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**Bastet POV:**

I woke up with a bad headache. I am not sure if the headache came from the cake or me crying when John walked away from me. It took me some time to realize I was in my room at the association with no sign of John. Checking the time, it is almost nine at night. Fuck I slept all day. I get up to brush my teeth and wash my face.

And that is when I realized I didn't have my engagement ring on. Did John take it off? Is he calling off the engagement? Running out of the bathroom I went to my phone to call him. It doesn't ring it goes straight to voicemail. I sit and cry this is all my fault if I wasn't such a whore this would not be happening. I heard a knock on the door thinking it was John, I ran to open the door.

"McKee...what are you doing here", I asked wiping the tears off my face.

"So, I am back to being McKee? Why do you look like shit?", he asked.

"John knows what we did today", I say with a sigh.

"Really? that is interesting", he said looking in deep thought.

"Why is it so interesting?", I asked.

"Well because the team has been trying to reach him about the rescue mission, but he is not answering his phone", McKee said.

"He.... he...took my ring", I said showing him my empty ring finger.

"Tell me what happened", he said calmly.

I started telling him about the cake tasting and how we had so much fun as well as which cakes, we chose. I told him about all the questions John asked me and that I answered truthfully. Jason didn't say anything, he just listened to what I had to say. I expressed how I feel about it. I am hurt that I hurt him.

John doesn't deserve this. Why can't I keep my legs closed when it comes to Jason? Needing to make things right between John and me even if we don't get married. We still have to work together so I need to talk to him. After I finished telling Jason what happened he spoke.

"Bas look at me. You are in love with two men, two men that can't stand each other. To men who work with each other. You need to take time to figure out who and what you want", Jason said.

"In a perfect world I would love to have the both of you. But the world is not perfect", I said as I fidgeted with my ring finger.

"Welp, the world isn't perfect, and you have to choose. Personally, I would never make you choose. Technically you already have chosen when you said yes to his proposal", he said looking me straight in my eyes.

"And you don't like my choice", I say.

"No, I don't but I respect your decision. What we had was something beautiful too bad we were just teenagers when it happened. I will always love you and I know you will always love me", he said as he kissed my ring finger.

"If you respect my decision, can you please stop seducing me every chance you get", I said smiling.

"When you are finally married, I promise I will try. Engaged does not mean you are fully taken", he said with a smirk.

"So, I better get married fast than", I say as I kiss his forehead. I missed Jason my best friend, not Jason, my lover.

"I hate to say it, but first you have to make up with John or you can marry me", he said with a smirk.

"I would love to marry you both if I could. We can assign one in the front hole and one in the back hole", I said with a laugh.

"Well, I call dibs on your ass", he said as he kisses me.

"You are a mess, Jason. You are right I need to make things right with John", I say as I get up to leave.

**McKee POV:**

Seeing Bas in such a bad state after the day we had worried me. When Bas told me all the questions John asked that she answered truthfully too. As she talked about the events that happened when I dropped her off.

I can't help but be kind of happy he took his ring back. A part of me wishes I could ask her to marry me but deep down I know I can't. I have to admit to myself John had the bigger balls to ask Bas to marry him.

"Bas look at me. You are in love with two men, two men that can't stand each other. Two men who work with each other. You need to take time to figure out who and what you want", I say as I wipe the tears from her face. My baby is under so much pressure.

"In a perfect world I would love to have the both of you. But the world is not perfect", she said as she fidgeted with my ring finger.

"Welp, the world isn't perfect, and you have to choose. Personally, I would never make you choose. Technically you already have chosen when you said yes to his proposal", I said looking her straight in my eyes. But I know her choice was based on her wanting to be a good commander and daughter.

"And you don't like my choice", she said smiling sadly.

I told her a lot of times that I respect your decision. What we had was something beautiful too bad we were just teenagers when it happened. I will always love her, and I know she will always love me. I kissed her ring finger. My mother's ring would have looked great on her finger.

She jokingly requested me to stop seducing her. But she and I both know that no one can make her feel the way I do. And no one will ever will. To come to a compromise, I told her once she is married, I will try to not see her as the sexual goddess she is.

Let’s be real an engaged person is not married. Having sex with an engaged woman is not a sin in God's eyes. I missed this Bas my best friend, not Bas my lover. We have been friends since we were little. If it wasn’t for the growing pains of puberty, we might would have never crossed that line.

"I hate to say it, but first you have to make up with John or you can marry me", I said with a smirk.

She would love to marry us both if she could. But I am sure that wouldn’t work out the way she thinks. In ger mind one of us will be in the front hole and one in the back. She knows I call dibs on your ass. She laughed and that made me kiss her.

"You are a mess, Jason. You are right, I need to make things right with John", she says as she gets up to leave.


When she left, I stayed there realizing not only is she my lover but my best friend. And I was there for her as her best friend, not as her lover. I have to hand it to John I didn't think he had it in him, taking off her engagement ring that was extreme. I must say it felt good to be there for her when she needs me. But I can't help feeling that I pushed the woman I love into the arms of another man.

John does love her, but I know he doesn't love her more than I. I have no intention of stopping being with her. Once she is married, I will have to but until then I will make her cum better than John can. He can't satisfy her like me if so, she would have never let me inside her.

Nor is he the best man for her he is a coward. I read the report on the night his family was slaughtered. It didn't seem right that he was the only one who survived, so I looked further into it. The photos at the scene show the bodies of her family inches away from the safe room he was inside when his uncle's team got there.

In my opinion, he stayed in there while his family was banging on the door of the safe room. He watched them die, fucking coward. I hope he doesn't take her back so I can ask her to marry me.

I leave her room and go to mine; I am too tired to go home tonight. It seems like all I do is think about how her mother's ring would look beautiful on her finger. Bastet will always know how I care for her. I know if the shoe was on the other foot, she would feel just how I am feeling. She might even try to beat the woman up. I lay on my bed and jerk off to memories of me and Bas today.