Chapter 53

FRANCESCA'S POV

"Sia... It was a wrong number? Oh, I'm absolutely sorry, you have to know that I didn't even know it was a wrong number, let's just forget about all that. At least I called you right?" I say biting my bottom lip.

"yeah yeah whatever. I'm still very upset though. You could have at least called me. It's been so long. We also have to talk about your marriage Cesca. I tried reaching out to you after I saw the news but I could barely get through to you. I'm super proud of you and how far you've come. Damien Lorenzo? You're married to Damien freak*ng Lorenzo? Girl! You're certified!" Sia says squealing with excitement.

If only she knew that she is opening fresh wounds and causing me pain all over again. I'm trying my absolute best to forget about my marriage and whom I'm married to. I'm really trying to forget my horrible mistakes and try my best to start a new life afresh. I owe my self this at least. I've wronged my principles, dreams and morals by trusting my parents or even getting married to Damien Lorenzo. I need to focus on getting out of this marriage and starting my life afresh.

"We'll talk about all of that later Sia, forget about me. Let's talk about you, you're now a very successful fashion designer. I'm super proud of you. Do you remember that time in college where are designed a dress for me and I told you designing was your thing? You literally laughed and said I was being silly. But look here! You're now glowing in success!" I grin from ear to ear, I'm truly proud of her, she's now a very big deal and she never even believed she had a chance back then.

"Awwn" Sia coos into the phone, excitement literally spilling from her voice. "Stop flattering me Cesca, I'm not that big a deal"

"of course you are! You're a very big deal. Have a little bit of self confidence will you?"

"okay, okay" she says chuckling.

I can't believe I'm doing this but I have to. I know I'm disturbing her and stuff. I don't want to be a burden to anyone but what can I do? I'm in such a big mess and the only person to be blamed is non other than me, myself. What betrayal could be greater than self betrayal?

"Hey Sia... I'd like to ask a favour from you. If you're busy and can't do it just let me know okay? I know you're always very busy" my voice is hesitant, clearly showing my discomfort.

"Oh Cesca! I can never be too busy for you. Tell me what it is and I'll do it in a heartbeat" Sia states firmly.

"are you in New York right now? If not please don't bother"

"Yeah, I'm in NYC, just got here like two days ago. Now stop stalling and tell me what you want to tell me"

I let out a long sigh while massaging my temples "I'm at a hotel right now and I literally didn't bring any clothes with me. I just need you to bring me some clothes. I have my credit card here with me"

Sia let's out an excited chuckle "Cesca! You'll literally never change. So this is what you've been wanting to tell me? It's actually my honour, infact I'm super excited that you called me. I've been wishing to style you for years, forget about clothes, I'm going to bring my whole designing closet to that hotel and I'm going to make sure that magic happens. This is a dream come true for me, your curves and height is an absolute killer vibe. Just text me the location and we'll be there!"

A smile finds it's way to my lips, oh I feel so guilty for distancing myself from all my friends. They're the best things that has ever happened to me. They've always got my back and all I did was hide away from them. Any sane person would be angry that I never cared to reach out. But here is Sia, she's excited to help me.

"Thank you so much Sia. But, what do you mean by we?" I ask teasing her.

"Cesca! Don't you dare pull my leg. You know what I mean by we" Sia's voice is playful and she giggles right at the end of her speech.

"Oh, don't bother. I won't pull your legs anymore. I'm sending you the location right now"

"okay. We're on our way!" With that, Sia ends the call, the excitement in her voice extremely evident.

I drop my phone, letting out a long sigh. I just sit there, staring off into space and wishing that all these was a dream. That I'd wake up someday and discover that I'm still single, in college. No Damien, no contract, no selfish parents. Just me and a pretentious sister and parents. At least that would be better. I would still have the perfect picture of my parents... A lovely life and a contented life.

Suddenly, a tear slips from my eye and I wipe it immediately. But it doesn't stop, it keeps coming non stop. Before I can even understand what's going on, I'm on the floor, head banging and heart aching, a pull of tears spilling from my eyes, a strange whimper and groan spilling from my voice.

It takes me a while to register it but I finally understand what's happening to me... Or at least I can feel it. I'm crying... I'm crying bitterly, I'm wishing that I was different, that my life was different. That I actually have a chance to be normal. A chance to be loved and cared for... To be seen, to be understood. To live and not just be alive. To love even though I'm innocent... To be loved purely.

But I guess it's not possible... I guess it's not for me.

Love and Innocence can never work together. They repel...

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This is a chapter after my heart... It means a whole lot to me because i can relate to it. Wishing it was all a dream.

When i chose the title of this book... It wasn't just a name. Those three words tell the whole meaning of this book.

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