Chapter Seventeen

He leans without breaking the kiss and scoops me up into his arms, making my legs straddle his waist. I feel the excitement of his arousal through his pants – his cock thickening the longer our mouths stay molded together. I make sure to grind slightly against it which causes him to groan against my mouth.

If tonight is our last night I want it to consume me.

He carries me to the bed, pain a quick appearance within him portrayed in the way he hisses slightly, but when he lays me down and stands, ogling my body he refuses to answer a concerning question about the state of his well-being.

“Are you okay?” I press, concern lining my brows. He shakes his head.

“You have changed me so fucking much.” His hands clench into fists down at his sides, before he looks away for a moment.

“Touch me, Jay. Take what you want from me,” I reply breathlessly.

He licks his lips and swallows.

“I’m yours,” I admit. Hearing that makes him turn his attention back to me. There’s an emotion in his eyes I can’t quite pinpoint, but it’s gone in a flash when he blinks and replaced is that darkness that is eating him up inside.

He hooks his fingers in my pants and begins pulling them down swiftly. He discards them without a second glance on the ground before he eyes my throbbing core with hunger.

I just want to take away his pain. Anything to take it away.

He licks his lips and lowers his head in between my legs. I gasp, remembering his teasing threats a few days ago when he’d talked about having a taste of what was between my thighs. Excitement fills me hastily and I begin to wiggle when I feel his warm breath cascading my glistening folds.

“You’re not fucking going anywhere.”

My train of thought is cut off when he lowers his mouth to my pussy and I feel the feathery brush of his tongue glide up my slit.

“Oh, Jay!” I gasp, hands moving to his head where I tangle my fingers in the soft locks of his hair. I’m surprised he isn’t wincing from this angle with my name carved into his flesh.

Then again… Jay the sadist.

I have to remember the pain isn’t the same with him.

“Don’t squirm too much.” His warm breath makes me shudder. “I don’t want to miss even a drop of that juice,” he says huskily as he pulls his mouth away from a second before I feel his scorching tongue working my sensitive flesh once again. The pleasure is mind-numbing. It swoops throughout my entire being until I can’t think about the pain and the loss I’ll endure. All I can think about is him. His tongue. His strength.

Everything.

My orgasm moves at a speed faster than light, slamming into me with a few more flicks of his tongue. I shatter completely, coming powerfully on his tongue, and just as he’s implied, he laps me up until I’m cleaned spotless.

“Whoa. I didn’t- I didn’t think I’d finish so quickly,” I gasp. A ghost of a smirk touches his lips, and he shakes his head.

“Don’t doubt me then.”

“I won’t!” I say and giggle when he actually smiles. For a moment it feels like a stolen memory of a functional couple – but we’re too far from that.

This will never be normal.

My life was destined for hell the moment I said “I do” to Will.

But if I’m going to burn, I’ll enjoy my date with the devil himself.

I eye Jay as he undoes his jeans and frees his monstrous member. It sways intimidatingly and the moment I lay eyes on it, my inner walls clench in remembrance of how much it filled me.

“I can see you’re excited.”

“Yes,” I rasp and nibble on my bottom lip as he palms his erection and steps forward. He stops for a moment to yank me to the edge of the bed before he leans forward and rubs himself against me. We moan simultaneously.

“Oh my god,” I moan. Jay grunts as he thrusts and buries his length inside of me.

“Fuck,” he hisses before a deep groan rolls off his tongue when I clench my pussy around his cock. He begins to thrust powerfully. As if he’s running out of time to indulge in the sweetness, I’ve offered him.

“Too fucking good. Too fucking mine.”

He grabs my hips and begins to slam me back against him. I’m moaning wildly, reaching out to grab him, any part of him to hold onto as if it’ll keep me tethered to the ground when ecstasy threatens to float me toward oblivion.

He feels too good.

Too safe.

I know I shouldn’t hold onto that feeling but after feeling like my life’s been out of control, and constantly waiting for Will to snap and kill me, what Jay exudes has become comforting.

My eyes flutter closed as I let my feelings consume me. I hear Jay grunting and the way he angles his hips with each thrust hits that perfect spot inside of me that has me shaking with another incoming orgasm.

“I can feel that you’re close. So fucking close, you’re squeezing me tightly. Come, Akira,” He commands. I’m breathless when I open my eyes and respond.

“I don’t want this to ever end,” I admit. He leans forward, placing both hands beside my head to kiss me as he slows his pace a little to taste my lips once more. Each thrust is passionate, and I still find my orgasm building dangerously.

What I am saying is so dangerous.

I’m being so vulnerable, and I’ve always taught myself not to expose myself so easily. I didn’t ever want to give Will any ammunition. Here I am giving it to Jay.

