Chapter Eleven - I'm really sorry

Samael Wulf

I'd just told Freya that I loved her. She stood in front of me with her mouth wide open in pure shock. The color drained out of her face, and before I had a chance to say anything else, she grabbed her bra, got dressed and sprinted towards the door. I managed to grab a hold of her arm and spin her around to face me.
“Freya, say something,” I begged her.
She looked up at me while snatching her arm out of my grip.
“I’m sorry, Sam. I can’t do this. I can't be who you need me to be, I can’t give you want you want. I'm sorry, I just can’t.”
Her brows were knitted together with sadness and her eyes were seconds away from letting her tears fall. I didn’t know if she meant that she didn’t love me back, or if she couldn’t. If she was in love with another, or what she really meant. She didn’t give me a chance to ask. She unlocked the door and ran out slamming it behind her. I dropped my head down and sighed while resting up against the desk.
Knock, knock, knock.
“Come in,” I said more enthusiastically than I meant to, but I knew it was her.
I hoped she'd changed her mind and would open the door and run into my arms. The door opened, but she didn’t come running.
“Sorry, I forgot. Can you get Kali for me please?”
I stood up from the desk and walked towards her.
“Yes, of course, love.”
She looked up into my eyes, but I could tell she felt awkward. She was trying to look everywhere else but at me.
“Um, I’ll wait outside with Draco.”
I nodded my head at her. She smiled that delicate little smile of hers, but I could tell it was forced. My heart was breaking, I couldn’t believe she'd rejected me like that. I guess I didn’t blame her. It’s not like I hadn’t hurt her. But I just couldn’t stop myself being honest with her. I’d fantasized and dreamed about her every night for the last two years. To finally have her in front of me and in my arms, I wanted to tell her everything. Damn, I was even going to tell her about Kali and my brothers. Hell, even all the fucked-up shit with my mother.
Now, I wasn’t even sure if I’d ever see her again. What the fuck did I do that for? Why did I have to tell her that I loved her? Why the hell didn’t I just fuck her like she wanted me to? No, I had to be the typical control freak, the guy that controls every part of his sex life. What the hell is wrong with me? My brain was going insane as I made my way down to the cells. I walked into the first room, and as always, I heard my mothers,
Tap, tap, tap.
“Fuck off, mother. Now is not the time to test my patients,” I snapped at her, not even bothering to look at her.
Her cackle made my skin crawl, but as soon as I walked into the other room and slammed the door behind me, her cackling ceased. I sighed before looking at Kali. The woman was gorgeous, just like Freya. I could have easily have kept her and pretended that she was Freya, and before blurting out that I loved her and ruining everything, that was actually an option. Now looking at her face just made me want to hide away in my room and drink myself into oblivion. I unlocked her door and let her walk out.
“What’s happening? Where are we going?”
“You’re going back with, Freya.”
She stepped back into the cell and tried to close the door behind her.
“I’d prefer to stay here thank you.”
I raised my brows at her and grabbed her arm. She let out a little whimper but I wasn’t in the mood. I didn’t care if she had changed. To me, she would always be the evil and manipulative Kali. I walked forward and pushed her through the door. I ignored my mother and dragged Kali towards the other door. When she still pulled against me, I’d had just about enough. I wanted today over with, and I needed to get drunk. I threw her over my shoulder and sprinted down the hall and up the stairs.
Dashing outside I saw Draco's dragon and Freya seated on top of him. What I would have given for those legs to be wrapped around me again. Fuck. I held Kali up and she refused to put her arms out for Freya to grab.
“Kali, if you don’t reach up for Freya right now, I swear I’ll let the dragon eat you.”
I looked over to Draco and he obliged by turning his giant head and showing his massive teeth to Kali. She squealed a little but quickly shot her arms up for Freya to take. Freya dragged her up and placed her in front of her. Looking up at two women that looked exactly the same, one I used to love, and one I currently loved, was so surreal. I tapped Draco on the side and turned back toward the castle. I held my head down, and what I would have given for the floor to open up and eat me right then and there.
“Sam?” Freya called out. I spun around with hope in my heart. “I’m really sorry.”
I nodded at her before turning back to the castle, heart in pieces, and a growing need for copious amounts of alcohol to drown my sorrows.



