Chapter 27) MONSTER's Lost Possession

****PORISHMA POV

Darkness is the only thing giving me any sense of calmness right now..
Two days ago whatever happened , it happened for the good.. i know i hurted him and broken his trust. His heart is cursing me and trying to find a excuse to give me pain.
But I'm helpless here . I have to protect my friendship and save my baby at the same time. It was a mistake , A drunken mistake which badly effected our friendship . If he thought that I'm heartless then yes I'm heartless because at that time a son needed his mother's warness and love more than a friend needed other friend then how could I abandoned a baby just simply because he was born out of wedlock . I was just saving him from the cruel world. I didn't care if anyone said anything to me but i never tolerate that someone dare to hurt my baby.
My parents will proud of me if they get to know about him. they always told me to do good deeds and Ansh is in the list of my good deeds . if giving birth to a baby without marriage is a crime for the society then I'll accept it gladly. I have no regret , no remorse and no guilt of hiding tha fact that Rudra is Ansh's father.
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I remembered how i went for monthly check-up and when first time saw him , I instantly fell in love with my baby. Even Asha ji tried to understand me that it'll be big responsibility for me. I was single , alone and broken . But i simply said no to abortion and Without my Parents , i came so far from the crucial time of my life . when i realised that i needed him and his support He was not there because he had his own life to live and that's why i kept my promise to not to involve him in our life. When labour pain started , I shed tears for him because he was not there to hold me. I missed him that time too , when I firstly hold my baby in my arms. Ansh features always reminded me of him.
Dizziness , happiness and exhaustion didn't stop me to showered unconditional love on my newly born baby boy. I named him ANSH , means part , part of him , part of Rudra...
I'm sorry Rudra !! ... ,, I said and closed my eyes and tried to fall asleep but sleeps were far away from my eyes. My eyes are swollen and puffy because of constant crying. My throats hurts because of all screaming and yelling.
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A car horns broke my sweet dreams. I tried to ignore and went back into my sleep but that CAR WALA don't want me to complete my sleeps.
I angrily woke up from my bed and roamed around the dusty Corridor of my home. But car horn noices didn't stop so i opened the main door of my house to glance at the stupid car owner.
My scratchy throats suddenly became dry at the sight. A wave of nervousness hit me.
Fuck ! What the hell he is doing here?
Nobody knows about this. I only told Arjun and Neil that i wanted some peace and alone time for myself. I never said anything about coming here then how would he know ??
He was looking at me !!
I felt concious infront of him.
Why he is here ?
I told only Ansh and Asha ji about it .
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He stood infront of me and took off his black sunglasses.
Just as he looked at me a shine brought up its own way on those black orbs and it reminded me of a million stars in a pitch black night . I smiled at him but he didn't smiled back .
What ? Is he trying to hide his emotions but i already saw in his twinkling eyes.
i don't know what's wrong with him...
I sighed !!
His faces were not looking good like he didn't get his sleep from long time. His eyes were red and full of sign of desperation and sign of worry.
Why ? Was he was worry for me and desperated to find me ?? ... ,, I asked myself
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He took the seat and sat in his glory like he owns the house.
What are you doing here ? Davis!! ... ,, I asked him
He was staring at me no wait glaring at me. His nose were flaring due to anger.
Anger but why ??
"You're never going to leave my sight ever again" .... He stood from his seat and came infront of me. His grip on my waist was tight as his tone was threatening . I felt my face turned hot maybe because he didn't let me to finish my beauty sleep. But his gaze were constantly moving from eyes to down on my lips like he was asking permission to kiss me , like he asked me in the past .
I moved away from him and shook my head to control my stupid mind.
"How did you find me ?" .... ,, I genuinely interested in his answer
"I know everything about you Sunshine ! So it was simple to find you here" ... ,, He said in his calculative words
"Yeah ! sorry , i forgot you did a background check on me. so yeah you have information about me" ... , I Mocked at him and he throws daggers at me like i said something wrong
"Sunshine !! You have given my poor heart a strain , don't ever do that again. Alight?" ... ,, His voice was powerful but held calmness at the same time. He hold my body and i molded in him too
Why he sounded worried about me. Why it's looks like he cares for me ? Don't make me confused , You MONSTER !!
He said himself he can't love me but i want love . After encountering little affections from him . I really want love from him . Everyone does and this relationship between us cannot work out without love , trust and compromise. His heart is too cold too emotionless for my liking. It's true that he care so much for Ansh. His bonding is unbreakable with him.
I know that i don't have to protect my life from him but my heart but what now he already has my heart.
He leaned down to capture my lips and i gave him too.. This time , this kiss is slow , beautiful and rythmatic .. Today he is enjoying too . He isn't in hurry neither hungry to bite my lips. I kissed him back and soon he dominate the kiss passionately. He held me in his arms like he is afraid that I'll break by his tough physique.
We stopped and he embraces me in his strong arms possessively. He inhaled my hair. He loves to doing that.
As much as i hated his arrogant egoistical demeanor , i hated how my body was responsing to him more. My brain told me to dispise him while my heart was doing the exact opposite. My heart started beating fast and my insides doing flips as he got nearer me. He stopped a few steps and i couldn't help but gazed at his beautiful lips Monsterous smile Still on his face.
And we kissed again and again ... Sweet , Lovable and romantic kiss.. I blushed and went back to my bedroom. He joined me and laid beside me. I make a gap between us because I'm still not comfortable around him for sharing a bed and too , at my parents house in Kolkata.
Maa Baba will kill me....
His eyes were on me entire time. His eyes held care , affection and love too.
I can see in his black orbs but he will never admit that i know this too so why not play dumbed infront of him.
He is here for me !! ... Suddenly my whole body felt a strong emotions for him . What is it ? I'm happy to see him here . Why ? Is this love ? I hate him but at the same time my heart is beating for him.
WTF ?
I'm in love with him .
In love with Monster ?? ..
Thank you
ShineeSunshine ❤️