Chapter Forty – The panic attack

**Heads up: Sexual content**

“So, you’re saying…” Talia couldn’t breathe. It had all been part of a plan. A plan to turn her into some sort of chaotic creature. Someone had planned for her to be singled out. For something bad to happen to her. A traumatic experience unlike any other to trigger what was running through her veins.

Breathing became difficult again. Her chest was thigh, her lungs not expanding enough. Her breath caught in her throat time and time again.

“Talia. Talia. Look at me” Lilith was there in front of her, hands on either side of her face, forcing her to look at her.

“Focus on me. Focus on my voice” She spoke softly as darkness threatened to claim her yet again.

“Close your eyes. Take a breath. And tell me what you see”

Talia tried to do what she was told, closing her eyes and taking a short breath.

“Just focus on my voice. Do you see the sky, grass, the snow? Tell me everything you see”

“I see the ocean. The sun… The sun is lingering at the horizon, bathing the world in a warm orange light” Talia started.

“Good. What more? Can you hear anything?”

“I can hear the waves. It’s crashing against my feet. The water is cold, but I like it. It takes away from the burning sun”

“Good. Now take a deep breath for me and open your eyes” Lilith finished.

Talia did as she was told, feeling how her lungs expanded, pushing her chest out, drawing air all the way down to and slowly releasing it.

“Good” Lilith offered her a smile and got back on her feet, holding out a hand for Talia to take. With her and Adam’s help she got back on her feet and was able to sit down at the chair once again.

“You had a panic attack. If you feel them coming, try counting down from ten and just breath. If that doesn’t help, your friends now know what to do”

“Thank you” Talia managed to push forward a weak smile.

“Let’s try to avoid more of them though, shall we?” Lilith sounded like a scolding mother when she looked over at Nadine, who looked down guilty.

“It’s okay – I can take it. I need to know the truth. Even if it hurts” Talia grabbed one of the journals, but it was quickly whisked out of her hands by Adam.

“You’re not reading this” He said in his stern, commanding alpha voice.

“I want to” Talia argued, trying to reach for another book, but it was snapped away by Xavier.

“No. Not when it might make you pass out” Xavier agreed with Adam, tossing more journals over to the other end of the table where Nadine was seated, focused on the page before her.

“We three will stay down here and read through this. You’re going upstairs with Adam to take a break from all the bad news and schedule a session with a therapist. I can recommend one for you” Lilith didn’t leave much room for discissions.

“You heard the doctor” Adam said and lifted her up in his arms, carrying her bridal style out of the library and up the stairs to the first floor. He didn’t put her down until they were standing in the hallway surrounded by the sound of people living their lives.

“I need to know more Adam. I have to” Talia tried to plead with him, but he wouldn’t budge. She tried to pout, but it just earned her a kiss on the cheek. Even her puppy dog eyes failed her.

“Okay fine. But you heard the doctor, you’re staying with me!” She took his hand in hers and tried to drag him with her. It was more like a tug to get him to follow.

“Lilith said you were to relax” Adam said as they made their way up to the second floor.

“I know. And you’re going to help me relax” She led them down the corridor and into her bedroom.

“Talia” His voice was a mix of a growl and a warning.

“Doctors orders” Talia said innocently as the door closed behind her.

“I don’t think…” His voice caught in his throat as she pulled of her top, exposing her sheer bra. Her nipples were already hard, pressing against the thing fabric. He could feel Damir perk up; his wolf very interested in what was going on in front of them.

“And what better way to relax” Talia continued, hooking her thumbs on the waistline of her pants, pulling them down and taking one step closer to him.

He couldn’t help himself from looking at her. Her perfect body walking towards him, the air around him getting thick with desire. His length was already betraying him, pressing hard against the fabric of his jeans.

“And take my mind of things” She closed the gap between them, hands sliding under his t-shirt and hooking on, pulling it up as her hands moved up his sides, sending shivers down his spine.

