XVII

**Haru**
"Haru you have to eat, please just stop drinking." Asami begged me on her knees as I kept on downing shot after shot of whiskey. This was the third night I was drinking and I haven't been in my house, just lingering in a bar close to Yuki's café.

"Are you happy? I'm finally not going to leave you anymore so you can leave me alone." I said as I pushed her away. She fell on her butt, watching me as I wallowed in self hate before she stood up and left.

It hadn't been long she left, Akio came over and sat beside me before ordering a cocktail and some water.

"Enough with the drinking, give me that!" Akio commanded as he collected my drink, placing the bottle of water which I reluctantly drank.

"So I heard from Rin the bad news, mind explaining what happened?" Akio asked as he took a drink from his cocktail. My eyes studied him before trailing down to a marriage ring on his finger.

"Oh...don't worry I'm not married yet. I bought matching rings for me and Nori so that we would look like a couple, apparently his pregnant with my kid and planned on running away." He explained before I sighed on how similar our love life was except his approach was consensual and he had a way of tying down his love.

I really envied Akio when he was young. Always fighting for what he believed in even if no one supported him that was why he was a rebel to his parent because he had a mind of his, was too carefree and acted average. Effects of growing with a woman he thought was his mother till he was seven.

"Yuki left me. He doesn't love me anymore, he said that he doesn't want me anymore. I love him so much that I feel like I have nothing to live for." I explained, looking dazed at the ceiling as tears spilled from my eyes before I covered my face with one hand to hide my shame.

Akio was quiet as I explained how much fun I enjoyed with my time with Yuki and Takato, Asami's pregnancy, my trip to clear my head, the night I caught another alpha placing his lips on my Yuki and how Yuki reacted.

"You have it tough and I'm no expert on relationships but..." Akio paused, facing me as he gave a serious expression.

"I never expected you to be this stupid. Do you think Yuki is the kind of person that will leave someone that he poured his heart to? All that time you've been together, has Yuki ever fallen out of love with you? Why would he forgive you and fall in love with you if he didn't love you."

"But he said..."

"He doesn't love you? Then why is he letting you see Takato? Ask yourself that. If I wanted to cut all ties with someone, I'd never let them see my kid, they can communicate on the phone and video chat." Akio explained as he leaned on the counter, ignoring the noise from the people in the bar.

"What do I do then?" I asked resulting in Akio giving me a hard punch on the face.

"Be in control of your life. Decide if you want to Asami or Yuki as your partner. Whoever you decide, make sure you don't regret it and court the person properly." Akio advised and stood up before patting the counter. "Well I have a pregnant mate to take of, have fun in your family drama."

"I hate you sometimes." I said before he laughed and patted my shoulder before leaving.

*Akio was right. I was an adult in control of my life and instead of crying and whining about my problems like a drunk, I should be deciding what I needed to do. Who I wanted to spend the rest of my life with.

*Was it with my wife who I recently discovered has feelings for me and is carrying my child or will it be Yuki? My sunshine and the father to my first child. My bright Takato.


The next day, I dropped by in the elementary school after dismissal. I was waiting by the gate when I saw Takato holding hands with the omega friend his attached to, Kairi, if I was right.

Takato saw me and then paused before he ran into my hands and I caught him and lifted him on the air.

"Papa! Papa! Where have you been I missed you!" He asked as he laid his head on my shoulder while I patted his back and smiled.

"Sorry I've been away lil'man. I missed you too." I said and kissed his forehead before Takato started touching the unshaven hair growing on my face.

I dropped Takato down before Kairi hid at his back and glared defensively at me. I smiled at him and waved, earning a hard blush as he hid behind Takato before he started whispering.

"Kai-chan says hi but his too shy to talk. He also said papa and I have beautiful eyes." He said excited as I faced Kairi who hid more and blushed.

"I think Kairi is also beautiful. Please take care of Takato." I said pleadingly making him to pop out from Takato's back and bow his head respectfully. He was very polite and I saw more reasons why Takato liked him.

"Papa when are you coming home? Mama must be missing you too, mama was crying day before yesterday and now mama's sick. I was crying but uncle Shino said mama will be okay."

"Sick? How sick is he?" I asked my face changing to concern before Takato started to think.

"Something about omegas feeling heat that uncle Shino and I are staying in aunt Rin's house while she takes care of mama." He explained as I nodded in understanding.

Yuki was in heat and I couldn't help but think about him. I was worried because Takato said he was crying and if I went there, I'd be doing more harm than good.

"How about spending the rest of the day with papa? I'll text your aunty that I've picked you from school." I said before Takato looked at Kairi then looked at me.

"Can Kai-chan come?" He asked as he gave me the cutest puppy dog eyes that I would always submit to. This was called the power of the child.

"Of course but he has to tell me his family's number so I can call them." I said before Takato nodded and collected my phone.

