Chapter 24: torturing the Alpha

Kyra sat on the edge of her sister’s bed for a long time wrapped in a bath sheet after her shower. It was almost time now and to be truthful, she has been looking forward to that night more than anything, she had told her said plenty times that it was not a date but she knows it is only her thinking that way. She slowly took out the lace panties, she told herself that she was going to wear it, it didn't matter if the spell didn't work, she is going to tell herself that it did. The spell didn’t have to work and But told herself she just wanted to feel beautiful that night for herself, She needed to feel beautiful. She couldn’t face being in a roomful of women and men with Conri, feeling like a plain girl. The men and women will start to look up to her from that night forward, she is now their Luna. The wolves who have not seen her yet would be there to see her at the party, she has to dress really well.
The bar wasn’t so fancy, but it's the after party of their mating ceremony. she has to dress in elegant clothes, and she wanted something feminine and attractive. The inn was all about great music and dancing, a place where many of the pack members go to, even some of the neighboring friendly pack are allowed to come there to for their music, their drink, to dance and even visit. She touched the red lace with a small sigh. She and Conri are going to have their first night together as official dusband and wife, as long and alpha, everything has happened so fast, she is trying to register it.
"Hey!" Lola poked her head in the ror from the other room they were staying or getting ready or whatever it was they were doing "Do you want company?"
Kyra nodded and waited until Lola had firmly closed the door behind her.
“ Are you guys almost done or you are not even ready “ checking her sister out, she has not worn her clothes
"Oh, yeah, you don't have to worry about anything, that's why we left this room for you so you could be comfortable, I'm just giving Dani some to get ready, then I will use the bathroom myself. What's wrong with you? You are not done. You don't like the dress? ," Lola said as she looked curiously at the red lace panties. "What are you doing?" she asked again.
"I don’t know. Sitting, here. Deciding if I’m going to be good and dress in blue jeans and a nice, demure top, or wear the red lace and a dress to you provide and make him squirm. Should I be the good girl or the bad one?"
"Which do you want to be?"
"Bad girl. Very, very bad. I want him to look at me and wish he’d never given me up before now, I want him to dream about me and remember every time he touched me."
"You want to torture him?”
"Absolutely torture him. And I want it to last a very long time," Kyra admitted.
"Torture can be a two-edged sword, Kyra," Lola counseled. "Are you certain you want to take the chance? What if you fall in love with him all over again? You guys will have to sleep on the same bed, you might end up falling for him yourself "
Kyra looked around her as if the walls might have ears. She then lowered her voice. "I never fell out of love with him. I’m so far in love with him it makes me sick, but I’ll never admit it to him again."
"Definitely wear the underwear and that really tight black tank with a red lace bra under it. The tank that is open over your tummy. You have a great tummy. All that swimming you do! ." She sounded excited.
Hannah picked up the brush. " Wear your hair down. You never do and he’s probably used to you wearing it up. You have wonderful hair."
"Maybe I shouldn’t be doing this," Kyra hedged.
" Maybe not, but it might make you feel better. And in any case, if he hurts you, he’s going to be turned into either a toad or a slug by me “ Kyra looked at her, squinting her eyes at her sister like she is unrecognizable.
“ What? I told you I have been learning some spells. You don't think I have been playing, are you?” She laughed softly. "That place will be packed tonight, everyone will be interested to see the new Luna, You know everyone we have known will be there, including the ones we have never seen in along time, our friends, our frenemies” Lola said
“ Evans Fealer, Tonia Damaris “
“ That flirt, I hope she is going to be there oresee how good you will look tonight, she has always been jealous of you, I wonder why she has not even come to see you after we got back. she’ll be flirting like crazy, looking for who to take her home tonight. You know there was a rumor that she rejected her mate because she thought she was going to get the alpha." She paused, allowing Kyra’s hair to settle into place.
“ Which Alpha? ”
“ I don't know but I hope it‘s not Conri. Is he the type to look at other women when he’s with you?"
Kyra laughed. "You know me better than that. I’d hit him over the head."
"You look beautiful, Kyra, and dressed up in your black jeans you’ll look awesome. Wear the pair that hugs your hips. Do you have a chain to go around your waist? I’ve got a great one if you don’t."
"I’d love to borrow it," Kyra said bravely. Lola knew more about fashion, if she said she needed a chain then she was going to wear one that will knock off his feet.
