Chapter 15

**Kade**

It felt right to have Selina against me again. “You’re so beautiful like this. It makes it so hard to keep my promise.”
“Then, don’t keep it. Finish what you started.”
“Selina,” I warned. “You don’t know what you’re saying.”
“Do it, pussy. Kiss me. Fuck me. Take me the way you’ve always wanted to. It’s what you really want.”
I closed my eyes and sucked in a breath. She had no idea how much I wanted to do exactly what she’s been asking. The things I wanted to do to her weren’t legal. I felt her lips brush against mine and before I knew it, she was kissing me. I should stop it, but I can’t. Not when she was the one who held so much control over me.
“Stop Selina, I can’t. Not when you’re just looking for a good fuck. I won’t be your toy.” I groaned.
I took each of her wrists and held them firmly in my fists. This wasn’t right, but dammit, it felt so good.
“Fuck me, Kade. Fuck me or I’ll find a dick somewhere else. Don’t you remember how good my cunt feels wrapped around your cock. Tight. Wet. My pussy grips it so tight and…”
“Is this what you want, sweetheart? To feel my cock fill you up and make you scream my name?” I hissed, thrusting my hips into her.
“Yes!”
“You want me to make you sing like a canary and let everyone know who you belong to?”
“Oh God, yes! There’s the man my pussy craves. Maybe this time around you can fuck me longer than once and leave me in the morning.”
And there it is.
“I never wanted that. You know I never wanted to leave your side. I. Loved. You. I still do and I’ll do anything to have you, but not like this. I won’t give you a hate fuck. The next time I get between these legs I plan to make love to you. Deep. Hard. All night long.”
Our chest heaved against each other. Our breaths were heavy and full of need. My control was diminishing by the second. And her, she was letting her walls down. Baring her soul to me. That’s why I won’t touch her. Not yet. Not until she was sure about me. About us.
“Is this what you really want, Selina?” I whispered, my breath low and gravelly.
I knew what I wanted.
I just wasn’t sure she knew what she wanted.
What she desired.
“Kade…”
“Be real with me, do you really want me? If so, you know what you have to do. Quit dancing and let me take care of you and our son.”
“No, I can’t. Dancing is my life.”
“Then, I won’t fuck you, but mark my words, I’ll be right there next time you go to work. If anyone touches you, I’ll kill the bloody bastard with my bare hands.”
“Get out.”
“I’ll leave, but it’s only to keep me from claiming you for myself.”
I had to get out of there. I left her in her room and slammed the door. Pressing my forehead to the door, I closed my eyes. That didn’t go as planned. I knew it would be hard, but not like this. I could’ve fucked her. But what fun would that be. She’d only hate me in the morning.
“Not what you planned?” I heard Frankie ask. I could hear the amusement in his voice. He was enjoying this. My tortured soul bleeding for the woman I love. Wanting her so bad I could taste it.
“Fuck off, asshole.” I muttered. “Don’t you have a date with stripper boy?”
“Nah, this is way more entertaining. It’s like Days Of Our Lives… mafia style.”
“You’re my best friend, but fuck, I’m two seconds away from kicking your ass.” I threatened.
“So, did you at least get to fuck the love of your life?”
“Aren’t you supposed to be working?” I growled under my breath.
Frankie clapped me on the shoulder and pulled me away from the door. “Come on, let’s go for a drink. It’ll cool you off, lover boy.”
“I’m not thirsty.”
I was thirsty but not for alcohol.
I was craving the beauty in the other room.
Frankie didn’t take no for an answer.
So, here I am currently on my fifth glass of whiskey.
“You know, we were supposed to be a family. I… was supposed to marry Selina.” I slurred.
“It wasn’t your fault.” Frankie murmured.
I slammed the glass down onto the table and hissed. “It Was! Everything that’s happened is my fault. I left… I fucking left and didn’t even put up a fight. She was pregnant. Fucking pregnant with my child! I missed everything. I could have been there for her, but I was a dumbass.”
There were a few times I had went back to her house only to find it empty. A for sale sign was in the yard. It was dark when I’d gone back. I’d hoped to find her there, but she was gone. Just gone. That didn’t stop me from breaking into the house and going up to her room. The same room I’d made love to her in for the first and only time.
“Hey, I know you feel guilty, but maybe it happened for a reason.”
I narrowed my eyes. “A reason? Back then, she was the only reason I stayed in that shit town. If it weren’t for her, I would have killed myself. Back then, my father wasn’t the best and my mother was so out of it she didn’t even know her own name. Selina was the only light in all my darkness. My only reason for living and I just left. I fucking left!”
“Kade, it’s okay.” I heard Selina’s soft voice.
Great!
Now, I’m hallucinating.
“I’ll just be… yeah, I better go.” Frankie muttered. “Sorry, Selina.”
I felt her straddle me, wrapping her arms around my neck. “Is it true?”
I couldn’t look at her. Not when I was this drunk… vulnerable. “Yes, I went back for you. I was going to make everything right with you. I…”
“You’re drunk, Kade.” She whispered. “Let me get you to bed.”
Bed?
“Selina, I lied. I don’t want to wait for your trust to kiss you… to fuck you. I want to be selfish and feel your lips against me. I want to feel you wrapped around my dick when you ride me like you ride the pole. I. Want. You. I’ve always wanted you.”
“Shh Kade, I’ll be right back.”
“W-where are you going? Don’t leave.”
“I’m just going to see if Rose will watch Kaden tonight.” Selina whispered, kissing the corner of my mouth.
Was she…
Was she taking me to bed to fuck me?
Or was this just another tease?
To punish me for leaving her.
If it was, I’d take every hit she threw my way.
I grabbed the bottle off the table and took a swig. I held it to my chest and took a deep breath. this is what I’ve been wanting all along. So, why am I so nervous? Why do I feel like this is high school all over again?