Chapter Seventeen - I need you

Freya Rose

I was lying in my bed, struggling to fall back to sleep. I’d had a few hours of sleep after the party, but now I was wide awake. The events of the last few days had caught up with me, and no matter how much I tried to shut off and go to sleep, I couldn’t. My mind kept going over everything that had happened, Lucy, Evan, Mason, and the betrayal of the twins. I couldn’t reach them by phone, and Traian was too far away for me to contact him through our mind link. I needed them to explain, to tell me that they hadn’t gone behind my back and did their mothers bidding. How could I believe that she escaped and they didn’t just let her go?
I felt so alone. I knew I had Savanah and the pack, but I'd lost Tristan for good, and now Mason. It warmed my heart knowing that he tried to keep a hold of me, but sadly the mark didn’t work. On greater thought though, I was kind of happy that it didn’t work. He now had a chance at a normal life. Well, as normal as a hunter’s life is. He had a chance to move on and be happy, even if it did kill me inside that it was with my little sister. I didn’t blame her either, she was young and he was a good man. They deserved to be happy, but it didn’t take the sting away.
I lay there in the dark wondering what my life would have been like if I had never found out about Tristan and the other werewolves. Feeling sorry for myself, I wished I could go back and change it all. Regardless of the friends I’d made, none of it felt worth all the pain I’d been through. I was thankful that I’d managed to save the pack from Azael, and I knew I’d have to rid the world of him for good, but right at that moment, I wanted to run away. Wanted to leave and forget all about Azael, Selene, Kali, hell everyone. I knew that wasn’t possible. However bad I was feeling, I knew I’d feel worse if I abandoned the pack. I sighed and rolled over in bed, hoping that a new position would help ease my mind and allow me to drift off to sleep.
A noise outside alerted me to an intruder. I scented the air and knew exactly who it was. Samael, I thought, with more excitement than even I expected. What is he doing here? I questioned myself, thinking that Mina might answer me, but she clearly wanted nothing to do with whatever I was going to be doing. She'd been quiet since my display at Sam's castle. She was besotted with Marik and regardless of his possible betrayal, she didn’t want me messing with anyone else. She was pissed at me, and kept herself distant. I climbed out of the bed and looked out of my window.
There he was, all suited and booted and carrying a bunch of red roses. I couldn’t help but smile when he waved up at me. I felt like a young teen again, butterflies fluttering in my tummy. I dashed out of the room and down the stairs. I made sure I was as quiet as possible when I opened up the back door and then closed it behind me. I sprinted along the grass and threw myself into Sam's arms. He smelled so damn good, wearing that signature Joop cologne of his. I could have licked him all over. He lowered me to the ground and searched my eyes, with a huge smile on his face. I don’t think he was expecting to get that welcome from me.
“You have no idea how happy I am to see you. What are you doing here?” I asked him.
“I haven’t been able to sleep since you left. You control my every thought. I can’t ignore it anymore, Freya. I needed to come here and try to convince you that we would be perfect together.”
All the things he'd done flashed through my mind. All the times he'd hurt me.
“I can’t trust you Sam. You’ve done so damn much. I can’t forget it all.”
Turning away from him I began to walk back towards the cabin. He rushed in front of me and gently grabbed my shoulders.
“Freya, I’m not asking for you to forgive me, or for you to forget. I’m just asking for the chance to explain it all to you. I hated having to hurt you, but I’m sure if you give me some time to explain, you’ll at least be able to understand why I had to do it.”
I looked up at him and no matter how much I tried to fight against it, I couldn’t help but believe him. Maybe it was about time I let him explain. It wasn’t as if the twins were fighting for me, or even on my side by the looks of it. I needed someone else to talk to. Someone to help ease my stress. To walk beside me and be my strength. I was tired of being the strength for everyone else, I needed someone else to take control for a while, to protect and love me, and sure it might have been me using him, but he was there and he wanted me.
“Take me away, Sam.”
“What? Now?” He asked in shock.
“Yeah, why not?”
“Are you sure. Don’t you need to tell your pack?” He asked while pointing back at the cabin.
I didn’t need to turn around to know who was there. It was Savanah.
“I’m leaving for a few days. I need to clear my head,” I mind linked her.
“And the cobwebs while you’re at it,” she replied with a chuckle.
“Can I keep any secrets from you?”
“Nope. Go, have fun, I’ll keep the pack busy. We’ll do some training, and I’ll tell them that you’re off on a mission or something.”
“Thank you. I love you.”
“Love you too. Now scram.”
Knowing that my pack was in safe hands, I grabbed Sam's hand and dragged him off into the woods. We ran as fast as our vampire speed would allow, and I’d never felt so free. We finally got to the edge of the woods and jumped into Sam's car. I sat there staring out of the window as he drove us to a secret location. I did have a little paranoia, thinking he could take me anywhere and no one would know where I was, but I really needed to get away from my life for a while, so even if it was a trap, I was willing to take the risk. I mentally couldn’t cope with it all anymore. The power, the pressure, the damn blood lust. It was all driving me insane. I shifted in my seat and leaned over, resting my head on Sam's shoulder. He placed his hand on my thigh and my bud pulsed in response. Before I knew it, I’d dropped off to sleep.

