Chapter 38

Everyone could be a victim of love. Its either you let it destroy you or heal you. Love is nothing without any problem, but too much of it will wreck every foundation, every brick you use to build it.
I glanced outside the car window. This place didn't change at all. Still looks the same as when I left it.
The tall trees and the vast farm you will see throughout the trip.
There are also a few mansions and houses here, but they are far from each other. Cattle, goats, chickens, ducks and pigs can be seen in the vast lands.
I turned to Tit. It was leaning heavily on the small pillow around its neck. I didn't sleep well last night.
Because we packed things. Before we went home he told me everything. He said he didn't even want to keep it a secret and bring the problem home. So that's it and he's awake.
Mynt is not Tit's real son. At least I was surprised to find out that. Tit's love story is messy, it's too long!
All I know is that Tit's first love was Mazxon, but Herardio was the one who stuck in his heart the most. That’s what he loved to the end.
There was a dispute between two families, the Monteclars and Mondragons because of that incident. Because of that, the two families became angry with Tit. You will be the one to fight between the two heirs of a rich clan in the Philippines!
It even got to the point that Herardio and Mazxon pointed a gun at Tit. Tit isn't just a lover up to edsa, he's also a hairdresser!
Tit is pregnant, Herardio is the father. There was an accident when she gave birth to the baby in the hospital.
Tit's real son died of complications. While Zenaiah Layn's child is alive, she is also pregnant, Mazxon is the child's father.
In Mazxon's desire for Tit and Herardio to separate, he exchanged his own child for Tit's deceased child. Then they said it was their son. So Herardio got angry and left.
Tit, on the other hand, took the child away from Mazxon, he knew how chaotic the child's life was so he chose to be the one to grow up, a few years passed and he noticed that the child looked like Mazxon. There is not much inherited from him.
Until Mynt was seven years old, Tit found them and Mynt's father took them, Mazxon confessed everything to Tit.
She thought Mynt was her real child even though she wasn't, but she noticed that it wasn't the child she was pregnant with, but she loved Mynt like a real child.
I now understand why Zenaiah Layn was so mad at Tit, she was deprived of the responsibility of being a mother to the child.
He and Tit went through the same pain but it was different for them. Because Tit raised Mynt, he loved her so he still looked for her, still considered her and a real mother.
I’m not really Mynt’s cousin. We are not blood relatives. That's why he admitted that he likes me because we are not cousins.
I still can't stop thinking. Does doc bulge know this?
I didn't even tell him we were going home. I didn't even tell my friend Mariah, everything happened so fast.
I miss her bulge. When our love story progressed, then it happened. I couldn’t even explain it to Malton.
I don't want him to instill anger in me or in doc umbok. Because he is not a farmer, he doesn't even know how to plant, that's a big foreign country!
Is Doc's big bulge so smart? Sure. He planted himself in my heart!
'You really are Verine!' cry of my mind.
Can I study to plant so that I can also plant myself in doc's heart? Even in his brain if there is still free space, his brain is probably full of books. Even if it's just a little space, it's okay, it's as if I won't disappear from his mind.
I slowly moved Tit's shoulder to see the familiar mansion we had stopped at.
"Tit ... Here we go." I said.
I took a deep breath. I promised myself that I would not return home without proof.
I want to come back as a doctor ... So that I can do something big. So that they won't be able to question the path I've taken in the case ... it doesn't seem like that's what destiny wants.
Far away, the sour smell of porridge that I always cook from lunch to dinner entered my nose. I used to cook it, because it's my favorite.
Mother Judy opened up to me, her smile was wide, her eyes were also shining when she saw me.
I immediately smiled. I wrapped my arm around him. Mom Judy still smells even a few years old! I let go of the hug and looked at him. Mom Judy is a bit knowledgeable, her cheeks are fat, she's just as tall as me. Her curly hair is short, she is brunette. He was still the same as before, he just had wrinkles and his hair turned white.
"Verine, son. I miss you so much, you look even better! You look so good in Manila! It's good that you're back! Are you a doctor? I'll be the first to call Doctor Verine Garzon!" he said smiling.
I can feel my chest tighten. Mom Judy knows what I want. It looks like I'm a failure again. I always have been. Even to her. "I'm not a doctor yet, mom Judy, I haven't even graduated yet." I forced a smile to say that.
"That's how it is! You're graduating, that's where you're going too!"
I shouldered it. "But before that, I'll go to the kitchen first, the smell of your cooked porridge, mother." I promised him while smiling.
"I'll be the first to make you beautiful when you're a doctor!" its promise.
I turned to Tit who was smiling at the two of us. "My Mom Judy, you're second in line, I'm the first ... I need it more so that I can attract a wife and a child!" promise of Tit.
I smile widely. There she goes again. Tit is crazy crazy again, even last night he was crying because of what happened. But he says he doesn’t bring the problem home.
"Oh, Tiara. You never got married? With the amount of courtship you had before, you didn't have a heart? That's beyond the calendar! I told you before, did you get married when your lover was Leoncio? The one who was always waiting for you here in the mansion starting high school? "said Mother Judy. It's old so I don't remember much.
He has been the butler at the mansion for a long time. He was also a witness to Tit's ordeal before! He almost raised me too. My parents are busy and the only thing I notice is Chantal and the honors she gets and takes home.
