Easy to say but hard to do.'
What should I follow? Heart or mind? '
"N-no. Its o-ok. I don't have a k-partner either." I said.
'Say what Nikita? If even talking to him makes you moan, how will you do your clearance? '
"Okay. Also, can I m-talk to you later?" He said that made my heart pound ... EWAN!
"T-about what?"
"I just want to clear things up." He says.
Now what does he want to say? Closure? No-no-no !!! But I badly needed it.
"Ahhhh, s-sure!" Yes, I'm trying not to be awkward here but I'm good in pretending yah knaww!
"Thanks." She said smiling.
I turned my back on him because my tears were once again threatening to fall.
I 'm still hurt. I know I'm still hurt.
Before I could move, my tears were already dripping. I wiped it off immediately because he might notice that I was crying again. And I know I shouldn't be depressed because the baby might fail.
'Baby, he's your Daddy. I'm sorry if he doesn't know you ahhh. I'm sorry if Mommy chose not to tell her because I might not see her happy anymore. I'm sorry baby. Mommy loves you so much.
I even wiped the helping tears from my eyes. I've been an idiot all day and even with my food I'm still not myself.
I try to think of what he will say to me later. I bet he will say ...
'Nikita, thanks for being a part of me. I loved you but I don't know why when Lauren came back my love for her also returned. '
And this, go home and Kent is still behind me. I hurried to get my things ready when I felt him come closer to my seat. I looked up and saw him smiling again.
I just smiled at him and then slung my bag over my shoulders. We walked together.
He used to hold my hand as we walked but now, his hand is in his bag.
We used to make noise when walking but now, we still beat the pipes and it hurts when we walk in extreme silence.
"Ahm --- I'm sorry about last week." Suddenly he broke the silence.
"Why are you saying sorry?"
"Sorry for hurting you. I loved you but I don't know why when Lauren came back my love for her also returned."
Exact words that I thought he would say earlier.
"Hmmm. I-its ok, as long as you're happy." I said and smiled bitterly.
We sat on the bench near the gate. I'm already waiting for Hanz because the Wizard yin will get angry when I go home alone.
"Good luck with the man you love." He told me.
Are you lucky
"I hope you become happy." I said. I tried to be happy but I ended up looking stupid.
"Ah, hehehehe. I hope we'll be friends. Friends?" He said with both hands.
'After graduation, I'll get away from you first. I don't know if we'll meet next time but I'm sure you'll be married 'when we meet and have a big child' by any chance. Maybe our child already has a stepbrother or stepsister. I just wish we didn't cross paths because I can't bear to see you tied to others and carrying your child with Lauren. '
"Friends." Smiling I said and held out his hand.
I 'm sorry.

Nikita's POV,
I'm at Kent's house now because he picked me up at our house to do what we were asked to do.
Socialize Ma'am, she wants it bound so that the next batch can use it and donate the others to another school.
What did he think of us? Diarrhea of ​​money?
"So as I was saying, we can use Rizal's El Filibusterismo as an example because right, first is the one that will come and that's right, Simoun came. Right?" He says. It's sad because we're really just doing the assignment here. That's really the only reason why he sent me here. I don't want us at home because he might be careful and say he's my ex, that we had a relationship before. Knowing Hanz to just be quick to think.
'What am I expecting? Considering that he's my ex. '
Until now, I still don't tell Hanz that Kent is my ex, the father of the child I'm bringing now because I'm sure he'll get angry and I won't be allowed to go with him.
Knowing Hanz, he"s being more protective when he finds out I"m pregnant.
"Type this one. I'll make explanations about El Fili." He said more and handed me the paper he had written on.
Previously, we used to sleep first before doing our assignment. We use to watch movie first before doing it. But now, this is really all we did. He said we need to finish this right away because he still has something to do and I'm not a fool now so as not to hear that Lauren was the one he was talking to earlier on the cellphone.
I just followed what he said and just typed what he wrote.
You know the feeling that it's so awkward for me to be together but to him it seems like nothing ... It's like we didn't get along before.
"She's Nikita, where are you going to work when we're done?" He suddenly asked while he was still focused on what he was writing.
"Ahhh-ehhh! S-in the company first maybe n-they Ha-Hanz." I just answered while I was also looking at the laptop.
"I-you?" I asked again.
"I have to manage our company. Daddy will bequeath it to me."
Yes you read it right. They have a Kent company of their own. He is also rich but he is not like other rich people who are artistic and arrogant. That"s what I liked about him besides how handsome he was.
He has that character of a Good Son and a Good Gentleman. Before I met him, he wasn't that smiling.