Samael Wulf

Freya had fallen asleep. It was probably for the best because we had a long drive ahead of us. I was taking her to a secret penthouse I had in Calgary. None of my brood knew that I had it, not even Kali, and with Selene's power gone, she had no way of tracking me either. Regardless of the sire bond, unless she was close, she couldn’t find me. I wanted Freya all to myself, and by her behavior, I could tell she needed to get away, let of some steam, and just be her for a while. Get back to remembering who she was, or even learning who she was now. Let the Luna, boss persona drop for a while and just be Freya.
I could see how much the last few years had worn on her. She looked tired, even if she was still the most beautiful woman in my eyes, she was exhausted. She needed to relax and enjoy herself, and I was determined to pamper her for as long as she'd let me. We drove for another few hours and she was out for the count. I pulled over to the side of the road and eased her back into her seat. That position couldn’t be comfortable for her. I dropped the seat back, then got out of the car and opened the trunk. I pulled out a soft blanket that I kept in there and headed back into the car. She stirred a little, but as soon as I covered her with the blanket, she snuggled into it, letting out the cutest moan.
I gently swept the hair away from her face, and basked in her beauty for a while before clipping in my seatbelt and starting up the car again. I drove for another hour then pulled into a gas station. I was worried that the lights would wake her, but she didn’t wake thankfully. I filled up with gas then headed off on the last bit of our journey. When I finally pulled into the parking lot, I tried to wake her but she was in such a deep sleep that my attempts were futile. I got out of the car and walked around to her side. I opened the door and I unclipped her seatbelt. I then picked her up bridle style, blanket and all. Heading into the elevator I keyed in the number for my floor and waited until we reached the top. I took out my keys, being careful not to drop her. I got into the penthouse and walked her straight into my bedroom, moved aside the duvet and placed her into the bed. I covered her up and laid on the bed beside her. I was exhausted, and I couldn’t keep the smile off of my face as my eyes fell heavy and began to close with my love filling up their view.