He helped her pull the t-shirt all the way off by hunching down, making the high difference between them a little less for one second before wrapping his arms around her, lifting her up to place a passionate kiss on her lips.

She responded immediately, wrapping her hands in his hair and deepening the kiss, parting her lips so he could gain access, their tongues battling for dominance until they were both out of breath.

“Then this” Talia finished her sentence as her feet touched the ground, her hand finding the lining of Adam’s jeans, pulling both them and his boxer of as she got down on her knees in front of him.

Her hand wrapped around his length, giving it a few strokes before wrapping her lips around the edge. Her tongue circling its head as Adam moaned, his hands tangling in her hair as she started to suck him. First slowly, getting used to the sensation and feeling, before speeding up.

With every suck Adam let out a moan, his hands digging deeper into her hair as she took him deeper and deeper. She could feel herself get wet, feel how her own parts where throbbing, begging for attention.

She placed her free hand on her throbbing clit, massaging it while she continued to blow Adam. His hand’s held on to her head, holding her in place as he started to move, thrusting into her mouth as far as she would allow him.

“Oh… Talia…” He moaned, the sound making her add pressure to her own bundle of nerves, massaging faster and faster.

She could feel how Adam was growing in her mouth, and pulled away, wasting no time to push him onto the bed. He didn’t resist, scooted up so she could straddle him. She was over him in mere seconds, only giving herself enough time to discard of her panties before lowering herself on his length.

A moan escaped her lips as he filled her longing insides, leaning over to place kisses on Adams lips as her hips moved up and down.

He placed his hands on either side of her, guiding her movements, helping her pick up speed as they both reached the climax. The orgasm rolled over her as her muscles tensed, bringing Adam with her over the edge.

She could feel how he grew inside of her before filling her, panting as he trusted with her a couple more times. Talia fell down on Adam’s torso, breathing heavily. Adam wrapped his arm around her, adjusting her so they were laid beside one another.

She snuggled into the nook of his arm, fingers tracing up and down his torso as her heartbeat slowed down to a normal pace.

“Talia” Adam whispered into her hair.

“Yes” She answered dreamily, her mind drifting far away.

“I love you”

“I love you to” Talia lifted her head up, pressing a gentle kiss to his lips before settling against Adam’s body, allowing her body and mind to relax against his body.

Adam wrapped her tighter against him, holding her close and just enjoying a moment of peace and quiet. Just one moment. And then it was over.

**'Alpha. You need to see this'** Devan’s voice rang in his head, making the alpha grunt.

Talia looked up at him, feeling how his body had gone from relaxed to tense in just a few seconds.

**'What now?'** Adam answered back annoyed. **“It’s Noye. And it’s not good.”** Devan answered him, the urgency in his voice forcing Adam to sit up.

**'What did he do?'** Adam got out of the bed, much to Talia’s annoyance, and looked around for his clothing, promising himself a shower after dealing with whatever it was Devan was worried about.

**'He’s on TV. The news – talking about how refugees are illegally camping in town. And how they are a threat to the community'** Devan answered. **'And he’s talking about the sightings of more and more wolves, warning people to be on the alert. He’s strongly recommended for the mayor to hold a public meeting to discuss these issues'**
Adam sighed as he got dressed, meeting Talia’s half confused half pouting face.

“It’s Mr. Noye – Ariel’s father. He’s stirring up trouble” Adam explained to her, and within two seconds she had gotten out of bed herself, heading straight for her clothes, not carrying one ounce about her disheveled looks.

“Talia – please lay down again. You heard Lilith, you need to relax and take your mind off stressing matters” Adam tried, but the look he gave him told him to shut up.

“I’ll relax when I have time to relax. When someone is causing trouble for the people I care about I don’t have time to lay down and madidate” Talia answered, opening the door a little rougher than expected, slamming it into the wall on the other side. Adam stood stunned back as she disappeared out of the room.

“Are you coming or not?”