I remember the first day that we've met, it was also in the park. I was crying that time because my first boyfriend broke up with me. I was really hurt that time because he's my first love. And if any of us were to be separated from our first loved one would be really hurt. Do you know what his reason is? Its because I'm boring. He said I didn't want to give my virginity to him so he looked for someone else. But I don't remember him asking me to do it. He didn't tell us to do that. In fact he was so sweet and caring but everything changed when he introduced a woman to me and said we were breaking up.
The same scenario as how Kent broke up with me. I'm starting to hate meeting.
Kent was there at that time. Someone suddenly sat next to me and then suddenly laughed. I looked up at him and admitted I was smirking at him. He told me about how his girlfriend broke up with him too and it turned out that, that girl is Lauren. His First Love. I stopped crying and just laughed at him. He added me on Facebook and we chatted. And then he suddenly asks me if he can court me. And at first I was hesitant because of my experience with my first boyfriend but I agreed. He's been courting me for about seven months. And then last year I answered him. And I didn't expect him to be drunk, I accompanied him to his condo and what I didn't want to happen happened.
Last month something happened to us. I first woke up that time so I left the house immediately after I dressed Kent in pajamas. I was still laughing because I was still squinting when I dressed him.
Peri wepppp! I'm not peeping non ahh .... Not really! Says No ehh, NOT OK?
He doesn't know that something happened to us that time. I also thought I wouldn't get pregnant but I became happy because we were also graduating and I planned to tell her when she broke up with me. I had planned to tell her I was pregnant but that Lauren came.
And that was the saddest day of my life.
"Nikita." I was back in a trance when I heard him calling me.
"A-ahh, why?" None of my own question.
"Because ... look at the screen." I looked at the screen of the laptop I was using.
All I see is 's'. I just hit the 's' earlier. I immediately deleted it and re -typed where I left off.
"We're finishing too and it's already night. I'll just take you, I'll finish it." He said so I looked up.
"Let's not end this." I said.
"All right, I'll just type it too." He said and I just nodded.
I don't want to argue since I'm tired too and I want to go home. Hanz also texted me where I was supposed to be so I just agreed that he was the one to finish.
"Just don't take me. I'll just send for Hanz." I just said.
"Who's that Hanz by the way?" He suddenly asked and there's inside me who wants to think he's curious because I might have a replacement for him.
But I cut my thoughts because I knew in myself that I would only get hurt eventually.
"Ahh, he's my childhood best friend." I said. He nodded.
"I'll take you. I'm sending you here ehh." He says.
"No, don't. Aren't you leaving yet?" I will ask.
"Yes and that's right, I won't pass either so I'll take you." He said that's why I haven't carved him yet.
I'll make the most of it because this might be the last day I can be with him solo. We will definitely meet at school but not like this 'As a friend'. Maybe I shouldn't let my guards off next time to reduce the pain I'm feeling.
We also got in his car after we put away our belongings earlier and after he also got dressed for departure. He just drove to our house.
When we were in front of our house, he was about to get out of the car but I stopped him. I just wanted to tell him something.
"Kent ..." I started and he just looked at me. "I don't want us to talk anymore because ... I'm going to direct you ... I'm still hurting until now from your separation and I'm feeling, I'll go crazy every time you talk to me. AI just wants to say that I can't be like you I don't like you who can act like you have no partner with your ex. So hopefully, you won't talk to me anymore. I'm still moving ehh and I can't move- on as long as you're around me. A-I'm sorry. " I said and spontaneously got out of the car.
I left him there stupid. That's OK because I know it'll be hard for me to get away if he's there. So until it was too early, I kept my distance from him so that I could stay away from him when I left.
I can handle this for my child for myself as well.

Kent's POV,
I'm here today at Lauren's house to pick her up because we have a Family Gathering today. I was still an idiot and just staring at nothingness.
I don"t know but I"m hurting. I was hurt by what Nikita said earlier. I don't know but I really feel sorry for her. I didn"t really mean to hurt him.
I admit, I became a g*go for leaving Nikita. I'm confused. I know to myself that I really loved her but I didn't know when Lauren came it was as if all my love for her had returned.
Lauren is my ex-girlfriend or shall we say, first girlfriend. I was suddenly surprised when she called me and then she told me everything so she went abroad and broke up with me because of her fiance. She didn't tell about that because she knew I would be stubborn. She did everything so that she could not marry that man because she said she loved me. And that's right, he did. His fiance also rejected him because he felt that he really had no interest in it.
Pshhh! Stubborn Girl.
"Why are you laughing?"
