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Lisa’s POV
I was still not in terms in what had happened between Marcus and I has S*x to me was an expression of love, of the bond, an intimacy that is sacred. I always promised myself that I will only have it with a man who is worth it.At least I thought Kelvin was only to end up being a jerk. I am an old fashioned girl who believed s*x should always be done on the bed until today.I have never had s*x in a bathroom with legs wrapped around a man's waist Lisa you are becoming naughty.
There is something about Marcus that lights me up from inside. One kiss and I was intoxicated instantly. I was ready and willing to do anything he wanted.Truth being told his Arrogant bad boy attitude excited me. I didn't feel sad or guilty. I would do it again and again. He made me feel in a way that cannot be expressed with words. He made me realize that I have been starved all this time. He woke this wild part of me that I don't think I could tame again.
I felt like a bird that had been caged. I wanted to explore and know more. For a second nothing mattered to me, I just wanted to feel him again. I craved his touches to electrify my body.Wait, but why did he leave? Maybe I didn't entice him. Kelvin always told me I am a prude.
Worry began to wash over me like long slow waves. Insecurity was a bad feeling and I hated Marcus for making me feel like that.I need a drink.What if he didn't like it? I didn't tell him to rip out my shirt and do what he did.It's not like I held a gun over his head.I don't care what he thinks. He can go to hell.
Arrrrrgh! Fine you caught me. I care about what he thinks. I am tensed and worried .. I don't want him to look at me in any other way. I Am not a bad girl and some things are new to me.He shouldn't judge. I took a quick shower and changed into my black dress. I sat on his bed and continued to drinking.I needed to forget my insecurities for a while.
I should definitely talk to him about this matter.What do we define what we have? I don't want him to mistake me for a hookup.I want to know what it meant to me.
I hadn't realized I had passed out until I woke up and found the whole room dark. I had a pounding headache and a dehydrated feeling. I staggered from the bed and slowly tried to find the door which I later did after so much struggle. I tapped my hands on the wall until I found a switch. After I switched on the lights, I walked out of the room and began shouting Marcus's name. He wasn't home yet.Was I that bad?
Sulking, I went to my room to get my phone. It was thirty minutes past midnight.Where was this son of his mother? Let me call him. I scrolled through my contacts when I realized I didn't have his number. First I don't know his second name, secondly I don't have his number.
Lisa you just had s*x with a random guy.This house might not be his.You never know. Maybe he has HIV, you had it raw, remember." My subconscious mind yelled at me."Shut up! You are freaking me out..." I rubbed my grumbling stomach.bI went to the kitchen to make myself something to eat when I heard the door being slammed.That must be him...
He walked into the kitchen, took a bottle of water from the fridge and literally ignored me. It was like I was invisible."Are you going to pretend I am not here?"
He paused from gulping the water down his throat and turned around to look at me."I thought you were asleep..." He said dryly.
"Why did you leave earlier? Was I that bad?"
"Lisa I don't want to talk about this right now".He tried to walk out on me but I was quick to block his way.
"I want to talk about it Marcus..."
"I am listening..."
"What do you define what happened between us earlier?"
"S*x..." He said it slowly in emphasis as if I didn't understand.
" I know it is s*x. But what are we after that?" He shook his head disbelievingly and placed his hands on my arms, "Go sleep.We will talk about this tomorrow..."
He pushed me aside and began walking away when I grabbed his arm.We weren't done here Mr."Don't think you will do that and I will just let it slide.I am not a hookup Marcus.I didn't tell you to rip my t-shirt and do all that. So define what that was? Don't even think you will use me and get away with it..."
"What Clara?" He snapped at me," Are you going to tell the paparazzis? Are you going to hook up with your ex boyfriend in a party?Are you going to threaten me that you will leak our s*x tapes? What? Or you think I care.Your model career doesn't concern me. No girl threatens me..."
I wish he would beat me up than call me another girl's name Clara? Was he at her place? Is she his girlfriend? Who the hell was she?
"How dare you call me Clara?" My hand comes hard and fast, slapping him across the face. He stumbled back and looked at me shocked. His face was color drained. He opened his mouth to say something but no word came out.
"You are a waste of human flesh Marcus. How dare you do this to me ? I trusted you, I thought we were friends.You have degraded me to a hook up" I could feel tears prick my eyes. But I wasn't going to cry in-front of him.
"Lisa..." He tried to come close to me but I pulled back.
"Don't touch me..." My stomach tightened as I clenched my fists.
"I can explain..." He stammered.
"No need to explain. I am leaving..." I bite my lip to stop it from quivering.
"Wait?" He tried grabbing my hand but I took the knife that was lazily lying on top of the counter and pointed it at him, "One more step and I won't mind stabbing you..."I ran out of the kitchen to my room, no his room in his apartment probably where Clara has also slept before.bI took my purse and wore my heels.