Chapter 26 Found Twenty Six

After my heated conversation with Andrew yesterday, we were not able to talk again because we were both busy with work.

The project I am doing coincides with the event that Lieo is going to. And that made me busier.

Because Lieo participated in Vince's taping, I agreed to be his stylist.

It is not difficult to dress Lieo, he has a good physique and even if I asked him to wear a rag, it will still look expensive because he is the one carrying it.

I am also thankful for what happened.

I don't want to talk to him for now. My mind is in chaos. I am also too emotional. I don't want to do something that I will regret in the end.

I wanted to think, I wanted to be alone. I wanted to be sure of what I felt.

I still don't know if I will go or not to the said reunion. That is why I chose to click the ‘maybe' option in the Facebook event invitation.

Many gave their reaction to my response because they knew what happened to me. That now I am Allison Alonzo and they wanted me to attend the said reunion. I am sure that I am the hottest topic at the reunion.

The things that happened in my life are like a TV Drama. Who wouldn't be interested in that right?!

I never attended any of our reunions before. I don't want to look too out of place because I don't have a boyfriend at that time yet. I don't want him to think that I still love him.

Now that I have a boyfriend I should finally attend the said reunion. But why am I having a second thought now?!

"Hey, are you okay?"

I was startled by Lieo's voice.

I rolled my eyes. 'Do you need to scare me?!"

We are now in my mom's boutique to look for a suit that he will wear to an event.

'You look like not in your usual self. You can share with me your problem you know?! I am your guy best friend right?" He softly said.

I smiled and shook my head. 'I'm okay Lieo. No need to worry about me."

He frowned. "You don't look okay. Come on spill it!"

I sighed. As if I have a choice, I'm sure he will not stop unless I told him what's bothering me.

"Well, it's about our upcoming college reunion," I said first.

'What with your reunion?" He asked curiously.

'I don't know if I will attend or not," I said.

He raised his brow. 'You're unsure because?"

'I'm scared." Only thing I said.

"Come one Alli can you elaborate it so that I can understand you?" He hissed.

I pouted. "Okay fine. I'm scared to face Jester. I'm scared to know if I still love him. That he is still the one I love. I am scared for me and Andrew. What if I just thought that I love him but the truth is I am just overwhelmed by the attention and his love for me? That I made myself believe that I love him because I was desperate to forget Jester?!" I explained and that's when my tears start to flow again.

He hugs me to comfort me. "Everything will be okay Alli."

'I'm scared Lieo, what if I found out that I still love him? What will happen to Andrew? What will happen to our relationship? Tomorrow is our first monthsary but I am still feeling this way. I feel sorry for him. He doesn't deserve this." I said while crying.

He faced me and caress my face. "Look Alli, you don't need to be afraid. And you need to face the truth. You can't run away from this forever because you and Andrew will never be happy if you chose to run away."

'If you guys are meant to be together, it will still be you and him in the end, no matter what happens or whoever you will meet." He added.

'But if you proved to yourself that you still love him then you need to face it. Maybe Andrew is not the one for you. Both of you need to face and accept that." He said with full of sympathy.

I don't know if the things that he said helped me or made me more scared.

But he is right. I really need to face and accept the truth.

***

I open again my Facebook and change my status in the invitation. I made my decision I will attend the reunion.

Charles and Lieo are right, I need to face it. Not just for me but most especially for Andrew.

I just hope that everything will be okay. That nothing will change.

I was browsing my Facebook account when I receive a friend request.

I click it to see who sent the request.

My heart suddenly beat faster the moment I knew who the person is.

It's Jester.

I just look at the friend request. I don't know if I should accept it or not.

Yes. Even though I have had this account for a very long time, still Jester and I were not friends. We have no means of communication.

Before I chose not to add him and wait for him to add me. But it never happened.

I still stalked him on Facebook though.

And it broke my heart when I read on his page that he and Rachel are already married.

Since then I stopped stalking him. I waited for him for so long but I waited for nothing.

I was back to reality when I saw that my chat box popped up.

It's him.

'Hi, Alli! I'm glad that you will come to our reunion. I'm so excited to see you. I hope that you will not ignore my friend request. ;)'

Why are you doing this Jester?! Why now?

I took a deep breath then I click the button "not now."