I looked up when I heard Lauren's voice. I smiled at her and tried to hide the sadness I had felt earlier at what Nikita had said.
How could I hurt that lovely girl?
"Have you finished your homework?" Smiling she said.
She's not a jealous type girl. She knew that Nikita was my partner but it was OK with her because she trusts me. He is not jealous. In fact, he was still hesitant when I broke up with Nikita because he said he was hurt.
Lauren was very kind actually.
Do you really want to know why I broke up with Nikita?
Its because, Lauren is my fiance. My parents force me to break up with Nikita. I"ll admit in the first place, my parents doesn"t like Nikita for me.
I know my parents, they will make a way for Nikita and me to separate. They could do anything to separate the two of us. I preceded them because they might hurt Nikita.
"Not yet but I let him go first, I'll finish it. It's easy." I said.
"Your pride." He said simultaneously slapping my shoulder.
"By the way, did you take him to their house?" He says.
Yeahhh! He actually told me to deliver Nikita. But even if he doesn't tell me, I will still deliver it.
"You know what? I still feel guilty for what I did to him." Sadly Lauren said.
"I can't blame him if he's mad at me, if he rocks me with hurtful words because I know he's hurting." She says sadly.
"Me too. She talked to me before we split up. She doesn't want us to be friends because she's moving on. I-I just want us to be friends." I said.
"Hon, you can't make your ex a friend. He was hurt so automatically that he will consider you just a memory." He told me.
"Let's go?" I'm just Lauren's babysitter. He smiled before walking out.
I cannot deny it. I was really hurt by what Nikita said. After all, we have a partnership as well.
But I can't afford to lose Lauren anymore.
'Aishhh! I'm confused again. Was my decision to break up the right one? What if my parents hurt him? Where's Lauren? I know, I still love her. But I know, I love Nikita too. Am I being stupid? I love them both? I know, one cannot love both. But what will I do if that's what my heart says? I love them both. It hurts me to lose Lauren and now it hurts me to lose Nikita in my life. '
"They're already there, Mommy." Lauren said while looking at the cellphone.
I just nodded and drove to the restaurant owned by Lauren's former fiance.
We were just quiet the whole trip until we got to the restaurant. The crew greeted us immediately.
"Good Day Ma'am? Mr. Fernandez and Ms. Punzalan right?" The crew asked and Lauren and I both nodded.
"This way Ma'am, Sir." He said and guided us to the private room of this restaurant.
When we entered, we immediately saw the faces of Mommy, Daddy, Tita and Tito. They smiled as we approached our seats.
"They're really a perfect couple." Said Tita Renvil, Lauren's mother.
"How are you son?" Daddy asked me. I smiled at them before sitting down.
"I'm fine Dad." My answer.
"Good to hear that because you will be managing our company soon. Not only our company, and the Punzalan's Corporation. You two will be managing non." Said Dad.
"Oh, balae! When is the children's wedding?" Tito Laurence asked my parents.
The door of the VIP room opened and the servers entered with foods.
"Ahh, I would have thought ten months from now since Daddy and I have been preparing for so long. Same as my parents." Said Mommy.
That Lauren and I just look at our parents. When the food landed on the table Lauren spooned lobster onto my plate.
"I know, your favorite is lobster." He said smiling so I just smiled too.
I suddenly remembered Nikita. He also likes lobster. Especially when the mixture is a bit sour.
Aishhh, what is that. Lauren is with me now but Nikita suddenly came to my mind.
"Eat it." Lauren said so I looked at my plate.
Just now what Mommy said earlier sinks into my brain.
Ten months from now we will get married? What about the morning?
No, I didn't mean I didn't want to marry Lauren. That was my dream before. But there's inside me who says it's the morning of our wedding.
I"m even confused about how I feel.
But I know, even if I complain, my parents will still be obeyed. I hope that ten months would be enough for me to answer the questions in my mind.
Aishhh Kent. You used to dream, didn't you? To marry Lauren. Yes, I could marry him but I hurt someone. I hope he can move on. If I ever move on, I will invite him to my wedding so that I can at least see the woman I love or shall we say, it has also been a part of my life, at the last moment before I am tied to others.
Nikita's POV,
It's been two weeks since the last time I talked to Kent. I don"t know but I"m disgusted with myself.
Why did I do that?
Is what I did really right? I know I'll look stupid if I say I'm OK with forcing myself to ignore Kent.
But there's something inside me that says, 'That's right. That's what you have to do so you don't get hurt too much. '
I looked at my stomach. Thanks and it's not that big yet. He's not obvious yet but I can't deny that I get really dizzy sometimes. I just closed my eyes for a while until I recovered.
