Chapter 18

Approximately three months have passed since we started our little arrangement. I didn't like it but I also didn't have much of a choice in the matter. I shut my big mouth and handled everything with finesse. Marcus wanted a mistress and that was what I became a mistress.

What else was I to do though? If you were in my position, what would you have done differently? I didn't have much choice but to accept the role that was given to me.

Frankly speaking the first few times we met I almost had a panic attack. I thought about what would happen if I was caught. What would have been my defense? Maybe I could go with he forced me into this. Absolutely no one would believe me even if it was the truth. It was very simple really he is a man and I am a woman. At the end of it all ,it is my word against his and I doubt my words had any weight at all.

It was sad that in our society today the woman would be scorned for such behavior even if it was against her will and the man would be applauded. Men have been given a license by the society to cheat from the beginning of time ,with no consequence. On the other hand it was forbidden for a woman to even try the same thing .

I am not saying that women should be given a license to cheat, not at all. All I was saying is the consequences of cheating should be the same for both genders . Both genders should be held accountable for their actions. Which was that phrase men use when they cheat again; men will always be men. What a sick way to justify bad behavior.

Since I started this arrangement, my only worry has been Katelyn. What would she do if she found out? A cold shiver went through my spine as I imagined the worst case scenario. She would probably pay someone to kill me and dump my body in a ditch somewhere.

I didn't deserve such a cruel death for something I was forced into. Even if I came clean and confessed she would never believe me. She would think that I seduced her fiancé and tried to break up her perfect family. A perfect family she envisioned in her head ,which was not at all accurate. It would be easier to blame me than Marcus, well as she was in love with him.

All this sneaking around was eating me to the core. I recently discovered that I was still in love with the idiot putting me through all this. Why was I still in love with him after all these years? Was I insane? Maybe that would explain why I was still in love with a man who has been torturing me for every second since we met.

But mostly I felt guilty for everything I was doing. I felt guilty for having sex with someone's future husband. Not necessarily because it was Katelyn's future husband but generally I felt bad for breaking a bond. Most especially I felt guilty about there unborn child. I was breaking their home before she or he has a chance to meet his or her parents.

I felt so awful and sick that every time I thought about meeting Marcus I would puke. The stress was eating me up and I for sure deserved a gruesome death for all the heartbreak I was causing.

To make matters worse Jake was arriving in the country today. I didn't want him to figure out what was happening as he would go straight to Katelyn and report our infidelity. I also didn't understand why he wanted to put himself in such a situation where he would have to watch the love of his life be with someone else . Katelyn has made her choice apparent and he had to accept that and move on but somehow I felt like that was not the point of the entire visit.

He called his brother one night we were together and asked if it was okay for him to visit. Marcus didn't have a reason to refuse even though he didn't like the idea of his brother being around. To make matters worse, his brother was not visit alone. He was tagging their sister Lily along.

Great, two more people who didn't like me. And now I have to hide from them too. Could this life get any worse? Sorry, universe I didn't mean it. Please don't send more hardship my way.

My ancestors were already disappointed in me as much as I was disappointed in myself. I have been trying to get any evidence that would prove my innocence but so far none. Three months of searching and I had nothing to show for it. I was frustrated that I was going against all my values for nothing.

I needed to figure out my next step before I ran into those two. I wanted to clear my name before I cut ties with that family completely.

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Jake POV

It has been approximately two years since I left Kenya. Coming back gave me a sense of great joy as this was a country I grew to love. From the social and polite people to the perfect weather, everything that suited me. I stayed away for so long because it would have been strange visiting without my brother.

However I could visit on my own if I wanted but I didn't feel like it. I called my brother before hand and asked if it was okay for us to visit. We were not on the best terms after what happened all those years ago. So let me refresh your memory.

My brother was still angry at me for the fact that I suggested to his then girlfriend that she should leave him. It was merely an advice which she didn't take anyway ,poor girl. She should have taken my advice into account now look at what happened.

He dumped her ,like I predicted he would. However he was not creative about it at all. I heard about what happened from our small sister. She called me laughing , narrating what had happened. I didn't understand why she was happy at someone's expense but well she is who she is.

I didn't appreciate the fact that he threw her out in the middle of the night. What if she was raped? Or kidnapped? Or even killed? What then? Would he have forgiven himself? I was not particularly fond of Zawadi but she was a sweet girl. She deserved better than what she got.

Anyway that is how the world is. A good person rarely falls in love with a fellow good person. They always go for the bad boys or girls and end up in tears eventually. I don't blame her though. I understand her. I felt a sort of kinship with her.

I was going through the same thing myself. I thought breaking Zawadi and Marcus up will benefit me. Turns out I was on the loosing end ,again. Marcus went on a rampage and had his fill of women, my woman included.

I don't know how he found her. Maybe she invited herself on one of his parties. All I knew for a fact was that my brother didn't want to be anywhere near his ex. He could hold a grudge for years. He had made it clear again and again he didn't want to see or hear from his ex. Katelyn had really done a number on him.

The only person who truly had his best interests at heart was Zawadi. She always wanted to please him all the time that I found it disgustingly sweet. I want someone like that. Someone who would have my back as I would have theirs. And he ruined that too. It didn't come as a surprise to me though, I expected it to happen sooner rather than later. I have to take credit for that breakup though, it had to happen.

After our last win we needed a way to be back in on the inner circle. The road we found, I was not very comfortable with. I was afraid that I would loose her again but I had to trust her. She came up with the idea and I had to go along with it.

Now I was heading there to make sure everything went smoothly. I had spies in the hotel as well as in their home who informed me of everything that happens. I was well informed. I knew that Marcus moved from his house to live in the penthouse at the hotel. I don't know exactly what prompted that change but I was happy for it.

I didn't want him winning my girlfriend over.

' She was mine' I thought growling in annoyance.

I didn't realize that I growled out loud. I found Lily looking at me.

" Are you okay?" She asked

" Am fine"

" Okay" she dropped the topic and proceeded to tap at her phone.

This was her first time visiting this country and if it were not for her ,I was certain Marcus wouldn't have let me visit. I used her as an excuse, so sue me. I needed her in order to be welcomed in open arms. Arms that I was scared would stab me.

Our pilot announced that we should all put on our safety belts because we were about to land. We landed minutes after, safely on JKIA. After we located our luggage, we found Mati waiting to take us home. Home for the next few weeks.