MY DEMONS

**Dominic’s story**

From the moment Rebecca left, she called me one more time and confirmed that she was just coming by to pick up her ID. She said she would need it. I was okay with that, just that I didn’t really want to stand in her way when that happened. Just the thought of her being in the company of that troglodyte Logan was throwing me off my normal rhythm. All my life I had avoided letting the wolf out of my body, but now it was too much. It’s getting out of control again. To free myself, I decided to let him loose at least for a few hours. There was nobody around anyway. And I was boiling inside like the flames of hell.
Then it started. My bones cracked, my jaw lengthened, revealing my sharp fangs. Then the claws and slowly my body got covered in black fur.
He was out. I ran wild and aimlessly. It wasn’t so late, and the couples were already out for their evening walk.
The dark forest looked like a ghost. I was trying to avoid the alleys because I didn’t want to meet people or hurt anyone.
I growled a few times, running faster and faster. Until I spotted them. They were talking on a bench close to where I was standing. Now and then, Logan would gesticulate like an idiot and I could hardly keep myself from hiding, so I wouldn’t be tempted to rip his throat out. His stupid laughter got on my nerves.
And since I couldn’t come out of hiding, I made my presence felt with another growl. This time louder, more dangerous. It only had the desired effect for a few seconds. Then they got up and went off in the opposite direction, losing them in the darkness. In that direction was her apartment. What else could I do but return home and think evil thoughts? This game was so damn dangerous, but I had to play it.
I didn’t know how I got back home, but the next day I woke up on the living room floor, naked. As soon as I got up, I remembered the scene. Both of them, sitting on the bench in the park, talking and laughing. God, those thoughts hurt so much, especially since the bond with my Luna was so strong that I felt anger and stabbing pain all over my being at the same time.
Today was also the day that Rebecca would get her last things, her documents. I felt this was the goodbye she had been waiting for. For some reason, this day seemed so gray in every sense of the word. Even my soul had no color. Never in my life had I been so angry at the thought that there could be anything between Logan and her. I had no right to feel that way. Or had I? I knew I had no place in what she was doing, as she didn’t know me to the fullest, but I couldn’t help it. It drove me crazy to think that he called her every day, talked to her every day, and maybe even saw her.
It drove me crazy just thinking about that bastard touching her. I was walking around like a lion in a cage, with no escape. Maybe she was with him now, even if it was to just talk.
From my point of view, everything seemed normal, to be jealous when someone got close to her, to feel like I wanted to kill whoever was crossing the line with her. But maybe from her point of view that someone wasn’t crossing any line, he was just her friend. And because in her eyes we weren’t a full-fledged couple, she believed it didn’t give me the right to get any closer than necessary.
Hell, I just knew that one day she would recover and leave. I knew that day would come. How could I force her not to? I had time to make her love me, and I failed miserably. What did you expect Dominic, when you lied to her about her fiancée? You thought she’d jump into your arms to thank you for taking care of her?
Besides, she agreed to stay with me until she felt better and take part in the Gala and she just did that. I could see that she was making an effort to stay in my company, not because she hated me, but because she might have been grateful until the day, she didn’t need me anymore.
And, from what I could feel, the tension between us was still lingering. Every time I looked at her, she held my gaze, but I could clearly see that even if she was making inhuman efforts to avoid it, she couldn’t or wouldn’t. I was like a magnet that drew her closer.
Every moment she ended up in my arms, I would feel her shivering, and not because she was cold or anything. In one of those moments, we stood so close we could count each other’s heartbeats and mingle our warm breaths. Those days were the days I just wanted to screw my moral side and let the beast surface and take over. He was the kind of beast that meant no harm, not to the woman he loved. He was the kind of beast that possessed, that took what was his and never let go.
I kept pacing up and down the living room, running through many scenarios in my mind. I was so confused in my thoughts that I was on the verge of breaking something. Therefore, I broke the small vase on the cupboard next to the TV. The bang was so loud that it echoed throughout the house. Fortunately, I was alone.
Again, my mind went crazy thinking about stupid things and because Rebecca had some things to take care of along with Logan. The more I told myself he was just a friend, the more I convinced myself he wasn’t. He was just a scumbag predator who, if I wasn’t careful, would make a victim out of her.
With all this she called me this morning to tell me she would be a little late because stupid Logan wanted to talk to her about God knew what. Logan. What kind of name was that? Between crushing and freaking out every ten minutes, I checked my watch. Half an hour later, I heard the front door open. I didn’t want her to know I was home, so I went to my room. I assured her I was not. She went jogging again, so she was wearing her jog suit.
The damn suit molded to every curve of her body. I could see her from my room through the open door. I could hear her footsteps walking towards the room that used to be hers. She was so sure no one was home.

My bad luck, or hers, was that my room was right across the hall from the one that had been hers, so it was a little hard not to watch what she was doing. Especially when she left the door open as well.
Hell, Dominic, no! I fought all my demons and went to the balcony. Inhaling the fresh, still morning air would have made me feel better, wouldn’t it? I remained focused on what could have been more important. She’d finished packing up all her stuff and documents.
I then expected her to come out, but her phone rang. I went crazy when he said his name again.
“Hi Logan... yes, I’ll be right there” Then waited for the idiot to answer. “Yeah, I got a change of clothes. Dominic is not home, so I will take a shower. I have to look respectable. I’m sure he won’t mind.” Then she hung up. What followed drove me completely insane. She talked to him in my own house. Respectable for what or for who? Get a grip, Dominic. She was just taking a shower, nothing else.
I was going to stay put, and then after she would leave, I was going to have a nice, quiet breakfast. However, things didn’t go as expected. The moment she turned on the shower, I imagined her naked, stepping into it. Her body, caressed by the drops of hot water, arching beneath her, using her hands up and down, touching herself for the sole purpose of self-cleaning.
To hell with this mind, which kept putting images in my head, images that weren’t there and which pissed me off even more!
In vain, I tried to defeat any lust for her, any thought of making her mine right then and there. My body no longer obeyed the reason. The wolf inside struggled to remain lucid, but the naked image of her haunted his troubled mind.
I took a few steps towards the door and then turned back, seemingly overcoming my uncontrolled reactions. Then I started all over again until it was impossible to keep my composure.
Damn it all. Rebecca was mine!