Her Past

Warning: Self-Harm

Third-person POV:

Hearing the word I want to die, Jack can't help but feel pain in his heart, like someone is trying to take something so important from his life. He can't imagine his life like before, when it was dark and silent. Since she comes into his life. His life becomes like the morning after a big storm. Peaceful and beautiful.

Jack was thinking all this when he decided to ask her.

"Baby, do you want to talk about it now? Don't worry, I will not judge you. Cry as much as you want; I'm here for you. As I said, I will always be there with you, so please tell me."

Naina looks at him with her red eyes, which hold lots of pain.

"Why are you so nice, Jack??"

"Don't be so nice to me, Jack, because no matter how much I try, I will never be able to give you what you deserve.".

Hearing this, Jack smiled and kissed her head.

"You don't need to do anything; your sitting with me is enough for me and trust me, this is why I don't even deserve you."

"No, you deserve the whole world's happiness and sunshine."

"You are wrong here, baby girl, Let's not talk about me; tell me about you."

Naina keeps her head on his shoulder.

"He was my first love; are you sure you are ready to hear me??"

"Yes, if this is giving you peace, then yes, you have all my ears."

Okay.....

It was time when I was in the face of a teenager.

Flashback

15-year-old Naina was very innocent; she is to think that every person is honest and good here, like she is.

In her school, everyone was in a relationship, so looking at them, she also started thinking about how all this felt.

So she decides she will also come into a relationship with someone whom she also doesn't know.

Once she was going to her home when she saw a guy sitting outside of her aunt's house.

She was looking at him. That's when he looked at her. Naina felt embarrassed as he caught her looking at him.

He was not handsome; he did not even have a good body. He had brown skin and a fat body, but the way he was looking at her made her blush. Being innocent, she didn't understand how he was looking at her.

Time change, and within a week he told her that he liked her. She was on cloud nine hearing that someone liked her because, in all her life, no one liked her; everyone just did things like humiliate her or bully her for her body or for looks. Its not like she was ugly or something; its just that she was simple in school.

Two simple braids, school uniform without any makeup

Students used to hate her because she was the favorite student of all teachers. All teachers used to adore her, and during parent-teacher meetings, every single teacher used to tell everyone to be like her. That's why all the students hate her and bully her. They used to tell her that no one would like her or love her because of the way she looked. That's why she was self-conscious about herself

That's why when she suddenly started to get attention from someone, she was so happy.

She used to smile every day; she even started change herself for him. She learned to cook for him and so many other things.

They used to go out almost everyday. So slowly, slowly, she completely fell in love with him. she was deeply love with him. and he also used to tell her that after they married, they would go here, there, do this and all.

He also told her that he had so many girlfriends before, but being blind in love, she ignored the fact that she was not his first, but he was her first.

One day he tried to kiss her but she was not comfortable with him yet because it had only been one month since they were in a relationship.

One day he got angry and told her that he wanted to do break up with her because she was not letting him touch her, which was making him angry.

So she decided to give in and let him touch her but he said that they will go to the hotel, to which she agreed.

She was so literally blind that she didn't understand what he was trying to do.

But luck was with her.

How

Their family got to know about the relationship and she was happy because she thought they will be forever together because she was ready to fight for him with whole world.

But that night, her aunty came and told her something which broke her completely

Conversation between them

"Kya hua aunty uske ghar pe sab maan gaye na," She asked happily

(What happen aunty his family are agree na for this relationship??

Her aunty just shook her head in

Her aunty held her shoulder and looked at her

"Naina, he said he was never in relationship with you."

"He said that it was you who was after him, he said that he not even find you attractive, and you blackmail him; if he doesn't come into relationship, then you will try to commit suicide."

Naina had tears in her eyes.

"Also, he said that... You and him never even talk with each other; it was always you who forced him in all this."

Naina was listening all this and suddenly she started laughing

"Aunty, aap bahut acha mazak karti hai ek second ke liye mujhe laga ye sab sach hai."

(Aunty, you are so good in joking for a second; i thought this was all true.)

"Naina hosh me aau me sach keh rahi hu usne sidhe sidhe sabke samne kaha hai ki wo tumse shadi tho karna tho dur ki baat hai tumse baat karna bhi pasand nhi karta."

(Naina, try to understand, He said this in front of everyone: forget about marrying you; he doesn't even like to talk to you.)

"NAHI. Aap jhoot bol rahi hai."

("No. You are lying.")

"Me jhoot bol rahi hu tho jau jake puch lo usse khud ki usne aisa bola tha ki nhi jau."

("If I am lying, then go and ask him if he himself said this or not, go ask him.")

Suddenly, Naina hugged her and started crying.

"why me, aunty why??"

"Aunty, I want to talk to him. Please, aunty, I request that you please."

Looking at Naina's condition, her aunty call him and asked him to meet her; she didn't mention about naina in all this."

Time skip

Now naina was waiting for him where her aunty told him to come and meet.

He came, and Naina was just looking at him.

Naina had tears in her eyes.

"why"

"WHYY"

"Ager tumhe me pasand nhi hu tho tumne aisa kyu kiya bolo,tumhe mujse relationship rakhna tho dur friendship bhi nhi rakhni tho kyu kiya aisa, kya mila tumhe bolo, jawab do??"

(If you didn't like me, then why did you come into a relationship with me? Forget about having a relationship with me; you don't even have a friendship with me, so why did you do this? What did you get? Tell me, answer.)

"because you never let me touch you, How many times have I tried to kiss you? How many times have I tried to touch you? But every single time you say you want time, I'm a man, and I have my own needs If you can't complete them , then someone else will."

"someone else means??"

"Someone else means Lavanya."

"Your ex"

"You were cheating on me."