Lucy

What a night! In the human world, celebrating one’s eighteenth birthday was a big deal. For me, it was the day I finally gained my freedom. Getting drunk with my human and Angel friends was part of it, even if the pounding headache was not to my liking at all. Slipping out of the sleeping bag, careful not to disturb the others, I left the barn before pulling some straw from my disheveled hair. “Thanks, Uncle Bela,” I muttered under my breath, groaning as the morning sun made my headache flare up again.
Bela had helped me organize the party, making sure none of the humans invited would see anything out of the ordinary arriving at The Farm, the hidden Angel community in Northern America. For once in my life, I wanted to feel human, not being an under-age Angel with my abilities restricted by over-anxious parents. Restrictions that had automatically lifted the moment I turned legally an adult. First thing, I had stopped my Angel energies from purging any kind of drug immediately from my system. Then, I had gotten royally drunk. Now, a feeling of dread and anxiety had ripped me out of my haze. Something felt wrong, making the hair at the nape of my neck stand up, my energies going crazy inside me.
Time to act like an adult, I thought, allowing my energies to purge the alcohol. I needed a clear head. Flashing onto the barn’s roof, I spread my arms and wings wide, extending my senses as I had done numerous times before. Learning to use all of my abilities, I had struggled mastering the faint mind-reading abilities I had inherited. Now, I opened my mind, roaming over The Farm’s premises, stopping out of habit at the electrified fence that surrounded the vast property. I had never been allowed to go further, but whatever I was picking up hadn’t originated at The Farm.
Another bout of anxiety washed over me. This time, I was prepared, trying to follow it to its source. Somehow, it felt strangely familiar, leaving a yearning, mixed with the faint taste of charcoal on my tongue. “Kali!” I gasped.
For the last two years, I had assumed that the drop of energy I had to leave behind inside her was lost to me forever. Now, the connection had reasserted itself, my energy calling out to me, broadcasting Kali’s fear. Illogical, I chided myself. Kali induces fear, she’s not prone to it. Or ...? Had the loss of her dark, vampiric energies changed her after all?
Myra? You awake? I whispered in my mind, reaching out to my best Angel friend.
What’s wrong? came her immediate reply, chiming softly in my mind.
Kali! She’s back! I replied, letting her access my recent memories. Something is wrong, I need to investigate. Can you cover for me? With luck, I’m back before the humans wake up.
Sure, she replied, broadcasting a yawn. Good luck. Keep me posted.
That taken care of, I concentrated on the strange pull. The feelings didn’t match with the pictures I was getting. It felt like Kali was moving through air, but not with her own wings, while I was seeing a gigantic, shaded pool in my mind. Grinning, I prepared myself, spreading my wings. No restrictions on flashing anywhere I liked anymore. The picture was clear enough to use as an anchor.
A second later, I was hanging above the pool I had seen in my mind. I felt incredibly hot, sweat breaking out of every pore of my body, my stomach lurching. Must be after-effects of the alcohol, I sighed, swallowing the bile rising in my throat. Taking a deep breath, the air tasted incredibly clean on my tongue. Wherever I was, no pollution. Letting my senses roam over the place, I found it to be deserted. Fine. The pull I felt towards Kali seemed to grow stronger, she was headed here. If I had to wait for her to show up, I might as well use that alluring pool, I still felt extremely hot.
Slipping out of my wrinkled jeans and t-shirt, I dove into the cool water. Floating on my back, I watched in fascination as a huge dragon drew nearer, carrying Kali and another woman on its back. With a sigh, I pictured myself in a bright red bikini. No need to antagonize the owner of this pool.

