Part 28~Guilt~

Part 28 ~Guilt~


Shandy locked herself inside her room, throwing her body down onto the bed, totally overwhelmed by guilt. She just wanted life to return to how it was before all this....before Rolod....before Donovan and Devin.
She wanted to find a way out of this place, she didn't wanna be here anymore, she'd rather live in the mortal world than to face this shame.
She had succumbed to temptation so easily. Just because Donovan had been with so many women she had jumped into having sex for revenge. She couldn't blame him for her careless actions...it was her own damn fault and she felt like trash for the egregious act she had committed. Revenge wasn't near as sweet as she thought it would be, she had fallen victim to it, which had done nothing but make her feel cheap.
She loved Donovan....there was no denying that...yet she had stooped to an irrefutable low by laying with his very own brother. A brother that was undoubtedly still broken from the loss of a woman he had loved.
She felt completely to blame for what had taken place between her and Devin.
However he was as much to blame as she was. He hated his brother for things that had happened in the past and had used her to get back at him...she had fallen right into the trap...hook...line....and sinker.
Yet she accepted full responsibility for it all.
Darkness loomed over her head....she wanted to run.... to hide from this vile act she had committed. Even though Donovan had engaged in so many illicit affairs, they had all happened before she came along. She wasn't sure she could ever face him again after what she had done, or any of them for that matter.
Shandy lay balled up in the middle of the large bed, her body shuddering from tears that would not end. Suddenly she felt the bed give and a large warm hand smooth over her arm causing her to jump. Shandy immediately sat bolt upright.
She held her face in her hands, trying to hide her shame from the man that sat in front of her now. The man she so dearly loved.
"Shandy... listen to me for a minute sweetheart." He spoke, using a calming hushed tone.
"P...please ju....just go...I...I need to be alone." She cried out, her breath hitching.
"I can't leave untill you hear me out Shandy....you've gotta listen.....please." He pleaded.
"None of this is your fault.....the reason you were drawn to my brother is because he filled your head full of horrible things about me, and a lot of them were untrue...you're not to blame. Please don't feel guilt for what happened. I love you so much. I want and need you." He assured her, trying to make her look at him.
Shandy's heart skipped beats with his words of love, spoken with so much care. He pulled her body close to his, completely encasing her in his arms. She rested her head on his chest inhaling his comforting scent that calmed her as she began to relax.
"I Love you Shandy....so damn much." He whispered, holding her face, gently connecting his warm lips to hers.
"I.....I love you too." She responded in a lowered shaky voice, tears still dripping from her puffy, bloodshot eyes. She couldn't look at him....she still felt the horrible sting of shame & guilt.
"I'm sorry....I'm so...s...sorry." She clutched onto his shirt, falling into another violent fit of tears.
He gingerly stroked up & down her back, kissing the top of her head, trying to sooth her.
"It's ok Shandy.....it's ok. Let's just start over.....can you forgive me for my past? I never meant for you to be hurt." he pulled back holding her face tenderly.
"Y...yes I..... Ive...for... forgiven you already, of course I do...what you did happened be....before we were together.....Wh.....What I did.....was much...much worse." She sobbed, dropping her head back down onto his chest as she was riddled with intense emotions once again.
"Shandy......stop....please. We've gotta put all this shit behind us!" He held her face making her look at him.
"Do you love me!?" He asked, raising his volume a tad and staring affectionately into her tear filled crystal blue's.
"Yes.....I.... I love you....more than any....anything in this world." She sniffled.
"That's all that matters Shandy....we love each other and we're gonna forget what happened.....ok. You were convinced by my brother that I was still behaving like I used to....it's not your fault, and from this moment on, we are starting over like none of this ever happened. We will never speak of it again....do you hear me!?" He replied in a deep serious tone.
Shandy still cried, hanging her head in disgrace as he spoke.
"Look at me!....Look at me right now!" He lifted her face, her eyes trying to avert his gaze.
"I said look at me noww!" His tone full of authority.
"I...I...can't....I just can't." She struggled to get out of his grip, her breath hitching so badly she sounded like a child that had been spanked.
"Dammit!...I said look at me!!" He held her tighter, forcing her to meet his stare.
He pressed his head to hers holding her snuggly in his grasp. His eyes swirled different colors of blue & green.
Shandy became silent, absolutely hypnotized by the beautiful swirling colors in his orbs.
"You will forget about what happened between you and Devin, as though it never took place at all. You will remember only your friendship with him....you and he were never intimate." Donovan locked and held her with his intense gaze.
He softly pressed his lips to hers as he wiped away the last tears that ran down her cheeks.
His arms wrapped around her relaxed form that had completely stopped shaking. Their lips gliding together in perfect sync with each other.
