*****CHAPTER 53

MAE'S POV

It was hard to sleep with Alcot lying this close beside me. I could hear his gentle breath and imagined turning around to hold onto him and cuddle him for the rest of the night. But I knew that was just a mere wish. It was impossible. He was an Alpha and I was a mere servant. A commoner. We were never even supposed to be sleeping in the same room or sharing the same bed in the first place. We were already committing a crime against the rules of the land by doing this. Imagining something more between the two of us was undeniably insane.

I wondered if he was deeply asleep and what he looked like when he slept. My thoughts were all over my head and I decided to be daring and see for myself. I was sure he would be asleep by now. He hasn't uttered a single word for almost an hour that we had been sleeping on the bed. There was no way he would be awake.

Slowly, I turned my weight around to face him but as soon as my eyes met his, I almost let out a gasp in shock. He wasn't asleep. His eyes were wide open and watching me as if he had been expecting me to do this for a really long time.

"Are you surprised that I am not asleep?" He asked me, staring at me deeply without taking his eyes off me for a single second. I blinked continuously to remain my composure and I ranked my brain for an appropriate lie to cover up my embarrassment.

"Uh…yes. I…"

"I am an insomniac." He told me. "It's not the same for you, is it?"

"No." I shook my head gently.

"Then why are you not asleep?"

"Uh…I…"

"Were you having thoughts of me?"

My heart beat accelerated as he said those words. How did he know that? Was it too obvious?

"No, I…"

I was cut off from my words as he gently placed a hand over my waist and pulled me towards him slowly until my body was touching his and I could feel the masculine hardness of his torso.

My heart was beating so loudly against my chest that for a moment, I feared that it would jump out of my chest and betray me.

"Alcot…" I wanted to tell him that this was wrong. That all of this was wrong. But I couldn't. I didn't want to. I liked the pleasure and ignored the pain.

He brought his lips slowly towards my face and sealed my lips in a kiss. I reciprocated the kiss with more intensity. I was hungry for him. Ready to devour him. It didn't matter what the world would think about me.

I, a mere servant, want the Alpha.

He pulled me even closer and his hands traveled all around my body, slowly and gently. I could feel the fire brim in-between my legs and I wanted him to touch me even more. I badly wanted him right now more than anything else in the world.

Alcot reached for my boobs, cupping it carefully into his hand and squeezing it gently. I hissed out a moan as he did so. Slowly, his hand reached for my thighs and he raised my cloak up, rubbing sensually against my thighs. My whole body got goosebumps and my heart beat even faster and louder in my ears. My head continued to yell at me; warning me to stop him from doing this. But my heart wouldn't listen. My stupid heart paid deaf ears to the logical side of me.

As if he could hear the voices in my head that warned me, Alcot paused without notice and broke the kiss, breathing a little heavier to catch his breath.

"Why'd you stop?" I asked him, wanting nothing more right now than his hands over my body again.

"We shouldn't do this." He shook his head at me and tried to pull away but this time, I held him to myself, refusing to let go.

"Why?" I asked him, staring into his beautiful eyes. "Are you afraid?"

"I am not afraid, Mae. An alpha is never afraid."

"Then why are you afraid now?"

"I am not afraid." He maintained. "I don't want to hurt you..."

"I don't care if you hurt me, Alcot." I cut him off from saying anything cowardly any further. "I am used to pain. So, go ahead. Hurt me. I want you to hurt me, Alcot."

He watched my eyes, his own eyes analyzing me and looking like I had gone insane.

"Mae…"

"Please." I kissed him briefly on the lips again. "Take me. I want to give you my innocence. Take me, Alcot."

"Fuck, Mae." He shut his eyes for a second as if he was trying to fight himself from considering my words. "You don't understand the repercussions of what you're saying, do you?"

"I don't care." I reached for the buttons of my cloak and undid them, bringing into view the lacy bra that covered my small boobs. "Please take me, Alcot."

"Fuck, Mae." He cursed one last time and drew me close to him again, smacking his lips against mine in a kiss again. It was careless this time. Passionate and urgent. I felt good, seeing that he wanted me as bad as I wanted him too.

He helped me undress from my cloak, leaving only my lacy bra and panties on. For the first time in my life, I felt proud of myself for wearing matching undies instead of the regular color mix combination that I always wore.

"Are you sure you want to do this?" He paused for a moment and asked me, his eyes locked into mine, searching for answers. I could see in his eyes that he wanted to do this too but was skeptical. He wasn't sure of what he was doing even though he was sure of what he wanted.

"Yes." I answered without hesitation. "Take my innocence, Alcot. Fuck me."