Freya Rose

We flew over the woods near the cabin and my pack let out a welcoming song of howls. They asked if I needed them back, but I told them to continue their hunt. They deserved to let off some steam, and I was hoping to get a few answers from Kali before they came back. Luckily, they were miles away from the cabin, and hadn’t made a kill yet, so I had more than enough time. I knew the twins would have questions for me about their mother, and although I’d caught her scent at the castle, I knew she wasn’t being kept there any longer. Working out what had happened to Kali was more important than finding Selene. She has no powers anymore, so how much of a threat could she truly be?
My thought was cut off as a new scent was carried on the breeze. I inhaled deeply trying to recognize it, but I had no clue what it was, or who it belonged to. My eyes began to illuminate a little as my guard went up. I told Draco to make a sweep of the cabin and surrounding grass before landing, so we could scope it out. He did as instructed and flew up higher into the air. As the cabin came in to view, the source of the new scent appeared. Swimming in my pool was a dark-haired stranger. She was just relaxing in her red bikini and having a good time by the looks of it.
“Who the hell is that? Did one of the guys bring back a hookup?”
Kali gasped at the sight of the woman; I didn’t know why. Maybe she knows her? I thought before mind linking the pack to ask if anyone brought a woman back to the cabin, but they all insisted it wasn’t them. They asked if I wanted them to come back, but until I knew what threat she posed, if any, I didn’t want them in danger. I tried to mind link Traian, but he didn’t answer. I looked around the cabin and the grounds, and took in all the scents I could find, but a few people were missing. Traian and Marik weren’t around at all, which kind of made me feel a little better. At least this extremely attractive woman wasn’t one of theirs. I had no right to be jealous, I mean not after what I’d just done with Sam, but I couldn’t help it.
I could smell Savanah and Lorena, but only faintly. I assumed they were either leaving or just coming back. Draco circled the cabin and flew lower, preparing to land on the grass between the pool and the woods. We landed with a loud thud just as the woman got out of the pool, shaking off her hair like some bond girl. I could hear Draco's thoughts running wild and his giant heart pounding, the boy was in his element. I slid down the side of his enormous body and landed in a crouch on the ground. I stood up and turned to look up at Kali. She was frozen in place, just peering over the edge in complete fear. I rolled my eyes at her and held my hands up, offering to catch her, and she shook her head in reply.
“Kali, seriously. What’s happened to you?” She didn’t bother to answer me, she just shrugged. “Fine, stay up there. You still have your wings, so you can just fly yourself down.”
I turned and walked away, half contemplating telling Draco to shift so she fell right onto her stupid backside. I decided against it. Having him as a dragon was a better plan, especially since I could now sense that this raven-haired beauty had a hell of a lot of power surging through her. I strolled towards the woman as confidently as I could, but the closer I got, the more power she exhumed and I couldn’t deny that I was feeling a little nervous. Not that I’d let her know that. I made sure my energy was building and my heart rate was slow and steady.

Lucy

Still dripping wet, I scrutinized the approaching woman. She had power, but nothing I couldn’t handle. So, ignoring her, I shifted directly in front of Kali, extending my hand to help her get down from the enormous bulk of a dragon. Fascinating. I'd never seen a real dragon before. Placing one hand on the warm hide of the beast, I whispered,
“I don’t mean you any harm, Kali. I felt your distress and came to investigate.”
“You felt that? After two years of being trapped in that hotel, I thought our connection was gone?”
Nodding, I helped her down, grasping her hand. She shivered at my touch. This was not the Kali I knew. Ripping her vampiric energy from her must have changed her, I realized. She felt purged, her soul pure and bright. On impulse, I pulled her into a tight embrace.
“Samael let you rot in that cell for two whole years?” I enquired.
A nod, followed by a sob, was the only answer I got.
“And she freed you?” I continued, turning my head in direction of the other woman. With creased brows, I scrutinized the strange woman, then Kali’s face. They looked like sisters at least, possibly twins. No wonder she had tried to free Kali. Then, why was Kali afraid of her?

Freya Rose

I looked around in shock, not knowing where the woman had gone. It was like she'd just teleported away. I spun around and saw her helping Kali down from Draco. She does know her then, I thought to myself while huffing and storming back towards them. I came to a standstill a few feet away from them and in an agitated tone, I addressed the stranger,
“Would you mind telling me who the hell you are, and why you’re swimming around in my fucking pool?”
I didn’t expect the response I got; it was like some sort of magic. The woman’s bikini morphed into a bright red suit of armor, and out of nowhere, a spear appeared. Where the fuck was she hiding that? Up her ass? I thought as I screeched into the air letting my pure white beam shoot up into the sky. My ashen gray wings burst out of my back and spread out as far as they could go. I wanted her to see my full strength, so within seconds of ascending I ignited my flames, surrounding myself in my white fire with blue sparks of electricity flowing through it.
Whatever she was, she should have been scared or at least a little concerned about my power, but she wasn’t. So, to be extra cautious I filled both of my hands with electric filled fireballs. Whoever she was, or whatever she wanted, I wasn’t about to roll over just because she had a spear and a shiny suit of armor on. We stood there staring at each other, inspecting and trying to size one another up. She wasn’t doing anything and my patience was wearing thin, so I hurled both of my fireballs at her and waited for the intruder to go up in flames.