Freya Rose

I woke up not knowing where the hell I was. I hopped out of the comfy bed and ran out of the bedroom door. I stood in the middle of a huge open plan living room and searched around for what I suspected would be the bathroom. I spotted a door over the other side of the room and sprinted for it hoping that my guess was right. I burst through the door and spotted the toilet. Oh, thank God, I thought as I shuffled out of my pajama bottoms while heading for the toilet. I sat down and released the pee that was about to burst out of me. I closed my eyes as relief washed over me. My eyes shot open as I neared the end of my pee.
Oh no, please no! I have one poop a week, how can today be the day?
Since becoming a vampire, my bowel movements had slowed right down. One of the perks of an all blood diet, was only one poop a week. The down side of it was that the smell was horrendous. All that dried blood culminated into one giant dead animal stench that I’m sure could be smelled from miles away. Sitting there trying my best to hold it in, I thought about Sam smelling it, and my face flushed with embarrassment. If I could have thrown my ass out the window and pooped out there, I would have, but there were no windows that opened in the bathroom.
Fighting a losing battle to hold it in, I finally gave up and let the gates of hell open. It felt incredible, but the stench hit me straight away. I knew that no one’s crap smelled like roses, but it was a whole lot better than the rancid dead-carcass smell that was currently wafting out of my ass. Just kill me now, I thought while looking around the room for some air freshener. Oh my God, how could he not have any air freshener in this swanky place? The only thing I spotted was some Lynx and some Joop. Oh well, it’s better than nothing. I finished up and wiped, then flushed the toilet and washed my hands. I turned on the light in hope that the extractor fan would take some of the smell but it didn’t. I sprayed copious amounts of lynx, then Joop, before turning the Joop on myself and showered myself in it.
“The air freshener is on the side of the cupboard,” Sam shouted out, scaring me half to death.
My cheeks flushed as the realization of him smelling my crap, hit me. I was mortified. Checking the side of the cupboard, I face planted myself. How could anyone see that all the way up there? It was a small white contraption that sat like six feet above my head while I was squatted on the toilet. There was no way in hell I would have thought about looking all the way up there. I reached up and pressed on the air freshener, letting it sprinkle its wet droplets into the air. I took a quick sniff, and to my surprise the rancid death smell was gone. He must have sourced some magical sort of neutralizer, and I would be sure to ask him about it once my embarrassment had eased.
With a face as red and hot as a chilli pepper I left the bathroom. To my relief Sam was still in the bedroom. I didn’t think I could ever face him again. As I strolled through the open plan living room, I looked out of the giant glass sliding doors. The view of the city was incredible from that height, and as I opened the door to the balcony, I saw a Jacuzzi. I let the morning breeze sweep through my hair, and even though the air wasn’t as fresh as at the cabin, the freeing feeling was unbelievable. I could have stayed in that penthouse forever. I couldn’t take my eyes off of the Jacuzzi, it was calling out to me.
“We can go shopping for a swimsuit, or bikini if you like?” Sam whispered into my ear as his hands glided their way around my waist.
I turned around in his arms, letting his hands fall to my ass instead. Grabbing the hem of my top I replied,
“Why do I need a bikini? It’s not like anyone can see us up here.”
His eyebrows raised as I stepped back and pulled my top over my head, then bent down and removed my pajama bottoms. I wasn’t wearing any panties, so he had a complete eye full. He blushed a little and I loved it. I turned on my heel and strutted out onto the balcony, stretching my arms out as far as they’d go. With a satisfied moan, I released my stretch and headed over to the tub and got in. I shivered as the water went up and over my nipples. I hadn’t thought it out, and should have turned it on before getting in. But I couldn’t let him know that I was freezing my ass off. I wanted to look sexy. Although I was sure that if I didn’t warm up soon, both sets of lips would turn blue.
“Isn’t that cold?” Sam asked as he stepped out onto the balcony.
“Uh, no, it’s fine. Werewolf blood remember,” I lied through my almost chattering teeth. It was fucking freezing.
He chuckled and leaned behind me to press a button. As soon as it beeped, the bubbles started and the water began to heat up. I let out a slight moan as the water warmed beneath my butt. Soon I would be snug as a bug, or hopefully boiling alive like a restaurant lobster. I loved being hot lately, any excuse to wear a fuzzy jumper or snuggle in a soft blanket. I didn’t know if it was because I was getting older, or if it was because of the vampire side of me, but I didn’t care.
“There you go. Hot tubs usually work better when they’re turned on.”
“Are you coming in?”
“Yeah, one sec,” he said while removing his clothes.
I stared up at his bronzed body and couldn’t help but bite my lip. He stripped off down to his boxers, and I held my breath while waiting for him to whip them off. I let that breath out with disappointment when he stepped into the water still wearing them.
“Are you not taking off your boxers? It’s not like I haven’t seen it all before,” I said with a chuckle.
“You haven’t actually,” he replied with a wink.
I looked up to the side and tried to think back to when we'd slept together. Memories washed over me, flushing my cheeks yet again. I remembered every detail, and he was right. I was on all fours faced away from him.
“Hmm, you’re right. I haven’t seen everything. But I know it can’t be that you’re shy. I remember everything and you have nothing to hide with that thing.”
He chuckled as I moved towards him in the tub. I reached down into the water and pulled his boxers off of him before yanking them out of the water and throwing them over the balcony. He stretched up slightly to watch them hurtle through the air.
“Well that’s going to hurt if they hit anyone below.”
I held my hand to my mouth. I didn't think about them injuring someone. When we heard them hit the balcony below, we burst out laughing. Mid laugh he paused and pulled me in for a kiss, I was still laughing so when his tongue entered my mouth I nearly choked. After the initial shock, I eased into the kiss, shifting my legs so that I was positioned on his lap. I could feel his member growing and it was almost at my belly button. I shifted forward a little more before he stopped me and pushed me away slightly.
“We shouldn’t do it in here. Remember what I told you about my sperm, you’ll become paralyzed. We should go to the bed.”
“No. We'll want to use the bed later. There’s nothing worse than soggy sheets. Just scoop me out of here and lay me on the balcony like a dead fish,” I replied then leaned in for another kiss.
He held my face and pushed me away again, after finishing his chuckle, he said,
“I can’t do that. You’ll burn when the sun comes around more.”
“Oh, that’s fine. Have you seen my complexion? You vampires are all tanned. Then there's me. I make the undead look dead.”
“Just shut up and kiss me,” he demanded in a deep tone that sent a delighted shiver down my spine.
I did as I was told and kissed him, not wasting any time in reaching below the water to stroke his member. By now it had reached my belly button and I was shocked how I’d managed to fit it in before. Breathing into our kiss, my tongue slipped into his mouth, instantly dancing around with his own. The cool breeze swept past my wet nipples exciting them to attention. The water was gloriously warm by now and I moved my hand up and down the length of his cock, while he began to tease my bud. I moaned into his mouth and intensified the kiss. His finger circled my bud before moving his hand down and inserting two fingers into my pussy. It felt amazing but it had been a while since I’d had a man inside me and I could barely control myself. With every thrust of his fingers my body shuddered. It wouldn’t be long before I came all over his hand.
I breathlessly pulled away from him and begged him,
“Please, Sam. I need you to fuck me.”
To my surprise he replied,
“I thought you'd never ask.”