Chapter 28

Danielle Lexington
2 year later..
I sat on the chair facing the sea and sipped my tea. I just moved to Santorini and I love it here. Maybe I will stay here longer than I planned to. When I heard Oscar crying, I quickly got up and walked inside. I picked him up from the bed and patted him to calm him down.
Oscar here is basically a copy of Alan. He and Alan really look alike, especially his eyes and hair.
My dad and I just re-connect with each other a year ago and he's living with me right now. We decided to just let a professional do the work for the company while my dad decided to take a break.
He was upset with me and didn't talk to me for almost a year but when he found out that I have a kid, he immediately came and found me. We talked a lot and he helped me with Oscar a lot.
"There there.." I said as I brought him out to the balcony. Oscar started to calm down and wrapped his arms around my neck. I started to pat him to sleep again.
"So you're to hide him from Alan forever?" My dad stood beside me and asked.
"Yeah." I answered.
"Why?"
"I'm a killer, we both are. I'm still trying to recover, dad. If I let him into my life, I don't know."
"Do you like him?" He asked and he asked me a lot. He asked me this question a thousand times already but I never answered it.
"I thought you want to be happy."
"I am happy. I have you and Oscar already, I don't need him." I said but I know deep down in my heart.. it's all lies. There's not a day that I never think about Alan. He's the only man that I spend a lot of my time with. I even carried his child and of course.. I know deep down that I have feelings for him.
I hope he's living his life to be a doctor now. I just want him to have the best life possible. Maybe he would meet other woman and get married.. maybe have kids. Staying with me won't make him happy besides I couldn't give him anything.
"I'm going back to New York next week." My dad said and I turned to him nodding.
"I will have my guards stand by here to keep you safe."
"Don't worry, Daisy will come next week." I said and he nodded. My dad walked inside and when I'm sure that Oscar already sleeping, I put him back down on the bed. I laid beside him and kissed his cheek.
"I'm sorry that you have to grow up without your dad, Oscar. But mommy will give the whole world for you, mommy will do my best to be there for you." I said and tears fell down from my eyes.
"I love you." I said to Oscar and caressed his cheeks. Not long after that, I fell asleep beside him.
*Next Morning
I woke up and saw Oscar still sleeping. I got up and stretched my body. I walked out from my room and made myself some coffee. I saw my dad already browsing through his iPad and I sat across him.
"You're planning to go back to work again?" I asked.
"Yeah, since you're not working." He said and I chuckled.
"I want to take my time."
"I understand, I'm not forcing you to.. go back to work." He said and I nodded. My dad changed a lot, he told me not to work anymore and just focus on my happiness with Oscar. He took over the company and we're living quitely now.
"Are you sure that you don't need Alan in your life?" My dad asked.
"You asked me about this topic a lot, dad. I thought you hate him." I said as I sipped my coffee slowly.
"I just want you to be happy.. especially Oscar."
"He will be fine, he has a great mom and granddad." I smiled.
"What if one day.. Alan decides to look for you?" He asked as he put down his iPad.
"Dad, why would he look for me? It's not like he's falling in love with me or something. We had fun for a while and that's it." I said and my dad sighed.
"I can kidnap him and bring him here." He said and my eyes widen.
"It's been 2 years and we're doing fine. We don't need him." I said and my dad sighed.
"You don't.. but Oscar does."
"Dad.." I looked at him disbelief and he raised his hands giving up. I heard Oscar crying and I quickly walked into the room. When he saw me, he immediately stop crying. I smiled and picked him up.
I grabbed his bottle of water and gave it to him. He started to drink is water and I brought him to the kitchen to make milk for him.
"Oscar.. my boy.." Dad said as he clapped his hands in front of Oscar. Dad took Oscar and they walked out from the house. I started to make Oscar milk and suddenly remembered Alan.
"I hope he's happy.." I mumbled. After making Oscar's meal, I walked out from the house and gave the milk to Oscar. My dad told me that he already made me breakfast and he said he will watch Oscar for me while I eat.
I looked at the pancake blankly and because dad talked about Alan earlier, it made me think about him more. I'm confuse with my own feelings ever since I left New York. I miss him and think about him everyday but I don't know why I don't have the courage to call him or ask how is he doing.
"Get yourself together, Danielle!"