His thrusts become more frantic once again until he’s panting into my mouth and I’m desperately trying to swallow the sounds of his groans as if I’ll be able to bottle them up and hold them within you forever.

“You’re so tight, I don’t want to pull out,” he groans and I wrap my legs around his waist, pressing him hard against me to force him inside of me as deep as he’ll go. That’s when he vibrates and pounds mercilessly in me and my orgasm slams into me.

“I’m coming, Jay!” I moan his name passionately and he curses as he finishes inside of me.

“Akira!” He curses and I clench around him, eyes closing tightly as I savor every sensation that’s possessing me. He holds himself up as not to crush me, but I want him to.

I pull him down on me gently, melting into the way his entire being is pressed against mine, encumbered by the comforting feeling of his rigid muscles.

“Wait—” I say startled.

“What are you doing? I don’t want to hurt you,” Jay says.

“I don’t care about that. Am I hurting you?”

He shakes his head and I realize he’s angled himself so the raw cuts don’t rest on me.

“Fuck. Like I haven’t done enough damage.” He twists his head and I know he’s talking about the part of my pinky he’s severed. I flex my fingers as I result against his back and shrug.

It’s sensitive, but I’ll live.

“I don’t hold that against you.”

“Why not?” He questions.

He goes to lift himself off me and I shake my head.

“One more minute. Unless you’re in pain—”

He shakes his head. “Don’t worry about that.”

He groans as I press a kiss to his throat.

“I just want to savor right now… before I go.”

He lets me hold him for a minute before he gently pushes himself off me.

“You know you’re not going anywhere.” He pushes off me and fixes his clothes. I frown, unmoving atop his bed as I watch him resort back to that twitching, angered man he was when I first walked in.

“Jay, look, at the end of the day it’s not your decision. It’s mine.”

“Fuck that. Did you forget you’re MY captive? No one else. Mine.” He nods to the bed. “Sleep.”

“I can’t unless you’re next to me.” In this state, I’d be surprised if I could get him to stay in the room let alone the bed, but he sighs and sits on the end. I move behind him and place a kiss on his neck before I whisper.

“Please lay with me?”

He nods before he climbs into bed. He pulls me onto his good side and I listen to the soft sound of his breathing.

In. Out. The most peaceful thing about him right now.

I don’t know when I fall asleep, but only that when I awaken I am no longer in his arms. His bed is empty of his presence, and after I sit up and quickly inspect my surroundings, I realize he’s not in the room either.

“What the hell?” I quickly kick away the blanket laid over me and fix my clothes before hurrying to the door.

I hear shouting coming from down the hallway.

What the fuck?

I shove open the door and run into a man standing next to my door. One that I’d noticed in the past but that never really talked to me.

One of Dominico’s men.

My eyes bulge. He steps in front of me and shakes his head.

“Jay said not to let you out,” The man states.

“Why?” Something flashes across his face and I place a hand on my hip and tilt my head. “What the hell is going on?”

“He instructed me to keep you here,” He recites.

“What about Dominico?” The sound of screaming heightens and my eyes move around the man. I go to step around him and he frowns.

“I cannot let you go.”

“Then put your hands on me and stop me.” I arch a challenging brow and he curses. “You can’t, can you?”

“Fuck. He will have my ass if I let you leave.”

“Why aren’t you following Dominico’s orders? I shouldn’t even be out of my room…”

“Because I owe Jay my life. My loyalty lies with him.” He admits with sincerity and my glare softens.

“What is going on? Is that Jay,” I question as the sound of others shouting joins the one voice I’d just heard. “I need to go help him. Please!”

The man’s jaw tenses as he looks over his shoulder.

“Fuck it. I’m going. Otherwise, you’ll have to knock me out and drag me back in his room.” I run down the hallway, my heart begins to pound wildly in my chest until I’m panting. I get to Dominico’s office where a large group of men is gathered and that’s when I see what’s unfolding.

Oh my god.

A group of men stands behind Dominico and some behind Jay.

He’s confronting him.

“Your leadership is over. It should’ve been a few years ago… But I’ve allowed it to go on long enough,” Jay hisses.

“Allowed? You fucking child! Insolent child! I have built this empire. You will shut your fucking mouth and do as you’re told!” Jay steps forward, his voice low and menacing. He’s incredibly intimidating in this state. The kind of psycho that laughs and whispers when he slices into me.

“I don’t fucking answer to you anymore.” Jay raises his brows, amusement in his eyes as anger flashes on Dominico’s face.

“And how do you propose to make me step down? I’m not fucking going anywhere…” Dominico snarls. I stand in the doorway and shiver when Dominico’s eyes rest on me. “All because of this fucking bitch. You have disappointed me greatly, Jay. Letting this woman come in between us.” Dominico spews venom in my direction. His eyes glower as they linger on me and that’s when I realize I should’ve stayed in the room.

“Grab her.”