"Oh, come on, Naina, its not like you started to love me for real??" He chuckled and look at her from top to bottom.

"Did you ever look at yourself in mirror??"

"Oily hair, pimples on the face, no dressing sense, and a fat body. Did you think that with this body anybody will love you??" Saying this, he started laughing.

"Oh, Naina, let me show you the mirror. You are so good to fuck, but within that, you are nothing but just like a condom, which we can only use for one time and then throw in garbage."

"BUT THEN WHY YOU SHOW ME THAT DREAMS AND PROMISES WHEN YOU NEVER MEAN IT?" Naina shouted.

"Obviously, to get you, you girls are so emotional, especially girls like you. How many tantrums do you show? I will do all this after marriage and all."

"How much hard work have we boys had to do to get you in the room?"

"Okay, you said you loved me, right?? That's right. What about we go to the hotel today, and who knows, I will be happy with you and then agree to give this relationship a chance?"

"What you say??"

Naina was looking at him; she was standing there with her broken heart.

How she didn't notice How can she be this blind to not notice all this? From the start, he was just playing with her.

Naina just turn and started walking away.

"If you change your mind, you have my number, okay?" Naina heard.

Naina was so broken.

The man she started to see in her future was doing nothing but just playing with her.

How stupid she was.

For him, she fought with her friends and family; even she got beaten by her mom because of him, and here he was just using her.

Naina went to her house with heavy heart.

When she came to the house, her mom was cooking in it.

She quickly went toward her, hugged her from behind, and started crying.

"Maaa...Muj...mujhe maaf kar do please."

"Ma, forgive me, please.

Her mom quickly turned and looked at her daughter, who was crying.

She immediately hugged her and started consoling her.

"Stop it. I already told you that guy is not good for you, but you never listen to me, and now stop crying. I don't want you to waste your tears on worthless people."

"Now stop crying. Go. Im coming with your favorite lunch."

"Do you know today I made Jeera rice with tadka dal with your rayta, so go fresh up, okay?" saying this, she kissed her head.

Naina looked at her mom and started remembering how she behaved with her mom for him.

She again hugged her and kissed her cheeks

Naina come into her room and took her phone and then she got her second heartbroken today.

Naina saw he post a picture of her on Facebook with caption

"If you see this near, you don't even look at her She is number one characterless girl She sleep around for money, and she also changes her partners like clothes. she is a golddigger and slut. She was with me, but she left me for a guy who was richer than me."

There was more but she not have strength to read it.

When she notice her mom is coming, she immediately wipes away her tears and looks at her.

Both of them had lunch together, and after that, her mom went to the kitchen.

Naina Immediately called him.

"Why you are doing this, Why are you re not let me live my life peacefully?"

"i will let you live your life peacefully but after you come to XYZ hotel at 10 pm sharp, I will leave you okay. I love you." Saying this, he cut the call.

Naina sit on floor and started crying.

"Why, god, why... you say love is the purest thing in the world, then why do people use the name of love to get their beds warm? Now what do I do, Mahadev? Please help me." saying this, she started crying but she closed her mouth so her mother could not hear anything.

Suddenly she started see her parents are crying because people are asking them questions.

Everyone is beating her parents.

"Ye sab tumhari wajah se hua hai naina tumhari wajah se," Her dad said.

(all this happened because of you, Naina.)

"Arey tu paida hote hi mar kyu nhi gai," Her mother said.

(Why you didn't die when you born)

Naina closed her eyes and ears.

"Nhi, no, i can't let that happen No, I need to do something." Saying this, she wipes away her tears and looks at her parents photo, which was in room.

She looked at the photo and kissed it.

"I'm sorry, papa, ma. Im a bad daughter; i don't deserve your love; i don't deserve you." Saying this, she went into her bathroom.

Where she saw a blade, she took that blade and cut her wrist.

Blood was drooping from her hand drop by drop.

Suddenly, all the good moments she spent with her family started flashing before her eyes like a movie.

She smiled, and within seconds, she fell on the bathroom floor.

The next time she opened her eyes, she was in the hospital.

Her parents were scolding her for doing this; yes, they were angry, but how will they live without their only daughter?

They were crying, and she was too.

When her aunty came, she told her about his Facebook post and his threat.

Her aunty assure her that she will take care of post.

Within an hour, her aunty informed her that he had deleted the post.

After that, what happened to him? She doesn't know, and she also doesn't want to know.

She was happy but still getting heartbroken by her first love is not easy to forget.

In 1 month, she came back to the house, but she was not like before.

She stopped smiling and enjoying life like before.

She slowly slowly started to fall in depression and in depression, she again tried to commit suicide.

Her parents were so worried for her, so they decided to send her on a tour, which she wanted to go on for a long time.

It took her 2 or more years to get over from the depression.

But still, she is not like before; now she doesn't believe in love and all things.

She completely busy herself in study and extra activity.

IN front of world, she is fine but in inside, she is doing a beetle with herself

Flashback end

Naina was still hugging him, and Jack held her only because he knew how much he wanted to kill that guy who gave his baby this much pain.

Jack made a promise himself he will not leave him like this He looked at Naina, who was now sleeping in his arms.

He held her and was also asleep
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Let me tell you something

This is not her past; this is my past.

That's why i don't have strength to translate hindi to english.

I want to say something if you don't love your partner so just end things there. Don't play with someone's emotion. because you don't know your words and how much they affect other mind and hearts, and also don't show fake dreams if you can't complete them because, at the end, we dont cry to remember our moments or talks; we cry by remembering your promise's and the fake dramas you show them.

Also, this is last update of the month and now updates will come regularly from may because my exams are going start from in April, and for that, i need to start preparing now.

If i have time, i will update, but i can't promise.
Also, make lots of comments. im waiting
Happy Reading <3
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