"Oh, mom. I don't like it, the pants don't have scratches!" Tit laughed.
"Because you put the scar first so you didn't even bite the eggplant!" laughed Nay judy. This is also naughty.
"You just thought Mom Judy! Then it shouldn't be bitten! Just suck!" Tit laughed.
"That's because, you just eat a mouthful, you don't let them in and shoot!" Mom Judy pinched Tit on the side. I would have avoided Tit in case he was pinched. We all just laughed. We went inside, to the living room.
I look at them, my gaze shifts at the mansion. The nostalgic paintings on the wall, and antique furniture inside the mansion. This is really my home. I can't believe that I'm back here again. It's just sad because I made the promise I made. Yet it's broken.
"Tiara. Here you are." we looked in the direction from which the voice came.
"Hello, Mom." I greeted. Its gaze shifted to me. Then he came over and gave me a warm hug.
"I miss you... Iha."
Oops... Just a joke. I just had that in mind.
Damn it!
It hugged me and smiled sparingly. "Tiara you've come in and lunch is ready." smiling he said to Tit.
Tiara is what they call Tit here in the mansion. I saw the descent. And dad. His face was serious but when we saw him he smiled.
It came to us. He hugged Tit. "Brother, it looks like you're getting older!" asar ni Tit. Mom and dad laughed.
"I'm really old, Tiara," she said smiling.
He turned to me and hugged me. It's loose. "Verine. That's home. Well, will that help the business?"
The smile disappeared from my lips when I heard that. "Brother, I'm thinking about business right away! That's not a business woman. That's my doctor!" pride of Tit.
Tit gave me a meaningful smile. I smiled bitterly at Dad. "Let's eat inside." Mother Judy's promise.
While we were at the table they were still talking about the business. As before, we have not changed anything.
Sister Chantal was able to catch up for lunch while Jacob was able to catch up with us for dinner, because he was still at school. Tit, mom, dad and sister Chantal are talking to each other. Tit's course used to be business management so he knows something, because he also has a business separate from Dad's company.
I only received a 'hello' and a frugal smile from my sister Chantal. As before, he was still far away from me. Maybe in the age gap we are like that.
Lunch ended without anyone asking how I was studying. Even Tit's insistence on inserting that into the conversation was not noticed.
"Miss, are you lost?"
Damn it!
I almost fell into panic.
I turned to the person who asked me.
The man is tall, big and of course handsome! But of course doc is still bulging. Curly hair is her thing, it's darker, it's just her thing. The nose is runny and the lips are red as well. He looks like a Latino mixed with the Filipino race. It wore a dress similar to that of the peasants. She's wearing something, she looks even hotter! Why is that? What about this farmer's hot? But of course! I'm loyal to Doc big bulge!
I'll just hit him on the bulge!
"Yeah. I didn't know there was a hacienda in this part. I wasn't used to it before." I answered him.
"Are you new here? I just saw how beautiful you are." his ball.
I just laughed at what he said.
"Serafino shovel, Raf for short." he promised.
Serafino more like. Seraf-i-no. Means delicious.
I laughed at the thought. He turned to me. My doc umbok is better! Sure! What can I do now? Oops! Maybe the nurses will pick him up again! When I come back, I will inject them with gluten so that even the black of the eyes will turn white so that I can no longer rub my doc bulge!
Tit forbade me to contact him because Herardio might know where he is. Tito Herardio hasn't been here yet. Because they really met in Manila and have never been here before.
Raf walked me around the whole hacienda. He was fun to be with, funny too. He doesn't seem to be just a farmer based on what he tells me. His language is the language of the intelligent. You can't understand when you're just a normal person.
I came home right because it was dinner time. Tit visited old friends here, so he didn’t have that dinner either. As before, they are the ones talking again. I participate but they don't pay attention. Even Jacob knew exactly what was in question.
I went up to my room, took a shower before going to sleep. I opened the window and looked out. Our yard can be seen through my window. From here you can also see the full moon. I used to like to watch it when I was a kid, I would just watch the moon all night until I could just fall asleep on the floor.
I wiped my wet hair with a towel while staring at the moon. I also wanted to be an astronaut when I was young but I preferred to be a doctor.
My forehead furrowed when I heard a noise below. I look down at the yard. There are few plants there and not large trees. I surveyed the entire area covered by my window with my eyes.
My eyes widened when I saw doc bulge looking up at me out the window!
Damn it!
She was even wearing a medical gown! Is he from the hospital? What is he doing here?
It was seriously staring at me.
Damn it! The pogi really is! And his bulge, I can see it from up here!
I felt the hard and cold that hit my forehead ...
I woke up with a sore forehead. Kinapa kapa ko iyon. There is a lump on the right side. What happened?
Your window door seemed to hit me, maybe with the force of the wind.
I saw the towel on my side. It's still wet. Just a few minutes, maybe I fainted.
The masculine smell slightly entered my nose.
Damn!
Doc big bulge! He remembers!
I looked out the window again. I rolled my eyes but I could no longer see the bulge there.
What happened? Did I just think that?
But I really saw him! I knew it was him because of the bulge in his pants!
If he's really here, it'll go up. But he didn’t. I was just wondering maybe.
Maybe it's because I miss him so much and his bulge.