I watched as he dialed some certain numbers on his own before holding a conversation with Kairi's grandmother as if they were long time friends that wished to be together. My little guy was definitely going to be a smooth talking heartbreaker.


Driving around town with two school children was amazing. Everywhere we went, people always watched, foreigners wanted to take a picture of us and I got to see sides of Takato that was interesting.

He sincerely cared about this omega and kept on saying he will marry Kairi because Kairi is so cute and has no one but him and his grandmother. There were times he would sneak pecks to Kairi earning a smacks hard on the head before I could say 'What a drag'.

I also got to see Kairi's grandmother, Megumi since I already knew about the situation with his parents. She was very friendly and greeted me warmly before Takato kept on smooth talking the nice old omega, receiving laughs from her.

"You know, Takato remind me of my husband. Both of them were always smooth talkers other ridiculous ideas, plus my little Riri is very attracted towards him. It's finally nice to meet the father of the nice boy, his told me so much about you." She said as she giggled, eyes concentrating on what she was knitting.

"What does he tell you?"

"He admires you as much as he admires his mother. God bless that child, his really been through a lot. I don't know what it is but his kindness is of someone that knows how it's like to be miserable. Takato always talks about how one day you and Yuki will live in one house and be a big family." She said before she faced me like she was telling me something.

"I might be old but I know when a youngster is going through turmoil." I nodded and I sighed, my eyes glancing to the children who were colouring pictures before facing her.

"Things are so complicated. I'm actually married because I didn't know that I had a child with Yuki. I found out a while back as well as the fact Yuki is my fated pair, my true half but then my wife is pregnant." I explained as I placed my hand on my head, feeling frustrated.

"My husband used to tell me when I was younger that life isn't about finding it, it's about creating it. When Kai's father was younger, I told him this same thing when he was doubting getting married. Do you know what he asked me?" She asked as I posted close attention to her. "What is life? How can you create it when you don't know what it is? So Haru what is life for you?"

My eyes widened at that question before I started to think. What was life for me?

Thoughts of Yuki popped into my head as I imagined waking up to him and ending the day with him, eating breakfast as a family, going on dates all over the country and taking care of him with a round tummy as he wailed on how fat his gotten.

I snickered at that thought before my eyes met hers. "Yuki is my life." I responded before she nodded her head and then I stood up.

"Thank you so much for your words of wisdom." I said before she smiled at me like I was a light.


I got to Rin's address which Takato told me before he fell asleep. I saw as a younger alpha stood outside the apartment, folding hands as he waited for me.

"Give him to me." The alpha said as I passed the sleeping Takato to his hands before Takato hugged him sleepily.

"You must be Shino." I said as I offered my hand but he looked at me in disdain and walked to the gate.

"Follow me you bastard." He said rudely but I clearly understood since I raped Yuki years ago and accepted it because I had no right to face him.

After getting to Rin's apartment room, the Shino dropped Takato in a room before coming out and dropping two beers on the table.

I watched as he took one before opening it, taking a drink and relaxing like it's Sunday.

"So your the bastard that knocked my little brother up and broke his heart?" He asked as he glared at me hatefully, giving me chills that made me feel like I was a prey.

"I, I apologize because of how I hurt him years ago. Sometimes I wished things turned out differently but I'm thankful because we gave birth to someone as beautiful as Takato." I explained with my shoulders tensed up because I needed his approval if I wanted to marry Yuki.

"Well it's all the past but that doesn't really mean we're cool. Why I called you here is because I wanted you to stay away from Yuki, I want him to move forward."

"I can't do that."

"Then you'll only hurt Yuki more. I watched as how your wife came over to the café and slapped Yuki for just involving himself with you. Hell she's even pregnant and you being around Yuki wasn't helping the situation. I'm tired of seeing my little brother suffer because of you and your family, everyone involved with you gets hurt.

Hell if I was given a chance, I'd take Takato away from you but his attached already and things won't end well if we separate you two. To be honest, I don't hate you neither do I like you but I think the only person that can make Yuki happy is Kirito. The new alpha he allowed into his life, that's why I'm begging you..." He fell to his knees, placed his head on the floor like he way a slave and begged. "Let Yuki be happy. End his suffering already."

My breath caught at how he humbled himself before me, begging me to let go of someone that meant life to me. I was shocked with what he told me but hearing that the only person that could make Yuki happy was that alpha, it made me feel possessive and hurt altogether.

"Your in love with Yuki aren't you?" I asked before he met me eyes to eyes with his smile faltering.

"Ever since he was born but then the universe had to make us siblings because if I wasn't his brother, I'd have marked him way before you knew him. If I also acted selfishly, Yuki would suffer as the omega who mated his brother. So far as his happy, I'm happy too."

"I've heard everything you have to say, you that have to do this. I'll be going, goodnight." I stood and bowed my head before storming out the door quietly feeling myself being chewed away.