Chapter 10: The first kiss

We all sat in the dining just staring and gazing at each other heads down but uttering no words for some minutes, I could feel he wanna talk but he kept holding back, like a child that's afraid of being grounded when he commits a crime.
“Where did you learn to cook this much,”? He asked.
“From my mother, she thought me almost everything I know,” I said.
“Wow that's nice, well I didn't get to learn much as there were maids everywhere to do all the house chores, cooking, cleaning, laundry practically everything,” he said.
“Bravo, that's nice, you were born with a silver spoon, we had no maid just I am my mum and I do almost all the house chores, cleaning, cooking, laundry with my bare hands,” I said.
“So what about your dad for you only made mention of your mother and not with your father,” he asked.
As I take a low breath and paused eating for a while.
“Well I never knew my father, my mother said he left us while I was still a toddler to run after one rich lady,” said as tears rolled down my cheek I sniff and then continued with my food.
“Am sorry I never meant to bring back the old bad memories of your past,” he said.
“No, it's fine, it's nothing so no need to apologize,” I said.
“So tell me how have you managed to keep cold feet,” he asked.
“Well I thank God for my mum who had to work shifts just to make sure she provides for me and my education,” I said, and I had to also switch jobs to also help my mother out,” I said.
“Wow that was a horrible experience growing up for you,” he said.
“Well but that made me strong and gave me the courage to stand any changes heads on,” I said.
“But have you been into any relationship,”? He asked.
It took me some time before I could answer that because my love life has not been anything to write home about and I have been lucky with any man.
“Love life, relationships I have been into a few relationships but they all ended in caus,” I said.
“But how do you mean they all ended in caus,”? He asked.
“The first guy I went into a relationship with Josh at my eighteenth year birthday that was when we first met and one week into the relationship he started demanding for sex and which I couldn't give to him then he ended everything, stopped calling, texting, visiting and even when I do call he won't answer.
Then I met Dave during my first year in high school, he was such a sweet guy, caring and I thought he was the man for me I have never had sex with anyone before but for him, I was willing to allow myself to be fucked by him, but not until I caught him fucking my friend in his apartment that was barely three months in our relationship.
And then there was Sam, we met at the grocery store, I think he was randomly picking ladies then I fell for his charms, with Sam we spent two years together but he keeps demanding for sex that was what he was very good at sex, but I never gave him the chance, not knowing he was busy fucking other girls, the worst part of all this love story is Sam never have a place of his own he was squatting with me and I pay the whole bill, I caught him fucking another lady on our bed the very day I came to the interview to be interviewed by you, this my love life,” I said.
“I am just short of words, what a horrible experience you have gathered in the sight of me and I know you will think that all men are the same but that's not true. Because I was also a victim of such but not as horrible to be compared to yours. While growing up I said to myself I don't wanna be in any relationship not until I am twenty years of age. And so it was I stayed and kept to myself until I was twenty, then came this friend of my mother, Lisa came by on a faithful Saturdays morning with her daughter Sasha and kept talking and talking in the garden before I could release our lips were locked together in kissing, and it felt good, that was how we came together. A year later she lost her mum and I took the responsibility for her family’s wellbeing I did all and everything and one day she woke and told me she doesn't think she could continue and that she needs a break that was after investing three years in the relationship,” he said.
We all have been a victim of circumstances and have both loved the wrong people and I was getting tired and ready to go to bed as I stood up I felt a grip on my arm as I turned around I saw his eyes looking at me like he wants to undress me with his eyes.
“Sir is everything alright,”? I asked.
Quiet he was but was continued gazing at me, then slowly our heads move till we our lips were locked in intense kissing, I could feel the hairs on my body stand and tingle then I could feel this sensational movement from nipples that send a cold shiver down my spine, trying to let go but I couldn't I was enjoying the sweet kiss then I felt this touch on my breast and the nipple goosebumps from my head to toe before I could know it I feel myself sitting on the dining then spread my legs so wide to enable him easy access but then he cuts shot the kissing.
“I am sorry, I am sorry I never meant to take advantage of you,” he said and walked straight to his room and me to mine.
As I walked into the shower to wash and I could feel my hands moving all over my body, trying to get rid of the just occurred incident but no the more I try the more the pictures keep flashing through my head, then hurriedly I took my towel around myself and walked to his room.
Knock knock. As he opens the door then I grabbed him and pushed him to the bed, jumped on top of him and wrapped my hands around him, I could feel the blood in my veins pumping so fast, I tried to restrain myself but I couldn't I find myself want and craving for more of him, he took a grip of himself.
“Miss Anderson, please stop, it's not right and I wouldn't want to take advantage of you or because you are staying in my house, and I am your boss, so let's stop it,” he said.
And I was like what kind of a man is this what other men will pay and die for he's getting on a platter of gold and he's rejecting it.
I was so ashamed of myself and I was so embarrassed that I could hardly move my feet or even stand up from the bed where I sat.
Now be will see me as an ambitious or cheap girl, what have I done to myself, there I sat for almost twenty minutes.
“He could stay here with me on this bed I wouldn't mind,” he said.
“No sir, I will have to go to my room, for it's right to what I have done and I am truly sorry sir, it won't happen again,” I said.
“Why are you feeling embarrassed or shy about yourself, calm down it's nothing and like I said before you could still stay here with me if you want to,” he said.
“I am fine and good sir, thanks for your concern, I bet to take my leave and I am sorry for acting uncontrollably,” I said.
Then I left my room feeling embarrassed don't know what to do as if the world should just come to an end or the ground should just open and swallow.
Then I came to the sitting room and walked down to the wine bar and took a bottle of vodka I drank and the more I drink the more flashes of what occurred flashed through my mind and there was the dream it was like a replica of the dream my heads were just spinning and spinning before I could know it off I go. I slept off on the catch.
Then I heard my alarm ring and it was five-thirty and I was so weak and still tipsy as a result of the hangover from the drink last the night I lay back down and five minutes later the alarm rang again then I managed to get up from the bed and head to the kitchen made him breakfast then headed back to my room and took a shower and dressed for work and then the time was five after seven then I left for work without letting him know. He was surprised.