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Ozzy POV

It has been weeks since I saw Viv. I think about her constantly. I fucked up royally. I want to see her, hold her, just be with her. I should have never done what I did to her. I thought if I broke it off in a horrible way, then she would never come looking for me or be something I had to worry about. Now look at me; I am the one heartbroken and alone, without her.

I want to see her, but after what I did, I know she will not see me if I could get her alone just to look her in the eye and tell her that I am in love with her. What kind of person falls in love and treats the other person like a piece of garbage? That is exactly how I treated her, like garbage.

I am going to the club tonight, and I will talk to her. I will call Conrad first and let him know I am coming and that I need to speak with her. If he agrees to allow it, then I will go and try to at least apologize for what I did to her. Even if she never wants to see me again, at least she will know how truly sorry I am.

I spend the rest of the day handling some business and answering emails from the damn council. I have only been back a few weeks, and I already want to get the hell out of here for a while. My vacation was way too short.

I pick up my phone and call up Conrad. He answers on the first ring.

"Hello, Alpha, How are you?" Conrad says.

"Hey, Conrad, I am coming into town tonight. I am planning to come to the club," I say.

Conrad is silent. He will not refuse me, but he might make it clear he does not want me there if it is a problem for Viv. I wait a moment before I say anything. I give him time to think his response over carefully.

"Conrad, I am not coming to cause problems," I say.

"I know; it is just that Viv is doing better since the fiasco. I do not want to see her hurt, that is all," Conrad says.

"That is actually why I am calling. I want to speak with her. Can you arrange it?" I ask.

"Yes, Alpha. I will make the arrangements for her to speak with you tonight. There will be no problems," Conrad says, his voice trembles.

"Thank you," I say as I hang up the phone.

I know she is not going to want to see me, but I need to speak my peace. I only want her to know that I was wrong. I need to say it to her. I want to see her face when I say what I need to say to her.

I finally finish up everything I need to finish for the day and sent my drive a text to pick me up in an hour. I leave my office and go into my bedroom to get ready for the night. Nadine comes in as I finish dressing for the night.

"I am leaving, Alpha Ozzy. Is there anything else you need before I go?" Nadine asks me in a sexy voice.

"No, I think I am good for the night," I answer her sternly.

"I am available for the night if you need me," Nadine says.

"I said I am fine, thank you," I say to her.

Nadine looks disappointed, but she leaves. I need to fire her and get another cook. I should have never fucked her. I was mad when Gia and I broke it off. Nadine was something to take out my frustrations on. She let me do anything I wanted and obeyed my every command, but now she follows me around like a little lost puppy.

My car pulls up out front. I go outside, and my driver opens my back door for me. I get into the car.

"Where to tonight, Alpha Ozzy?" He asks.

"Conrad's club, after you drop me off, go get a hotel close by. I am staying the weekend," I say.

"Will Viv be joining you?" he asks.

"I highly doubt that," I snap at him.

The drive to the club is nerve-racking. I have no idea what I will say to how I will say it. I only know it has to be done, and it needs to happen tonight. I am losing my mind over this.

I get out of the car at the club. Conrad is waiting outside. Well, that is not a good sign. I shake his hand as my driver pulls away from the club.

"Staying in town long?" Conrad asks me.

"Just the weekend. I need a break from my life," I say.

"You are welcome here any night you are in town, Ozzy. All I ask is that you do not give Viv a hard time. She agreed to speak to you," Conrad says.

"Good," I say.

I go into the club and make my way to the bar. I sit down. A young man comes over to see what I will have to drink.

"Whiskey?" he asks.

"No, just a coke," I say, shaking my head. I want a clear mind for this conversation.

He brings me a coke over ice. I pay him, and he goes on his way. I sit at the bar for almost an hour before Conrad comes to get me.

"She is waiting for you downstairs," Conrad says.

"Why downstairs?" I ask.

"Privacy, I assume. She does not want everyone to know her business. Right now, everyone knows way too much about what is going on in her life," Conrad says.

"Okay, thanks," I say.

"Room four," Conrad says.

I make my way downstairs into the pleasure room part of the club. It is dark. The moans coming from the rooms are exciting, but that is not what I am here for. I am here to apologize for being a dick.

I go to room four. I knock on the door, and I wait for her. Viv opens the door. She is a vision of beauty.

"Come in," Viv says to me.

I walk into the room slowly. I feel like an idiot for treating her the way I did. Viv sits down at a small table next to the bed. I sit across from her. I can see so much hurt in her face.

"Conrad said you needed to speak with me," Viv says.

I shift around in my seat. I knew this would be hard, but damn I will like my heart will beat out of my chest.

"Yes, Viv, there are some things I wanted to say to you. I do not want to upset you or anything," I say.

Viv rolls her eyes. "Upset me! You already upset me! You told me you were falling in love with me; you lied. Then you called me a liar. I do not go around telling people that I am a witch, for one. You acted like you were okay with me, then you meet me in a hotel room. You fuck me like you hate me, and then you leave me. You Ozzy, you broke my heart," Viv says, crying.

"I know what I did was wrong. You have no idea how many times I have played that over and over in my mind. I am sorry, Viv. I only came here to apologize to you and ask for your forgiveness," I say.

Viv begins to sob. I want to go to her and hold her. I am so angry with myself for everything that happened between us. Fuck it; I am going to hold her. I go to her and kneel at her feet. I lay my head in her lap. She runs her hand through my hair—her touch, how I have missed her touch.

"I cannot be on a roller coaster with you, Ozzy," Viv says.

"I know, I do not want that for you, either, but I do not want to stop seeing you. I want you in my life, but I understand that you probably never want to see me again," I say.

"I am not sure if I can see you, Ozzy. I want to, but I am not sure if that is good for me," Viv says.

I stand up in front of her. I lean down and kiss her. Touching her lips to me sends an electric current throughout my body. I have to have her as mine, no matter what I have to do.

"I will be in town tonight and tomorrow night. If you want to see me, come after work," I say.

I walk out of the room as Viv cries. I did not mean to break her heart. I only want to love her.