10 : I can't lose you again

**Evelyn :**




Letting me stay in the room while he and his brother spoke calmly to each other, at his request, I could only obey what I was told because their disagreement was not my business, even if Raphael had dragged me into his world.




I still couldn't comprehend what he really was. No wonder I was attacked by those plants, or whatever they really were when I broke into Raphael's home. They were just for security, if anyone really breaks in with dangerous purpose. Although I began to understand something but the fact that Raphael is the so-called 'Phoenix', according to human story legends about him controlling the entire Paranormal world, I was still trying to ask myself and couldn't tell if I really was dreaming or not.




So who is his brother? If both were relatives...his brother is Phoenix too?




Remembering what he said in his study about my childhood and my father's actions, tears welled up in my eyes. Now that I think about it, I really don't remember what happened to my parents, only that I grew up with my grandfather with the story that my parents died in a car accident, so they wanted to send me to the Orphan's home, decide what to do with me but my grandfather applied to look after me.




Me, under the age of 18, to take me into his care until I reach the age of majority.




But... I'm over 18... and I still live with my grandfather, knowing I'm not normal. Of course, no longer in the house with him but from time to time I visited him, knowing that he was the only one left of my relatives. Had inherited an apartment that now stands deserted and lonely while I am here at Raphael's house.




An unpleasant pain struck my heart and I barely controlled my tears. Although if there was an antidote to my poison that would cure me, I knew there was no such thing. I was mutilated for life.




Coming to the window, I looked out into the ocean that was spreading all the way. I didn't even notice that there is water nearby because from the front view I had seen were only house and trees. Am I trapped here for life?




Putting my hand on the glass, I took a deep breath and closed my eyes.




*God, please give me some sign. Maybe, at least this whole nightmare will end...*




As soon as the thought went through my mind, my eyes opened for an unknown reason but I soon realized why. In the reflection of the window, I saw Raphael, silently standing behind me, watching me, in his full height, not even apologizing for disturbing me that he had sneaked in the room without any sound.




If I didn't know him completely, I would have started screaming in fear but barely suppressing the surprised sound, I turned sharply at him.

"What are you doing? You can scare people like that," my voice trembled.




There was no emotion on his face until a small smile appeared in both corners of his cheeks.

"But it's good that I'm not human and you're far from unusual, my love."




I tightened my face in a grimace of pain.

"Thank you for reminding me that I am a monster who can only kill," my lips pursed, I turned again to bask in the view of nature, closing my eyes again, trying to erase the whole world around me.




I heard a low growl behind me and before I could understand the cause, a firm arm wrapped around my waist and I was pulled back to a muscular and bigger body. My eyes widened in shock and I swallowed hard to try not to show my fear when I saw him in the mirror, close to me. His eyes flared at mine as I watched his head lean against my ear, never taking his eyes off me until I felt a hot breath on my skin.




My heartbeat quickened and I tried to stay calm, even though I wanted to disappear from the face of earth because I felt my feet falling from nerves.




His breath, hot as lava, touched my ear once more.

"How many times do I have to remind you not to call yourself a monster, or in other bad words? Do you really want a spanking?" a menacing whisper sounded through the quiet room but he seemed to say it too loudly about how much I was jumping at every sound.




My breath no longer knew where to go because there was no air at all, how hard it was to swallow. I had totally lost the ability to speak.




The heat that evaporated from his body seemed to me that I was in the sauna because it was so hot that I wanted to pour ice-cold water on top of me.




My poison didn't work on him. I have never learned to defend myself, knowing that I don't need it, but now ... Now I didn't know what to do because he had all the power in this case.




*He is not human.*

*He rules the Paranormal World.*

*He is immune to my poison and touch.*

*He is bigger and much stronger.*




I was trapped and vulnerable because I knew I would lose.




My thoughts were interrupted  when I felt him breathing hard, like an animal that had just gotten a huge meal without eating for days.

"Do you understand what you're doing to me?" his voice was low.




Instead of answering, I could only shake my head in a dismissive gesture. What effect can I have if I am nothing? I was just a natural mistake.




"You make me feel weak but also much stronger. It's a pretty dangerous combination. I could hardly be stopped if I wanted to kill someone. You understand that, Evelyn? You understand I'm not going to let you go anymore? Whatever it takes, I'll kill myself before you first leave me! Do you understand me? " Tears welled up in my eyes because I didn't know what scared me more. The thought that I no longer have freedom, or the thought that he was going to kill himself if something happened to me.




I was completely confused.




"Do you understand, Evelyn?" Raphael whispered in my ear. I could only nod again with a small 'yes' under my breath.




He exhaled hard when he heard it.

"I swear if you leave me, no one will stay alive in this world. No one will stand in my way to get you back," he promised, I could only turn my head to face him, not believing what he was telling me.




*Is this man crazy?*




My shock, of course, turned into a complete nervous breakdown when I discovered how close our faces are to each other because if we lean closer, I could already touch his lips. I felt even hotter inside but this time not out of fear but trying to ignore the feelings and gaze he gives me, watching my face and lips, I could only end it all by changing the subject.




"Do you like cheese?" my question was completely out of place but I couldn't help it. I panicked and had to fix it somehow. I wanted to cover my face in shame, how ridiculous it sounds.




Raphael looks stunned and confused for a second hearing my question, blinking his eyes, once, then a second time when something unexpected happened. He tilted his head back and laughed out loud. The sound was low and hollow, vibrating throughout my body.




I could only watch his face flare with a big sweet smile and then I seemed hypnotized. Something in that act made me feel happier that I had made him laugh, even for a short moment.




As his laughter subsided, he ended it with a small grin as he tilted his head, his gaze lowered on me again. I noticed a bright dancing spark in his pupils.




"Sweetheart, why are you so cute?" the question shocked me when I blushed like a tomato and lowered my head down to hide from his burning gaze but he did not allow it for long. When I started to retreat to get out of his grip, it was literally impossible to when I felt his grip around me getting tighter.




"And where do you think you are going, love?" Raphael's voice is suddenly heard right next to my ear, "You know you can't get away from me," hearing a grin in his voice, I can only blush even more. From the fear, anger, and the feelings his voice and touch give me. That was too much.




"I want to go to bed, I'm tired," instead of shouting at him and running away, I no longer had the strength to resist. It took a long time before I could think again.




Raphael immediately softened towards me.

"Of course, darling. You can go clean up and go to bed. In the meantime, I'll go to the study. I'll do some things while you rest."




Without even asking what it meant, I smiled and waved at him like a robot. When I was finally free of him, I went to the bathroom for a moment but before I went inside, I turned to him one last time. Death was already watching me closely.




After swallowing my saliva hard, I got to talk again, because in those flaming eyes I could literally drown.

"By the way, where did your brother go?"




Raphael just shook his head.

"Disappeared again. But I know he will show up again, knowing that I have you here," when I see his face darken, I didn't ask anything anymore.




Waving at him again, I disappeared into the bathroom, finally being alone with my thoughts.




Approaching the mirror, I looked at myself.

*What can an ordinary girl give to a man who has everything?*




Not knowing the answer, I took a shower.

I was tired and going to sleep I wanted more than anything in the world.