Chapter 7

**Kade**


"Listen to me Kade and listen real good. I don't belong to you anymore. You're the one who walked away, so fuck you."
I blinked and bit back a growl as Frankie led me to the back. I knew he meant well, but I was so angry seeing another man talk to her.
“Listen to me, you can’t expect for her to fall at your feet. This isn’t fucking high school anymore. I’m not saying let her go, just give her some space.”
“You want me to give her some space, you fucking got it. Don’t expect me around for a few days then and tell Giovanni I’m going to be out to clear my head.” I grabbed my jacket and stormed out the back door.
Fuck them.
I don’t need them.
All I need is to get out of the city for a while.
Or I could do the next best thing…wait on Claire to get off work and have that chat like I promised.
“Kade?” Claire looked up from her phone confused as I leaned on her car.
“I’m ready to have that chat. That is, if you’re not too busy.” I said and began to walk away.
“Kade,” She grabbed my arm making her stumble into my chest as I turned to face her. “I’m never too busy for you. Here, will you drive?” She asked handing me her keys.
“Sure, I hope you have something strong to drink. I’m going to need it after my night.”
“That bad, huh?” She asked placing her hand on my thigh.
“You have no idea, sugar.” I replied pulling into her place.
I followed her up to her apartment and took a deep breath. It was time I told Claire the truth of what really happened between me and Selina. I wasn’t afraid of her judging me…it was because of rehashing my past. I didn’t want to talk about it, but she was always real with me. It was time I was real with her after everything she’s done.
All the rough nights of sex, just so I could take out my frustrations.
I ran my hand through my chocolate curls and took a breath. “I met Selina in high school. I was the typical badboy and she was the shy preacher’s daughter. We became close and soon we were dating. Her parents never approved and she didn’t care. She didn’t care that I had a past…never questioned it either. She was my first love…I loved her so much, but one night her father sent his lawyer to send me away. He threatened to tell all my secrets to her. That night, I went to her and made love to her. If I was going away, I wanted to at least have my goodbye.”
“Oh Kade, come here.” She grabbed my glass and sat it on the table pulling me close. “I’m so sorry, I had no idea.”
I clutched her shirt and pressed my face into her stomach closing my eyes. I let the pain out in breaths at a time remembering the time I had Selina for the first time. All the happy moments we shared before it all got ripped away by her father. The tears fell freely not caring I was letting down my guard with this woman. She stroked my head as I held on tighter letting out my anger towards myself. I felt the pain of leaving her after making love to her.
"Shhh, I'm almost in baby." With one final push, I was completely in and I had to pace myself so I didn't hurt her anymore than I already had. I stopped and let her get used to my size when suddenly she nodded for me to move.
Her cries could be heard throughout the room as I rocked my hips and then I heard her yelp making me freeze. "Don't you dare stop! Fuck me Kade!"
With that being said, pumped in and out harder. I was in fucking heaven being balls deep inside the woman I loved. I had to make this last because after tonight I was going to have to walk away.
The guilt was eating at me with each thrust knowing in the morning she would think I had used her. I know I'm a selfish bastard, but I had to have her at least one time. She was going to hate me for this. I kept trying to tell myself I was doing this to keep her safe from him.
She clawed at my back and wrapped her legs around my hips as I went harder. I felt her body tense up around my dick as she came at the same time my seed shot deep inside her. I pulled out and she had already fallen asleep making the ache in my heart throb. I'm so sorry baby. I slowly got dressed knowing this would be the last time I would see her. I pulled the cover over her naked body and kissed her lips one last time before walking out of her life.
“Shhh, I’m here for you Kade.” Claire whispered as I drained my tears.
“Claire,” I choked looking up to her. “Will you sleep next to me tonight? I-I just need someone to hold tonight.”
“Let’s get you to bed.” She said as I lifted my head off her lap and let her lead me to her bedroom. She closed the door nodded towards the bed. “I’ll be right back.”
I laid on the bed with one arm behind my head and one palm flat on the mattress. I watched her exit the bathroom in a button down shirt that came down to her belly button and a pair of shorts. I pulled her by the waist and laid my head on her chest and closed my eyes. Her comforting humming eventually pulled me into a deep slumber.
I awoke the a few hours later and glanced to the other side of the bed. Claire was sleeping peacefully lightly snoring. She was a great woman and if I wasn’t in love with someone else…I might actually be able to fall for her. Sure, she was paid good money in exchange for her pussy, but deep down she was a good woman. I could see through the fake smiles at the club she flashed to everyone. This woman was trying to fight her own pain by making sure no one else did. Claire showed all the signs of a battered woman running from a past. Someone had hurt her and that’s why she chose this path. If she didn’t feel, then she wouldn’t get hurt.
Maybe someday, she’ll find her happiness.
She stirred in her sleep clutching to the sheets gasping for air. “No, please don’t do this. I won’t tell anyone, I promise.”
“Claire, wake up. It’s just a dream.” I whispered.
“Please.” She whimpered placing a hand over her stomach.
“Claire wake up, you’re okay.” I pulled her into my chest holding her as she trembled.
A shrill scream erupted from her mouth as I consoled her in soft whispers. “Shhh, it’s okay. Just open your eyes…wake up.”
“Kade?” Claire awoke from her nightmare and looked up in confusion.
“It’s me, are you okay?” I asked
“Just a dream, nothing but a stupid fucking dream.”
“You want to talk about it, I’m here for you.” I studied her face and I was right all along. She had been hurt by someone.
“I’m sorry Kade, but I need you to leave. I need to be alone.”
“I’m not leaving you like this.” I cupped her cheek and felt her stiffen under my touch.
“I said fucking leave!” She screamed pushing away from me.
I stood up immediately and hardened my gaze as I stepped towards the door. Before walking out, I looked back one more time and softened my expression. “I’m sorry you’re hurting, but I do hope you will be okay. Whoever hurt you is a fool to do so. You’re an amazing woman, Claire and I hope one day you will talk to me about it. I’ll take my leave now, but if you need me you know my number.”
I would leave her apartment, but no way in hell was I going to leave her completely alone. Nobody should have to go through this kind of pain alone. I would stay outside her apartment and make sure she wasn’t going to hurt herself. As I closed her door, I heard the glass shattering and screams coming from inside.
What happened to you Claire?
I didn’t feel anything towards her like I did Selina, but I didn’t want her to hurt herself. I couldn’t live with myself if I left her alone and she did something stupid…like kill herself. If I left now and she did, I would hate myself even more knowing I could’ve prevented this. I guess I would have to stick around a while longer to make sure that wouldn’t happen.
I did say I needed to stay away from the club for a few days, didn’t I?