He had wiped her memory clean of the act she was so ashamed of. Never again would it be an issue. He knew she had been led astray by his younger brother's words of pure hate against him. He knew she had only done it because of that, and she needed to be set free of that memory....and now she was.
Their bodies melted together in perfect harmony, both of them needing the other's touch.
They were so high on emotion that nothing else mattered. Love pumped fiercely through their veins as they fell into a coma of ecstacy.
"I need you Shandy...I Love you my sweet." He whispered, his lips cascading down from hers, to her chin, to her neck as she mumbled words of adoration for the man she loved so dearly.
"I need you too, and I Love you More than I've ever loved anyone or anything....I....I feel I'd die without you," she tenderly ran her fingers through his soft hair staring intently into his specks that swirled beautiful colors of gold, red, and purple.
The Clothing they wore vanished, bare skin pressed together...fiery bursts igniting into sparking flames of rapture that mere words could never elucidate.
Shandy felt her body floating as they became one, the hefty need for each other being met. He filled her with himself as she called out his name, her legs quivering as she wound them tightly around his body.
Donovan laced his fingers with hers holding them above her head looking down on this flawless beauty that lay beneath him taking his breath away as he gave her everything he had. They had fucked before...but this....this was different.....the two were submitting themselves to each other entirely, giving in to the intensity of their love for each other.
This was the act that would bond them....he felt it....they both felt it. She was his and he was hers. Never would there be anyone else for either of them. His father had spoken of this and he had not believed his words, just as he had not believed anything his father had told him that had come to pass....and here he was again....feeling this deep dimension of emotional elation that shook him from the inside out, touching him in a way that he could have never imagined, yet he felt it. Their souls were becoming one with each other.
He couldn't kiss her enough....couldn't touch her enough....couldn't love her enough. His body hummed with contentment... such devine fulfillment coming to the highest of peaks.
He groaned loudly, her body writhing in pleasure making him want to press harder....push deeper to become one entity with her.
Shandy's body shuddered harshly with every hip plunge he landed inside her. His pulsating cock impaled to the deepest depths of her body.
"Oh God Donovan!" She cried out, her fingers digging into the flesh of his back as he growled out in sublime exhilaration.
She could feel the band that was wound up tightly within her like beautiful brightly colored ribbons knotted together getting ready to unravel. It was just enough pain mixed with blissful gratification of the likes she'd never experienced. It was as if she'd lose her mind in a most delightful way.
His finale was approaching, causing him to move at a speed no ordinary man could manage. He couldn't help but to groan loudly as he inched closer to a height never before reached with any other woman in his entire lifespan.
Shandy screamed out as the band snapped, sending her into a freefalling fireball of glorious bonny, the ribbons unraveling and spiraling into vibrant beautiful colors of splendor all around her.
Her body stiffened, tremors erupting throughout every inch of her.... touching her very soul. A feeling of tranquility, then bombs detonating one by one, releasing spurts of joyful bliss in such lovely abundance.
Her cries and whimpers sent him over the edge as he began to drift into a land of jubilation, his body attached to hers as though they had liquefied into one.
The bomb blew up inside him.... a large cloud of sparkling confetti lit up behind his closed eye lids. He gritted his teeth hard... a loud growl passing his lips as he pushed his body forth reaching incredible depths, while she screamed out his name again & again.
"Ohhh God!! Ahhhh!" She yelled out, her fiery tunnel clamping onto him snuggly, while the two held onto one another as though their very existence depended upon the other.
She could feel the force of his love spilling over inside her, sending her into a drunken state of euphoria.
For the next 5 minutes they danced together in a land of pleasure they had never known.
Their mouths slid together in sloppy wet kisses.
They didn't want to separate....their emotions were so strong at this frozen moment in time. "I wanna stay like this....connected to you." Donovan spoke in a deep lowered voice, his tongue circling her wet swollen lips.
"Don't let me go." She smiled, smoothing her hand over his forehead lovingly, unable to remove her eyes from his that flickered the most beautiful colors of fuchsia and aqua.
"I Love you.....my heart is so full right now...I....I just can't say it enough." She smiled, rubbing her hands over his perfectly chiseled face.
"You don't have to say anything....I see it all in your eyes my love" he pressed his lips to hers once again. She kissed him like she needed his breath or she'd be unable to exist.
"I too see everything within your eyes" she smiled sweetly. They lay side by side facing each other.... unable to remove themselves from each other's hold.
"I am yours...and you are mine. We are one." he whispered.
"Yes." she agreed, kissing the lips she would forever crave as long as she lived.


■AN:■
This would make a lovely ending buuuuut it is not the end. Ohhh nnooo dear readers...there is more to come my sweets. Mwwaahahahaha! *Author grins evily.*