Bellas thoughts

A stranger to me carried me back to the pack house , I had no idea how long I was in his arms or for how long I cried .

I still couldnt process what had happened . Layla was talking to me and then she was gone, lifeless . I didn’t understand who would want to do that to anyone or to her.

The tears continued to flow as I was lowered into mine and Lucas’a bed and then I was alone .
More alone then I had ever felt in my life . More alone because I had felt the comfort of a soul mate a partner and right now I needed him . More then I have ever needed anyone and he wasn’t here .
I knew why he wasn’t here and it was for all the right reasons but it didn’t make it any easier .
I looked down at myself and panic took over .
Layla’s blood covered me making every thing more real.

I cried harder trying to remove my clothes as quickly as I could . I ran into the shower and stood there whilst the water cascaded over my body . Not in the way it had earlier in the day . The way I had enjoyed it .
No it cascaded over me removing parts of Layla from me . The water turning red and pink in the bottom of the shower .
The tears continued to fall , I hadn’t known Layla long but I knew she was a great friend in such a short time.

I managed to stop the shower and stand whilst the remaining drips hit the floor . I wrapped a towel around myself and stepped into the bedroom pulling on the discarded t shirt that Lucas had worn yesterday . It still had his scent on it, I breathed in deeply trying to inhale every ounce of him that remained on his shirt. It was the closest thing I had to him right now .

I lay on the bed curled up worrying about Lucas. I didn’t know who or how many wolfs could have been out there . I wanted my mate back here with me holding me .

I lay in the bed until I drifted off to sleep , I know this because I was woken by a terrified scream .
At first I thought it was coming from my own mouth before realising it was coming from outside ...

The scream sounded only slightly familiar .
I looked out side the window and saw many wolfs outside . Then I noticed two people tied to the large tree at the front of the house .

Lucifer was stood near the life less body of one of them , his head hanging off .
I gasped when I saw this, that was untill I saw the other person .
It was Bella , what the fuck !
I didn’t have time to think I ran down the stairs shouting “no” shifting mid run into my wolf .
I didn’t care who saw me I needed to save my friend . What on Earth were lucifer and Lucas thinking .

I jumped in front of Bella trying to protect her . She was terrified and so was I a little .
I couldn’t figure out what was happening .
Was this all some kind of crazy dream I didn’t know .
Lucas suddenly shifted and grabbed me moving me back .
Like a tidal wave all of the information I was craving was transmitted to me in a millisecond. I collapsed to the ground wimpering not looking at Bella or Lucas or anyone to be honest .
A wash of exhaustion hit me ten fold .
And then I heard it before I saw it . Like watching some one fall and not being able to stop them in time .
Bellas throat was slashed !
There was blood all around me and I began to sob harder then before . This was all too much for me . I lay on the ground naked in my human form .

Lucas picked me up and marched into the house shielding as much of my body as possible .
He turned the faucet to the bath on and we sat in silence whilst it filled , me still in his arms .
He lowered me in slowly before undressing and climbing in behind me .

We lay in the bath untill the water went cold just holding onto one another not saying a word . There was so much to say but tonight was not the time to say it . Tonight was a night of no words , it was a night to simply lay in one another’s arms .

Lucas was the first to climb out of the bath , he scooped my exhausted body up and wrapped a towel around me .
He placed me in the bed and lay behind me pulling me into his chest .

I could feel the tears from his eyes fall onto the back of my neck . I said nothing just held him tighter . He had lost a friend and almost lost me . I hadn’t even thought about what he was feeling . I held him all night and never let go .
I woke in the morning glad to see he was still wrapped around my body .

I didn’t want today to start , I didn’t want to relive yesterday but I knew we had to get through it .

Lucas woke and looked more tired then he did at the start of the night . I knew we needed to have a talk about what had happened but wasn’t sure when that would be .
This morning we needed to get Layla buried and that was going to be emotional for every one .

Often when a mate dies the other one dies shortly after . Lucifer still looked strong yesterday I thought .

I got dressed into some yoga pants and a sweat top with trainers . I went to the kitchen to get Lucas some breakfast . I walked in and was taken aback to see lucifer sitting at the table drinking coffee .

He looked over at me and I felt a strange tingling sensation. His eyebrows raised slightly looking at me trying to process something before he turned back to his coffee. A frown across his face .

Weird I thought but carried on.
I said nothing and grabbed a coffee and a couple of bacon rolls for Lucas before returning to our room .
Lucas stirred as I entered , I saw him panic mid sleep as his arm searched for me in the bed .
“Hey” I called to him , I’m here, I was just getting you some breakfast and a coffee . You looked exhausted even in your sleep .
Lucas half smiled and thanked me .

He ate what I brought and downed the coffee before kissing my lips and walking into the shower.

Weird again I thought, the same tingly feeling ran over my body when Lucas kissed me just like when lucifer looked at me .

It’s a big day , let’s just hold it together and evaluate every thing later molly I told my self .

The arrangement for Layla’s burial was small and private . Only a handful of wolfs were present and the ceremony was beautiful .
Lucifer said a few words catching my eye occasionally .
I held onto Lucas and shed a few more tears before the whole event was over .
We left lucifer to spend some private time with Layla before the dirt covered her coffin .

I walked hand in hand with Lucas across the garden to a small bench . We sat down and watched the world going by silently before Lucas spoke .
It was meant to be you , you know ?
I gulped.... Athena had told me what had happened . It still shocked me now .
I was so scared I could have lost you molly , do you know how shit scarred I was that some one planned to do that and I wasn’t there to protect you .
Shhh shh Lucas .
No one knew she would do this , I didn’t think she would ever do something so crazy .
I held onto his hands and looked into his eyes . Tears dropped from them as he looked at me . I leant forward and kissed him on the mouth pushing my tongue through his parted lips.
I kissed him to reassure him and to ensure him that I was here .... like right here right now.

As I kissed him I sensed someone’s eyes on me . I pulled away to take a breath surveying the area quickly I noticed lucifer in the distance watching us . Watching me I thought .

Awkward !!!

Lucas is lucifer ok , ? I mean obviously he isn’t ok but is he ok ?
That’s a lot of ok’s Molly he chuckled . The first laugh I had heard in the past 24 hrs .

Yeah I don’t know what happens now to be honest molly . I don’t know if I take the role of alpha or what . I hadn’t really ever thought about being alpha , I was always happy in a beta role . Lucifer has always been my alpha and I hadnt imagined it any other way .