"I want to say something to you, Do you mind if I say it? “ Lola asked. "It’s a very personal observation."
" Let me hear it " Kyra felt reckless.
“ Kyra, listen, you know you’ve never been the type of woman to have a knockdown drag-out fight. Even when we were kids, you didn’t really argue, not with Mom and Dad, not with us, and not with your friends. If you didn’t like something you went away. Literally. You close doors on people."
"I know I do." Kyra stared down at her hands to avoid her sister’s gaze on her "I know I do and that’s how I survive."
"It isn’t just survival. It’s your way of fighting. You refuse to engage and then you can’t lose. You’re a very strong woman and you aren’t afraid. You do things most people would never do. You’re way stronger than I am, but you have to know when you close those doors, you don’t leave anything for the other person. Everyone makes mistakes. Everyone. I love you very much and all I’m saying is, you wouldn’t be letting Alpha Conri into your life again if you didn’t still have very strong feelings for him. You would never have admitted for a second that you love him even to me, and you would never have considered dressing up for him tonight "
Lola said as she stepped one foot out of the bedroom, her hands gracefully moving through the air. "I just think if you have such strong feelings for him, you should consider why. What he did was terrible. Or maybe to us it’s terrible. I have no idea what it would be like to try to live and work in the turmoil of what’s been taking place since we left three years ago. But I know now he has suffered enough. You’ve always been good at looking at all sides of an issue, Kyra, but maybe you’re too close to this one."
Her fingers snagged a glittering chain of fine gold as it floated through the hall to her. "This will be perfect on you."
"I honestly don’t know how I feel right now, but I am willing to see where it leads me,"
"You’re very drawn to him," Lola said. "And when he’s close to you your auras mix together. I know You said you closed him out, but you came here with him, you knew Dani wasn’t not in danger, I told you so you certainly didn’t have to do that come here, you could have sent him to bring her to you, it would have been faster that way. You’re going with him tonight and again you could decide not to go, the real ceremony ended this afternoon. What I’m saying is, you aren’t a woman to do things you don’t want to do. You want to be with him. If you didn’t want him to get close to you Kyra , he would never get close to you.
Kyra drew the tank top over her head. "I wish you weren’t right, Lola." She pulled her hair out off her neck and let it settle back into place. "I have no idea what to do with him. I’m so afraid I’ll never survive him again."
"Why?" Lola peered at the earring rack to find the most suitable earrings. "Do you even know why?"
Standing in the red lace panties and black tank top, Kyra looked vulnerable as she pressed the black jeans to her chest. "I don’t think love is supposed to be like this, Lola. I ache all the time. I think about him all the time. I’ve always been whole without a man, but somehow he changed that and now I look at him, this man who was my world, and wonder if I ever really knew him. He isn’t what I thought."
"What did you think?"
Kyra sank onto the bed. "Words like gentle and tender come to mind. Now I look at him and think ruthless and merciless. How can that be?"
"We all have many sides. You do. You know you do. Why are you always so careful to hold yourself in check? You have a temper and you’re quite capable of retaliating when someone has upset you. That’s why you walk away, you’re so afraid of what you might do."
Kyra shook her head. "It isn’t the same. I thought it was the same, but it isn’t."
Lola sighed. "I’m not certain what you’re talking about so I can’t help. Would he hurt you? Hit you?"
"No! Heaven’s no! He would never hurt me no matter how angry he got. No." Kyra shook her head adamantly. "Conri would step in front of a bullet for me."
There was a small silence. Kyra looked shocked. "Did I just say that? It’s true, but I hadn’t thought about it."
Lola patted her hand. "If you know that deep in your heart, Kyra, I suspect you know he’s very much in love with you. Maybe you owe it to both of you to give him another chance, to find out exactly what happened, his reasons, and see if you can live with them."
Abigail pulled on her trousers. "I don’t know but i am taking a step a tonight.”
She settled the gold chain around her waist. "What do you think?"
"I think you’re going to make him crazy," Lola said. "Don’t be surprised when all of sagebrush moon pack shows up tonight at your after party."
"I’m expecting everyone. That’s what Conri said. We should be expecting everyone”
" I think your date is here sis " Dani said saying from outside the door " You look really beautiful, i think he is going to love you"
" I think he already does " Her sister Lola replied. " Go, we will meet you there"