"Niks, let's go to the canteen." Mara took care of me, she also became my friend here.
"S-okay." I just answered and slung my bag over my shoulder. We just practice the graduation ceremony since we are done with all the requirements.
We walked to the canteen. We lined up to buy. When it was our turn, I also ordered a burger because I didn't trip the spaghetti and carbonara here. I don't like the smell of those two foods.
After we got the food we looked for a seat.
"You know already?" I looked at Mara when she suddenly spoke.
"Terrence is here." He suddenly said and I stopped eating. The memories I had before came back. I was stunned by what he said but I also recovered deeply in my mind ...
'What am I doing? That was before and I don't have it anymore. '
"What is he doing here in the Philippines?" I asked him.
"I don't know. I just read in his status on fb that he has returned to the Philippines" said Mara.
I can't tell Mara I'm pregnant but she knows Kent and I have broken up. What others know is just a misunderstanding of us because we don"t pay attention.
I stopped chewing again when I suddenly fainted.
Errrrr! Not now baby!
"What's wrong with you Niks?" Mara asked worriedly and touched me on the shoulder.
"W-nothing." I just said and I was dizzy for a while so I just sat up.
"I'm just lacking in sleep." I just told him not to ask any more questions.
"So? What are you going to do?" He asked me so my forehead furrowed.
What am I going to do?
"What will I do?" I asked him again because I also didn't know what else I would do if he came back?
"Nothing. You won't do anything Nikita. Nothing really." He said while still shaking.
My forehead frowned again because of what he said.
"What if he's already there?" I will ask.
"What if, let's use him to make Kent jealous and make him realize that it's a BIG STUPIDITY that he left you." He said that it seemed like the best solution to all the problems I faced.
I stopped eating again when he suddenly said that.
I don't like his idea. I don't want to hope because I'll just look stupid. I'll just let him where he's happy. I won't stop him don.
"I don't want to. I'm in the state of moving on Mara so I don't want to."
"What? I know you still love her ehh. Are you just going to lose to that Lauren?" He said calmly.
"Pshhh! Shut up Mara. Lauren is kind ehh." I defend Lauren because I know that's kind.
"And you're really still on his side. Tell me, was your break-up with Kent scripted?" Cross-arms he said.
"Pshhh! Just eat that girl because the bell is about to ring. Maybe we're still weak." I said and handed him his burger. He just smirked at me but ate as well.
After we ate we went to the classroom. When we entered, my cellphone suddenly vibrated so I looked at who was texting me.
I think it's Hanz. I read his text.
*Witch, just send it to Mara later. I'm sorry to hear that. I still have a meeting with other stakeholders. You know I'm a Poging Businessman, right?*
That's what he said in the text so I laughed at his last words.
Poging Businessman. Pffft!
I put my cellphone back in my pocket. When I entered, our adviser entered correctly.
"OK you go out and practice in the auditorium. Now." Our adviser said so we got up to leave the classroom.
Mara and I left the classroom and went to the auditorium at the same time.
"Ahmm-Mara. K-because Hanz said, can I go with you? Because he can't pick me up ehh." I just said while scratching my head.
"PSH! It looks like Hanz is different from you ahh." He also teased me and stabbed me in the side.
This woman is delicious, it hurts so much to tickle her. But because, he didn't know that Hanz was just doing this to me because I was pregnant and he was worried about my baby.
"Sira!" I just said.
"Yes. I'll take you with me. Maybe Hanz will kill me ehh." He said so I just smiled.
I also can't stand a to ehhh!
You are wondering why you only met him now because I was preoccupied this past month due to events in my life so I also forgot to introduce him to you.
Besides, only now did the author think of inserting him ehh! Hahahah! Pesyow otor! *insert peace sign*
We were already in the auditorium and we practiced for a few minutes. We first practiced the marching, then the flow of the program, then we memorized the song the most. In the next practice, it will be the detailed practice.
After practice we were all tired of going down. I drank some water first because I'm tired and you know I'm not allowed to get tired, diba and good thing because Hanz didn't pick me up today because the Panot Wizard who cried that Gay will just confront me.
Mara and I are already in the car. Of course, this woman will also be rich so she has her own car. Because he was so talkative, he was noisy the whole trip. And because he is at the right age, he is the one who drives it.
I only sent him outside our subdivision because our house was just a walking distance from the gate of our subdivision. About 10 houses away but you still turn right.
I walked too. When I turned around, I saw a man who was covered in mud and was looking at our house.
I was just looking at him when he suddenly turned to my behavior and I was so shocked when I saw him outside our house.
'What is he doing here?'